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Trying To Hear God: Chapter 3, Guilt

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A/N: Many thanks to This Unruly Heart for her guidance with this chapter. This is a subject that could easily slide into melodrama, and I thought our poor distraught friend deserved more than that. Unruly’s help has given me new insight into what I’ve been trying to do all along here.

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For the first several weeks, she rarely left her room. Nausea and other side effects of the therapy made her weak, unable to do more than lie in her darkened room and sleep. Gradually, as her body grew used to the strong antibiotics of her treatment, the nausea dissipated. She became less tired and more able, though less willing, to participate in the society of her new world. For the first time in her life, hibernation became her preferred state. Claiming to be too weak to leave her room, she remained in seclusion long after necessary.

Unable to concentrate on much and eager to repress her wayward thoughts, she began to notice the details of her temporary home. The room was cheerful with its bright floral wallpaper and sunny window, a window she had for some reason avoided. The warm space was intended to welcome her, make her feel at home. It was so different from her small cell at Nonnatus, yet even after ten years that room had never felt like her own, either. In both places, the rooms had been furnished by others, designed to meet her needs, but showing little of herself.

Her life was not her own. As a nun, she had turned it over to the religious life she vowed to honor in service to others and God. Adjusting to the life of a sanatorium patient should have come easily to her. The doctors had strict rules regarding patients’ activities, offering little individuality. While in earlier years this would have garnered little resistance from her, now she inwardly rebelled.

She swallowed the uncomfortably large pills.  She withstood the painful jabs, the countless blood draws from the collapsed veins of her pale arms, even the prickling rash that spread across her torso. All these afflictions were borne without complaint. She was the model, if taciturn, patient. All attempts to draw the quiet nun out of her shell went unrewarded.

She paced the carpet of the room, trying to understand what had become of her life this past year. Doubts and questions had struggled to the surface despite her efforts to subdue them. Foolish thoughts took the place of her prayers, displacing discipline and structure and she flushed in shame at their memory. She knew ways to redirect such feelings, and yet she had not done so. She was weak to fall victim to such corporeal desires. They would not offer true relief to her soul. Why could she not rein them in?

There were other Orders, stricter, more removed from daily life, which demanded absolute obedience. Straying from the path called for self-punishment. Is that what she needed? Consequences so great so as to prevent straying in the first place?

She could not believe her mentor would demand such recourse from her. Her whole life she had believed in a God of love and understanding, one who recognized human frailties and offered forgiveness.

But forgiveness was only truly granted to those who sought to purge the sin. Perhaps the fact that she had not taken those steps was yet another indication that she wanted to stray.

She had known her feelings, and could put a name to them. In the weeks leading up to her diagnosis, she knew of their depth, had even recognized a glimmer of their return in his eyes. She knew, yet she did nothing but pray over them and for the first time, prayer offered no answers. Such a sign should have warned her that she was in too deep. She could not, or would not, confess her transgressions to Sister Julienne. To do so would have forced her from her stasis; her mentor would have required some action. She should have left Nonnatus on her own, putting all temptation away from her.

She did nothing, and continued in this state of disobedience. She rarely spoke to him, only working with him when required to do so, but this tacit acceptance of the status quo was nearly as bad as if she had shouted her feelings to all. And now God had sent her a forceful reminder to reconsider her priorities.

Surely she had brought this upon herself. This illness must be a direct result of God’s displeasure.

Part of her brain rejected this idea. She did not believe God was so unforgiving. All she had been taught supported the notion of a God that did not mete out punishments or vengeance in this way. Her illness was the result of exposure, she reminded herself. Isolation was a necessary step towards not only her own cure, but towards eliminating the disease from her community entirely.

Yet the feelings stirring in her heart reminded her of her complicity and guilt and fear won out. In the not-so-distant past, those lucky enough to have survived did so only through terrifying surgeries and years-long isolation from all they held dear. She had not removed herself from her temptations, so God would do so for her.

Her gaze was pulled to the dresser, a lone unopened envelope mocking her. She remembered the long, silent car ride from Poplar, the air between them thick with her shame. She could not so much as glance at him, for even then she did not trust herself to remain silent. Her stiff response to his attempts to reassure her was all she could muster. She knew he was not blind to her weakness, that his empathetic soul would try to heal her even then.

