Okay, so this one is definitely a solid three kettles.

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The new Maternity Home stood at the far end of Kenilworth Row, nearly half a mile from its previous home. The years had not been kind to the old building, and in the burst of energy that came after the Christmas bomb scare, the Borough Council decided it was time for a change.

As chief medical officer of the hospital, Dr. Patrick Turner was expected to find new sites for both the hospital and the local clinics. It seemed the Council has little regard for an already over-full patient list, limited resources and the needs of a recuperating son. Fortunately, Dr. Turner was not in this alone.

It was Shelagh that found the location for the hospital. Her years cycling the roads of Poplar had given her a thorough knowledge of the area, and her sharp mind forgot nothing. Soon after the request was made, an offer was made on an old grammar school up the road and the hospital claimed its new home.

Now married several weeks, with Timothy back at school and Patrick busy as usual, Shelagh devoted much of her days to overseeing the renovations necessary. Choosing paint colors most suited to relaxing nervous patients or expectant mothers, organizing files and furniture, she was in her glory. Her husband teased that she was nesting like a spring robin, and perhaps she was.

The hospital was due to open in just a few days, and with all the large tasks completed, only the finishing touches remained.

Intent upon sorting the last bottles on the shelf in Patrick’s office, she didn’t hear her husband arrive. He stood in the doorway for a moment, taking the opportunity to admire his lovely wife. She was wearing  his favourite skirt, a soft jumper hugging her curves, and her hair dressed casually. He feared this outfit wouldn’t last long in her rotation. Just this morning she seemed nervous about it. Pushing off against the door jamb, he made a quiet entrance and moved silently behind her.

Shelagh started when he wrapped his arms around her, pulling her body up against him.

“Oh, goodness, Patrick!” she exclaimed.

“Goodness, indeed,” he agreed. He nuzzled her neck. “I like your hair down like this.”

His voice was husky, and Shelagh tried to steel herself against its effects. “Fred will be along shortly with Timothy, Patrick. You’ll have to behave.”

Laughing softly, he stepped away, giving her room to turn and face him. “Why is Tim with Fred?”

“There are some boxes from home that needed to be picked up, so he stayed at home to let Fred in. Besides, I didn’t want Timothy to walk all that way. He’d be too tired out.”

Rather than argue the point, Patrick moved back closer to her. “So we’re all alone, then?”

“No, Dad.” Timothy’s voice came from the doorway. “Sorry, Fred. I should have warned you. They’re always like this.”

Bearing a large box, Fred beamed at the newlyweds. “I’m sure I don’t know what you’re talking about, young Tim. So where’d ya want this ‘un, Mrs. Turner?”

The blush receding from her cheeks, Shelagh pointed to the desk in the center of the room. “Right here, Fred, thank you. The other boxes can remain in the waiting area. Did you bring the plant as well?”

“We left it on the chair. Mum, Fred has to run some deliveries for Nonnatus, may I go with him? I promise I won’t lift anything heavy or climb any stairs.” Tim was well versed in his stepmother’s protective streak, and for the time being, did not mind.

Shelagh glanced quickly at Patrick, looking for his reaction. “I suppose if it’s alright with Fred…” Somehow her statement sounded more like a question.

“Absolutely, Mrs. T. I could use the compn’y. ‘Sides, me and Timothy here have a bit o’ catching up to do. Loads to tell.”

“I’ll pretend that’s a good thing. Thanks for your help, Fred,” Patrick responded. “Dinner out tonight, remember, Tim. I won’t ask Mum to cook for us after all the work she’s put in for my surgery.”

“Right then, we’re off. I’ll have him back before tea.  Give a shout if there’s anyfink else,” Fred told them as he led the way out.

After a moment, Patrick turned to Shelagh. “You don’t have to look to me for permission, my love. Your Timothy’s mum now, you can make decisions on your own.” His smile was encouraging.

She nodded and sighed. “I know, there’s just so much to get used to. But thank you.”

Patrick shrugged in agreement. “Well, then. What’s in the box?”

“I have no idea, Patrick. I found it in the back of the hall cupboard and thought perhaps you’d need it. It’s labelled “Surgery.”

“You didn’t open it? Why not?”

Shelagh fidgeted with the last bottles to be shelved. “I didn’t want to, Patrick. It was obviously put there a long time ago. I thought you might want to open it on your own.”

Patrick peered at his wife, confusion drawing his eyebrows down. “Shelagh, it’s your home too, I have no secrets from you.” He pulled her to face him. “I understand, sweetheart. You’re afraid there’s something about Marianne in there.”

“Not afraid, exactly, Patrick. But who knows what’s in that box? Or how it will make you feel? Perhaps it would be best if you went through it whilst I organize the files outside.”

His arms tightened about her, pulling her closer. “No. We’ll do this together.” He bent and pressed a kiss to her forehead. With his hand caressing her cheek, he continued, “I haven’t forgotten Marianne, Shelagh, but the wound has healed. It’s a bit more scar tissue, perhaps, but I can think of her without pain now. Timothy can, too. What do the nuns always say about love? That it will fill in where it’s needed?”

She chuckled. “You always know the right thing to say, Patrick.”

“You won’t say that when we’ve had our first fight and I won’t speak for days. I’m quite the sulker, I’m afraid.”

“Fight?” she cried, outraged. “Why on earth would we fight?”

A deep laugh broke out from his lungs. “We’re married, Shelagh. We’ll find something, I’m sure. Now, are we ready to open the box? I can’t remember for the life of me what could be in here. When I moved into the old surgery there wasn’t much room for personal items, so I just boxed stuff up and forgot about it. Tim had just been born, there was quite a lot going on. I suppose life got in the way because I never gave it a thought again.”

“Really, Patrick. Life doesn’t get in the way of our possessions, it’s the other way ‘round,” Shelagh admonished. The tenderness of the last few minutes had faded, and shades of Sister Bernadette appeared.

Patrick scoffed, his finger lightly tapping the brooch she wore. “Hah. My love, if I want to give my wife little gifts, I’m going to give her gifts. It makes me happy to find pretty things for you.” He kissed her quickly, then added, “And before we find the topic of our first fight, let’s solve this mystery.”

The box was soft with the effects of time, and after a firm tug, the top pulled away. Patrick lifted a sheet of tissue paper and revealed a collection of frames and knick knacks. Reaching in, he pulled out a dusty clock.

“I loved this clock! It was from my first registrar, Morton Baird. He gave it to me when I qualified, to remind me to take time with all my patients.”

“Are you sure it wasn’t to help your tardiness?” Shelagh teased.

Placing the clock on the desk, Patrick said, “This stuff is filthy. I’ll get a cloth to clean off the dust.”

Shelagh began to pull the frames from the box, examining each in turn. The largest, a painting of Patrick’s medical college, she recognized from the label. That would go nicely on the wall.  A few other frames held photographs from school and his first surgery, but several photographs were unframed. She looked through the small collection, a small, happy smile lifting the corners of her mouth. At the end of the pile was a image of a university cricket team.

Patrick and Timothy enjoyed the sport, she knew, but she had no idea Patrick had played. She scanned the photograph searching for him, her eyes coming to rest on a tall, slim young man on the end. She breathed in sharply as she took in the sight.

He looked very handsome in his whites, confident and ready to conquer the world. There were none of the lines of care on his face, its very smoothness making him seem a different person. Yet she recognized the boyish grin and felt a stirring when her eyes traced the broad shoulders.

She was so wrapped up in her perusal of the picture that she didn’t hear Patrick return to the office, damp cloth in hand. He paused in the doorway, surprised by the stillness of her back. He moved quietly towards her, curious to see what had her attention.

Still unaware of him, her breathing quickened. Patrick’s eyes glittered as he felt his body respond to her.

“Oh!” she cried, startled. Guiltily, words rushed from her. “Oh, you startled me, Patrick. I’ve-I’ve  found some old photographs, perhaps you’ll want them up on the mantlepiece…” her voice trailed off as her blush deepened.

Without speaking, Patrick took the photograph from her nerveless fingers, and turned her around to face him. He removed her glasses, placing them on the desk to her side. His hands slid up her arms, giving her a chance to either control her feelings or give in to them.

Shelagh’s eyes fluttered shut and he bent his head, his lips lightly tracing her jawline. In the few weeks they had been married, he had learnt that his wife was just as shy as he had anticipated, but that if he were patient and gave time for her own passion to bloom, she would meet him desire for desire.