She should tear the letter up. His gesture of friendship would not soothe but exacerbate her pain. All contact must be stopped. God had shown his displeasure.

Guiltily, she took the envelope in her hands, caressing the very places he must have touched. Was this letter a test? Did her penance demand its destruction? Long moments passed, her mind lost in indecision. The light in the room changed and the late afternoon sun poured through the window, warming her face. She looked up and felt her lungs fill with air. Opening the top drawer of her dresser, she slid the letter underneath her sole box of personal items.

She would not destroy the letter today.

She knelt on the cold hard floor and tried to pray.

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Hundred Word Challenge: No Boys Allowed

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“Where’s Angela?” Patrick  asked as he sat to dinner.

“”Bye, Dad!”  Angela Turner appeared at the door, dressed to go out.

Frowning, he said, “Where are you going? It’s a school night. You know the rules.”

“It’s a school event, dear,” Shelagh soothed. “A poetry reading. We didn’t think you’d want to attend.”

“Not likely. But what about-?”

“No worries, Dad. Schoolworks done, and Leslie’s bringing me back. I’m off!”

As the door closed, Patrick proudly turned to his wife. “At least she isn’t boy crazy like that Charlotte.”

“Yes, dear.”

“Wait. Leslie isn’t a girl, is he?”

“Poor Patrick.”

The Hundred Word Challenge: Laundry

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A fun response to a Tumblr challenge to write a fic in 100 words exactly. It was much harder than I thought!

“Oh, will he never pick up his clothes?” Shelagh complained, bending for a rogue sock.

Patrick appeared in the doorway of their room and smiled at the sight of her awkward yet flattering position. “Shelagh, what -”

He stopped himself from finishing as she rose and held out the offending laundry.

Thinking quickly, he apologized. “I know. I’m as bad as Timothy. Worse, probably. I don’t deserve you.” He took the washing from her, dropping it in the waiting basket, then pulled her close. “How can I make it up to you?”

His solution: dropping her clothes on the floor.

Trying to Hear God: Chapter 1, Doubt

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For the first time in her life, she couldn’t hear God. She knew He was there, she felt His presence as she went about her duties. Babies were born, the ill were cared for, and God was there for it all. God was there when a neighbor reached across the fence to help an old woman hang out her laundry. He was there when a police constable comforted a boy after his dog had been crushed by a passing lorry. She could see God in the faces of Poplar, ordinary people living ordinary lives.

She had felt His comfort so many times in her own life. As a child, she had turned to God for solace, needing to fill the gaping wound left by her mother’s death. That early lesson had taught her not to expect God to solve her problems, but to look for her own solutions and to find contentment despite the sadness. Her faith had given her serenity and at each crossroad in her life, she could feel God guiding her. Yet now when she prayed, there was only silence.

For months now she felt this void. She recited the prayers, followed the services, but there was no comfort, no connection. Even the music would not soothe. Day after day as she knelt in supplication, she searched for His voice.

Doubt is a part of faith. She knew that raising questions helped to bring beliefs into sharper focus, that blindly accepting the path forged by others would not bring one to understanding. A regular and thorough examination of conscience was necessary to building a healthy and strong relationship with God, for without it, one became a zealot. Now doubt consumed her. It did not clarify, it did not strengthen. She could feel His presence, but not His grace.

She knelt in her cell in the cold night of early spring, evening prayers long over. The Great Silence hung over the convent, taunting her, when before it had calmed her. She tried to open her mind, to allow God to soothe her, but felt only frustration. Where was He? In her weakness had He forsaken her?

When had it begun? For months she had experienced a dissatisfaction she could not name. The death of a young mother and child had rattled her that past autumn. Sent to assist at the Mother House for a week, she had inwardly rebelled at the officiousness of others. At Christmas she had felt the grief of her mother’s death as if it were new. Pain and discontent began to grow in her heart, and she felt the discord deepen through the winter.

Why had these doubts begun to take hold? she grieved. Each day she saw God in the life around her. Why did she not feel his presence in her own life? Shame began to grow in her heart as she examined her sins of vanity and disobedience.

She had found herself too often peering in the small mirror of her cell, its intended use only to ensure that she had properly covered herself, hiding all clues to her individuality. Was she pretty still, she asked as she stole long looks. She had been told, long ago, that young men would not be immune to her physical charms, but had turned from such base feelings, sure in her path of service and chastity. What would have happened if she had listened then, just once? Had she hidden in fear from her womanhood rather than walking beyond such feelings, as the Order taught?

Too often and too eagerly she joined in the chatter of the young nurses these last months, and their talk of romance and evenings out made her long for an unknown. It was exciting, listening to stories of handsome escorts and evenings spent dancing under dim lights.  Never before had these diversions held any appeal for her, but last night she had found herself powerless over dreams of being held by a man, tall and sure, as the music swirled around her. She flushed at the memory of how she woke in the night breathless, her body tense with feelings she could not name.

She could not ignore the irony of the choices of her life; how the vow of chastity required by the Order juxtaposed with the work of a midwife. Those vows which denied the needs of the flesh placed side by side with the everyday evidence of those very same physical demands. Her devotion to God required she accept all His children, and the service of a midwife in such a community gave her more opportunities to challenge and strengthen her faith. As a young woman, she had been proud of this. Naive and untried, her passion for God had superseded the first early stirrings of awareness, leaving her ignorant of its power. Irony no longer offered self-protection, however, and if she found that her frequent presence at the start of life touched parts of her heart she did not know existed, she was not ready to admit it.

There was no one to whom she could turn with these feelings. Her shame kept her from it. Sister Julienne had such worries of her own, and depended upon the younger nun to help keep Nonnatus House running smoothly.

Sister Bernadette bowed her head and began to pray again.

 

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A Man and His Car

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This is a thank you for Rockbird86 for helping us all out with our big NZ  problem today. Oh, the agony of the Nonnatun. I’ve dropped in a reference to her Bare Arms and Engine Oil, too.

Everyone can see that Patrick’s beloved car is ready to go off to that old junkyard in the sky. Everyone except Patrick.

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“He’s late. Again,” Sister Evangelina harumphed. Standing on the steps to the Community Center, she placed her hands on her hips and assumed a belligerent stance.

Shelagh glanced sideways at the irritable nun, and sighed. “Sister, you know he doesn’t do it on purpose. The demands of the community are only getting greater and-”

Sister Evangelina thrust her hand in between them. “Listen. You can hear that car of his from the other side of the river.” A few moments later, the tardy Dr. Turner turned the corner in his adored MG Magnette, its engine no longer the quiet purr of years past but the roar of a cranky old lion.

Struggling with the door, Patrick Turner finally climbed out to the street. “Apologies, ladies. I had to stop at the petro station to put some oil into the engine.” Swinging his medical bag from the trunk, he trotted up the steps to greet his wife, adeptly ignoring the expression on the Sister’s face.

Shelagh turned her cheek up to accept his kiss and worried, “Again? You just changed the oil this weekend.” She blushed, trying not to recall just how an afternoon of automotive maintenance usually turned out at the Turner home. Mrs. Turner did appreciate her husband’s forearms, after all, but it just wouldn’t do to allow those thoughts to wander in present company.

Patrick grinned knowingly and winked at his wife. Spreading his arms wide, he benevolently attempted to escort the two ladies into the clinic, but Sister Evangelina would have none of it. “Doctor Turner, that old jalopy has got to go.”

If she had slapped him standing in the middle of the High Street, Patrick could not have been more stunned.

“You already have an issue with timeliness, Doctor. Breaking down on the side of the road will not get you to your appointments. Mark my words, if that beast survives the spring I’ll be a monkey’s uncle.”

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By the beginning of April, the old Magnette had gone through a muffler, a new radiator, twice, and new brakes installed. Yet Patrick was unmoved.

“A few maintenance issues, Tim, that’s all. She’s fine. I’ll be driving that car to Angela’s wedding.” Patrick tweaked the girl’s ponytail.