Her breath escaped in tiny shudders, warm and moist against his ear, and he held himself back from taking her lips. His mouth slid down the length of her throat, and he stopped a groan as he tasted her skin with the tip of his tongue.

Shelagh clenched and unclenched her fists, her body tense with emotion. Rational thought had since abandoned her. Their surroundings faded from her mind as her sole focus became the soft spot at the bottom of her throat where his mouth was. More. There had to be more.

She wrapped her arms around his waist and pressed herself against him. Her acceptance of him complete, Patrick took her mouth with his own, not rough, but not gentle. They kissed passionately, their breath blending. Shelagh parted her lips, welcoming the intimacy of his tongue as she returned his kiss.

This time, the groan escaped as Patrick slid his hands down along her back, coming to rest on the upper curve of her derriere. “This skirt,” he whispered. He pressed her to him, wanting her to know her effect on him, then moved his hands under the softness of her jumper. Her skin was like silk, and he was desperate to feel more.

But they had reached a point of no return, he knew. Whilst still shy about their “activities,” as she called lovemaking (he laughed each time she whispered the term), once engaged, Shelagh was all in. He could let his fingers continue their path and she would willingly give herself to him.

She moved her arms to his shoulders, and her fingers slipped into the hair behind his ears. He groaned again, as she knew he would. It seemed Patrick was not the only one who had learnt secrets.

“Shelagh,” he murmured. He wasn’t sure if he was asking or telling her something.

Huskily she responded, “I love you, Patrick.”

And it was decided. Patrick pulled his head back away from her lovely mouth and pressed his nose to hers. If they were to go any further, it would have to be with her complete consent. He couldn’t seduce her now and worry about her feelings afterward.

“My love, if we go one inch further, we won’t be able to stop. I’ll have you right here.” He breathed deeply. “Is that what you want, sweetheart?”

Shelagh tried to catch her breath, tried to understand his words. Her body hummed with desire.

“It’s alright if we stop, Shelagh. It’s alright.” Patrick’s own breath was shaky.

The look in her eyes changed, and Patrick smiled softly. He pressed a gentle kiss to her parted lips and moved a step away from her.

“Maybe not on my desk just yet,” he teased.

Disappointment crossed her flushed face. “I am sorry, Patrick. I truly am. I do want to…” She looked around the room nervously. “Oh, Patrick. Here? I can’t believe-”

“Shelagh,” Patrick interrupted. “We didn’t do anything wrong. It’s never wrong between two people that love each other as we do.” He tipped her chin up so she could meet his eyes. “Maybe someday, Shelagh. Maybe not. But no matter what, as long as we’re honest with each other, we’ll be fine. Little steps.”

He reached around her and returned her glasses. “Now maybe we’d better start on those files.”

Having regained her equilibrium, Shelagh smiled widely up into his eyes. “I suppose we should.” At the door, she turned back. “Patrick, I should thank you. I got a bit lost there for a bit, and I’m not sure I would have been comfortable with another outcome.” Her forehead scrunched in confusion. “I don’t mean I wouldn’t have enjoyed…that activity…I’m just not certain I’m ready to…”

“I know, sweetheart. I understand. You don’t have to say.”

“I sometimes think you know me better than I know myself. I’m very lucky to have you.” A glimmer came back in her eyes as she turned to leave. “Maybe tonight I can show you how lucky.”

As the door closed behind her, Patrick took his seat behind the desk. It would be a long time before he stood up comfortably again.

 

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Author’s Note

Okay. I know this is not how (some of) you wanted me to end this story. Believe me, it’s not how I originally wanted it to end. But this is the story I needed to tell.

In Series 3, we saw a Shelagh who was struggling with finding her path. After making the initial leap into her new life (oh! she was so brave to make that call, to go out on that misty road!), it took some time for her to find her balance, and she even slipped backwards a bit. I know I’m in the minority when I say this, but her confusion worked for me. Don’t bother trying to argue with me. I will not budge. 😉

I know what you want to happen here, I just don’t think it would, given where Shelagh is at this time. That’s not to say, AT ALL, that I think it would never happen. Maybe someday I’ll fic that.