“No, you most certainly will not,” asserted Shelagh from the stove. “Patrick, Tim’s right. I’m afraid it’s time to replace that car. The transmission is on it’s last legs. Only yesterday it stalled on me three times.” Turning on him, she added, “Don’t even try to say I don’t know how to properly drive that car. A person should not have to pump the clutch three and a half times and lean to the right before switching gears. It’s ridiculous!”

“See, Dad? Mum says it too. Even Sister-”

“Tim, go play outside with Angela. We’ll call you down when tea is ready.” Patrick was feeling cornered.

Picking up on this, Shelagh changed tactics as the children left the house. She turned the heat off under the stew, and turned it up elsewhere. Slowly walking over to her husband, she lowered her voice. “Patrick, I know you love that car. I love that car, but-”

“You should love that car,” he told her. “I found you on that misty road in that car. I taught Tim to drive in her. And we took Angela home from the hospital in that old ‘jalopy,’ you might remember.” His hands moved to rest on his wife’s hips. Patrick was standing firm, but there was no reason why he couldn’t make his point and hold his wife closer at the same time.

“Hmmm,” Shelagh wrapped her arms around his neck. “It does have some happy memories.”

Nose to nose, he continued, “We’ve had some good times in that car, sweetheart. That first night I picked you up for a date? Or when we went to the movies to see Dr. Zhivago?”

Shelagh’s fingers tangled in his hair as she pulled him down closer to her lips. “I remember. We certainly steamed up those windows, didn’t we? It’s a shame you don’t want to buy a new car, though. I was rather looking forward to making some new memories in the next one.”

Patrick’s eyebrows shot up. Shelagh had played her trump card and won.

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Two days later, Patrick walked into the sitting room with a gleeful expression on his face.

“Tim, you’ll need to mind your sister tonight.Your mother and I are going out.”

Three sets of eyes turned to him, stunned. Radio 5 was re-broadcasting the afternoon’s game between Liverpool and Sheffield, and the idea of him missing a game this late in the season was inconceivable.

“But Dad,” Tim finally got out, “tonight’s Liverpool-”

“Tim, my boy, not even the league title would keep me in tonight. Come on! Outside everyone. I’ve got something to show you.”

Still speechless with surprise, the Turners filed outside. Parked regally at the front door was a gleaming bright blue Vauxhall Viva.

“Daddy!” cried Angela. “You bought a car!”

Tim shook his head. “I didn’t think you’d ever do it, Dad. But well done.” Dating would be much less embarrassing in this car.

“And what about the Magnette?” Tim asked. “Did they let you trade it in?”

“Well, not exactly. They would have, I’m sure of it, but it was a bit dodgy on the start. But it’s better this way. Now you can share it with your mother.”

“Oh, thank you,” Timothy said sarcastically. “I’ve been given so much.”

“Yes. Well, then. Here’s some cash, take Angela for dinner. Homework done and bed early, I haven’t forgotten about your chemistry test tomorrow. Shelagh, no need to change. There’s no dress code where we’re going tonight.”

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Much later that night, the new car glided quietly to its new parking space.

Patrick turned to his wife and pulled her close. “So, do you like the new car?”

“Mm-hmm,” Shelagh returned, her hands toying with his poorly buttoned waistcoat. “It’s very comfortable, dearest.” She looked up and smiled contentedly. “And the back seat is so roomy. Not cramped at all.”

Several minutes of blissful quiet passed when they were startled by a knock at the window. Unable to see through the steamed windows, Patrick rolled one down to see the source of their interruption.

“Oh, sorry, Doctor. I didn’t know it was you. New car, sir? Very nice.” Officer Brogan was new to the beat, but had quickly learned the doctor kept odd hours. “Defogger not working? Been a bit misty out-Oh, Mrs. Turner. Didn’t see you there. Evening ma’am. Oh.” The young constable eyes roamed  anywhere but the interior of the car. But he had to be wrong. He couldn’t possibly be seeing what he thought he was. Could he? No, it wasn’t possible.

It simply was not possible that the respected Doctor Turner and his widely admired wife were snogging in the backseat of a car now, was it?

Shelagh Goes to the Ball, Part Three

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After several dances, Patrick and Shelagh returned to the table to find Timothy and Susan sitting quietly. Around them, the older couples chatted amiably about work, children, recent trips, but the two teenagers seemed stiff and uncomfortable. Shelagh thought quickly.

“Timothy, dear, why don’t you and your father go and get us ladies some refreshments?” She glanced to Susan for agreement. “Lemonade? You know I dislike red punch.”

“Because red punch stains like no one’s business,” her son recited.

“Yes. And perhaps you could corral a waiter with one of those trays of sausage puffs? I’m starving.” She looked at Patrick as she spoke and he leant in. “Talk to him,” she whispered. “He’s miserable.”

Patrick’s eyebrows rose for a moment. “You want me to play matchmaker? Shelagh, there are some limits in the father-son relationship.”

“Not tonight, there aren’t. Just give him a boost. He’s so terribly nervous. Something man-to-manish.” She smiled. “For me, dearest?”

Letting out a breath, he shook his head. “The lengths I will go to impress my girl. I’ll give it a try. But don’t blame me if I muck it all up.”

 

On the way to the refreshments table, Patrick observed his son. Shelagh was right. The poor lad had obviously not lost any his nervousness.

Patrick patted his son on the shoulder. “Relax, Tim. The night’s going well. Susan seems very nice.”

Tim scowled at his dad. “The night’s awful. I can’t think of a single thing to say to her. Susan’s going to think I’m a complete dud.”

“No, she won’t. She agreed to come out with you tonight, didn’t she? That’s always a pretty good indication that a girl is interested.” His head tilted to the side as he pondered his son’s situation. “Do you like her?”

“I do, Dad. Don’t tease. I like her a lot. I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do.” He looked very young, despite his grown-up suit.

Patrick smiled wryly. “Talk to her. Make her feel important to you. You have to court a lady, Tim.”

“Hmph,” Tim grunted. “You never courted Mum. One day she came home from the Sanatorium and a fortnight later you were engaged.”

Patrick laughed. “I suppose our chronology was a little unconventional. When you know, you know.” He glanced over to the table, a little smile pulling at his mouth. “But I had to learn to court her afterwards. In fact, I’m still courting her today.”

Tim couldn’t help it. He rolled his eyes. “Don’t remind me.”

Patting his manly son on the shoulder, Patrick said, “The fact of the matter is you have to talk to her. It’s the only way you’ll get to know if there really is something there. Well, one of the ways…”

“Dad!”

 

 

At the table, Shelagh was doing her best to salvage the night for the young couple. Her tactics were a little less obvious, however.

“Timothy tells me you’ve just been awarded place at university. Your parents must be very proud, dear.”

“Yes. It’s rather frightening, really. I’ve never been away from home.” Susan fiddled with her napkin nervously.

Shelagh reached out and placed her gloved hand over the young girl’s. “Yes, I know what you mean. I was terrified when I left home. You just have to trust yourself to make the leap, that no matter how things go, you’ll find a way.” Trying to catch her eye, Shelagh continued, “It’s all about self-confidence, though I’ve had my own struggles on that front, too.”

Susan looked up. “You have?”

“Of course. Everyone has. Some are just better at disguising it, that’s all. Take tonight for example. I hope you don’t mind my saying so, but you seem a bit nervous.” Shelagh’s warm gaze softened the question.

By now, the napkin was a wrinkled mess. “Is it so obvious?” Susan whispered.

“Only to me, dear,” Shelagh consoled. “ I’m a mother. I can’t help but look out for you.”

“My friends always say get a boy to talk about himself, but I can’t seem to get Timothy to say more than two words at a time.”

Shelagh smiled. If he couldn’t find his tongue, Timothy must be terribly nervous. He was going to need some help, and with a little boost to her ego, Susan might be the girl to do it. “Any boy worth his salt will want to know about you, too. Don’t play second fiddle to anyone, Susan, especially if it’s just to impress them, boy or girl.” She leant in. “Can I tell you a secret? I’m a bit shy myself. When I was younger I was very afraid of making mistakes, that people would think less of me. Then one day, I decided that what others thought didn’t matter half as much as what I thought about myself. Once I realized that, things just…fell into place.”

“Was that when you left the Order?” Susan asked artlessly. Realizing what she had just said, she covered her shocked mouth. “I’m so sorry, Mrs. Turner. I shouldn’t have said-”

Shelagh chuckled. “Don’t be silly, dear. I know it’s quite a tidbit. Nun gets married and all that. It’s all right, let people talk. But, yes, that is when I left the Order. I decided to trust myself.” She smiled. “And here come our dates.”

Patrick slipped into his seat, placing a plate of hors d’oeuvres in front of his wife. “As you ordered, madam wife.”

Shaking his head in resignation, Tim turned to Susan. “How about we take a walk before dinner? I heard that there’s a fountain in the courtyard. It’s quite loud in here, we could go…talk.”

Susan stood. “Let’s go see if we can find it, then.”

Patrick watched the young couple move off, then turned to his wife, a puzzled expression creasing his forehead. “Did what I think just happen, happen?”

Shelagh giggled. “I think perhaps it has.  I wouldn’t be surprised if we see a lot more of Susan in the future.”

“Maybe not so much of her tonight, though,” Patrick grinned. “I think I’ll let him take the car home.” He sat back in his seat with the air of a king awarding a fiefdom.

“Patrick!” Shelagh was stunned at the unprecedented offer.

“You wanted me to play matchmaker.” His hand squeezed hers as his eyes took on a rakish smile. “Besides, we haven’t snogged in the back seat of a cab for far too long.”

Shelagh blushed, but met his eyes squarely. “That’s as may be, Patrick. Just remember that Angela may play at Cinderella, but there is no way I’m leaving this Ball before midnight!”

 

Shelagh Goes to the Ball, Part Two

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The ball was in full swing when the Turner Party arrived, a fact which elicited a glare from Timothy. “Fashionably late, Tim,” Patrick chuckled as he escorted his wife to their table.

Dr. Carson rose as they approached. At one time viewed (by Patrick, anyway) as a rival for Shelagh’s attention, now he and Patrick had forged a firm friendship. “Turner, right on time!” he called. Stepping over to them, he shook Patrick’s hand and placed a brief kiss on Shelagh’s cheek. “Shelagh, dear. You look glorious! How can you possibly be paired with this old badger? And you seem to have forgotten Timothy-Good grief, Tim, is that you?”

“Don’t embarrass the boy, Jim, he bites tonight,” warned Patrick, grinning.

“Oh, the two of you: behave. You’re like ten year old boys when you get together.” Turning to her son, Shelagh said, “Timothy, Susan, why don’t you leave your things at the seats in the middle? Susan, I’ll sit on your other side, the better to protect you from these two beasts. “

Timothy smiled gratefully. “Thanks, Mum.”

Shelagh nodded. “Now, off with you two. The dancing’s already begun. Your best bet for any privacy at all tonight is out on that dance floor!”

Susan’s eyes sparkled as she looked to her escort. Taking a deep breath, Tim took her hand and led her out into their first dance.

“Does he even know how to do the waltz?” Patrick whispered over his wife’s shoulder.

“Yes. I taught him myself. Let him be, Patrick, he’s nervous enough already.” She turned, and was surprised to see how very close he was standing. Shaking her head, she added, “What has gotten into you this evening? You have a look in your eye I do not trust.”

He took her hand and followed his son to the dance floor. “Oh, I think you can trust me, sweetheart.”

“I can trust you to make mischief,” Shelagh muttered. They stepped on to the dance floor and Patrick pulled her into his arms.

“I love dancing with you,” he whispered into her ear. “If I promise to leave Tim alone, will you promise to dance every dance with me?”

Shelagh turned her eyes to his. “Now, why would I dance with anyone else?” Her forehead nestled against his cheek, one of the advantages of the silly high heels she was wearing. Sighing, Shelagh gave herself up to the dance and followed his lead. Too soon, the music ended, and Patrick laughed softly.

“Not like dancing at home, is it? I have to keep my eyes open so I don’t bump into anyone. Not to mention keeping myself at a respectable distance. Room for the Holy Ghost?” He lifted her hand to his lips and pressed a brief kiss to her gloved fingers.

“Patrick,” Shelagh blushed. The music started up again, this time an old standard. Patrick took her in his arms again. “Angie was right. You do look like a princess.”

“Poor thing. She wanted to come so badly tonight. You should have seen her as I dressed. Her eyes were like saucers.”

“I can’t say as I blame her. You certainly knocked the wind out of me!” He spun her around, exhilarated.

Shelagh laughed. She wanted to stop there and throw her arms around him, press her body to his. Suddenly shy, she looked down from his warm stare.

“You’re blushing again,” he teased.

“I can’t help it. Stop teasing me and let me regain my dignity.” Shelagh tried a haughty look. When he spun her around again she whispered, “Patrick!”

He grinned. “All right, I’ll stop. We’re supposed to be the stately parents, after all.”

They turned around the room to another song, and Patrick caught Timothy’s eye. He nodded in his son’s direction, not surprised that Timothy looked away immediately. “Some things never change. He may look nearly grown in his dinner jacket, but he can’t help rolling his eyes at his old man.”

“He’s just nervous, that’s all. He really likes this girl,” Shelagh assured him.

“He liked that other one-what was her name? Tilly? Terry?”

“Madeleine. Honestly, Patrick. It’s no wonder he hates to bring a girl home to meet you. You’re ridiculous.”

“Not ridiculous. Just picky. I feel badly for him, though,” Patrick grinned.

Shelagh eyed him suspiciously. “Why?”

“Poor boy has to try and find someone as good as his father’s choice. That’s a lot of pressure for anyone.”

A/N: the Dr. Carson reference comes from my own HeadCanon. He appears in A First Time For Everything.

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Shelagh Goes to the Ball, Part One

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Impatiently, Timothy Turner stood before his father as his formal bow tie was finished. “Timothy, stop fidgeting. Mum will be down in just a moment. There’s plenty of time,” Patrick told his son. They stood almost eye-to-eye now, and Timothy’s feet were already larger than his dad’s.

“You always say that, and then we’re always late,” Tim complained. The poor boy’s nerves were already strained without his father’s teasing. When the invitation to  Great Ormond Street Hospital’s Annual Ball arrived a month ago, he had been stunned to see he was among the honored guests.  Since his bout with polio seven years ago, he had spent many hours volunteering with the children on his old ward. Now, to celebrate the opening of the new Children’s Ward, his former doctor Jim Carson had made sure that Timothy and his parents were included in the celebration.

“That’s only when you’re waiting for me. Mum won’t make us late, don’t worry.” The door upstairs opened and he gloated, ”See?”

But if Timothy was expecting to see his mother ready to leave for the dance, he was to be disappointed. His little sister appeared at the top of the stairs, a look of amazement on her face.

Bouncing down the stairs, she came to a stop when she met her father.

“Daddy, Mummy looks like a princess!” Her blue eyes, eerily like her mother’s, were huge and round.

“Cinderella?” he asked. Each family member had taken Angela to the pictures at least twice to see that film down at the Royale, even poor Tim. Angela had taken to walking around in her mother’s heels in the kitchen, pretending she was at the Ball.

“Yes,” she breathed, “just like her.” Angela grinned. “Are you ready to see her, Daddy?” she asked as she scurried down the last steps to take his hand.

“I hope so. Tim’s about to bolt out the door any minute.”

Angela called up the stairs. “Mummy, they’re ready!”

Patrick grinned back at his son, and turned to look at his wife gliding down the stairs. Shelagh smiled as she saw his jaw drop, the air knocked from his lungs. This was her very first Ball, even if only as a chaperone, and she was going to enjoy every minute of it. She knew Patrick favored her in blue, so she had searched the boutiques in Oxford Street for just the right frock. Sapphire taffeta with cap sleeves, it fit close to her waist, narrowly flaring out over her hips as it reached the floor. The decolletage was a little lower than she was used to, but just modest enough for the mother of a young man. She had smoothed her hair into a chignon low on her neck, the long white gloves and the pearls Patrick had given her for their fifth wedding anniversary completing her look.

Coming level with her husband, she smiled shyly at him. “You like it?” Her eyes took on a knowing look.

Patrick swallowed hard, nodding. Speechlessly, he watched his wife come down the rest of the stairs. Shelagh stood before Timothy and reached up to straighten his tie. “You look very handsome, Timothy dear. Susan will be very impressed. Do you have the corsage?”

“Right here,” he answered, shaking the small square box. “You look nice, Mum. Really,” he blushed.

Shelagh beamed. “Well, I won’t kiss you for that right now, so as not to get lipstick on your cheek. But you won’t get off so easily tomorrow, young man.”

“You can get lipstick on my cheek, Mummy,” Angela slipped in. “I wish I was going, too,” she sighed sadly.

“Don’t worry Cinderella, you’ll have a wonderful time at Charlotte’s house. You won’t even miss not having a fairy godmother.” She bent down and pressed her lips to her daughter’s. “There, now you have lipstick, too. Go get your bag so we can drop you off, Angel Girl.”

“I’ve already got it!” Angela proudly showed her mother.

“So in the car then, everybody,” cajoled Timothy. “We really will be late if we don’t shove off.”

Shelagh turned to her husband, looking for his arm. His face still stunned, he hadn’t moved. Tim rolled his eyes. “Please pick your chin off the floor, Dad. If you’re going to look like that all night, I’d rather you stayed at home.”

Running his finger under his collar, Patrick looked more like his son than ever.

Having dropped Angela at her friend’s house, Patrick handed the keys to his son. “You drive, son. Pretend we’re not even here in the back seat.”

Thrilled with the rare opportunity to drive his father’s beloved new Vauxhall, Tim ran around the bonnet of the car. Shelagh looked sidelong at her husband. “What are you up to?” she asked coyly.

“Can’t a man help his son out on his first formal date?” Patrick answered innocently. But he had moved a bit nearer than necessary, his fingers only just brushing against her gloved ones. Shelagh smiled to herself as they made their way through town, Slowly, Patrick’s hand slipped closer until it slid itself under her palm to clasp her hand. No change in expression accompanied the gesture, but Shelagh felt a strong sense that he was planning something.

She was right. The moment Timothy stepped from the car to pick up his date, Patrick slid the rest of the way across the seat, pressing his wife into the corner. “You’re stunning, my love.” His hand caressed her cheek, his thumb lightly playing along her lips. “Did you bring your lipstick?” he whispered.

Shelagh’s eyes danced. “Yes. Did you want to borrow it?”

“Not exactly. But you’ll need to refresh it before Tim comes back.” He swiftly lowered his head to hers, capturing her lips with his. Shelagh felt a flush of desire as his mouth teased hers open, the tip of his tongue tracing and retracing the paths he knew would stir her. Trying very hard to control her response, Shelagh placed her hands on his chest pushing away to allow just enough air between them to restrain their passion. His lips slid along the column of her neck, and for a moment, she let herself get swept away. Soon, however, she forced herself back to sanity. Timothy would return any moment, and would not appreciate his parent’s shenanigans.

“Patrick, dearest,” she whispered. “You have to stop.”

“Mmmm..,” he responded, his hand dangerously close to her perfectly coifed hair.

“Patrick,” Shelagh commanded.

It never paid to fail to heed that tone, as he had learned over the years. Grinning wolfishly, Patrick pulled away. “Is my tie all right?” he asked.

“Your tie is fine. But you’d better scrub your mouth. You were particularly effective in taking off my lipstick,” she noted, checking her face in her compact. “Oh, Patrick,” her voice carried feigned annoyance. “When will you grow up?”

The wolfish grin became a leer. “Never, if I’m lucky. And speaking of getting lucky-” he slid back to her side of the car seat. Shelagh was saved by Tim, not for the first time, as he opened the car door and ushered his date to her seat.

Settling himself in the driver’s seat, Tim muttered, “Why’s the window so-”

Blushing fiercely, poor Tim turned the key in the ignition and put the car in gear.

Next Chapter

 

Baby Talk

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A response to a Tumblr prompt from Thymefortea:  How Patrick or Shelagh brings up the subject of wanting to have a baby soon after the wedding. Bonus points if their discussion turns into a more intimate “discussion” while on honeymoon.


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