Blooming All Around

The late afternoon sun poked through the stone lattice of the verandah, creating bouquets of light on the wooden table.  Shelagh traced one of the irregular flowers and sighed. She lifted her teacup to her lips and hastily put in back in distaste.  

“You practically begged Patrick to take the children out so you could have an afternoon’s peace, and all you’ve done is moan about how lonely you are,” she muttered to herself.  

It was true, she had made all sorts of hints to her husband that he should have an afternoon with the children all to himself.  She had even prided herself on how subtle she was. At least, she thought she was subtle. As Tim fled to a cricket match with his chums, he drawled, “Nice one, Mum.  Mentioning how Sergeant Noakes takes the children to the zoo every Saturday instead of watching the games all afternoon was inspired psychological manipulation.”

“Hush, now,” she warned, as he escaped up the lavender-scented path, “or I’ll say something about how helpful Reggie is to Mr. and Mrs. Buckle!”

She turned back to the children running about the kitchen.  “Alright then, girls, spit spot!”

“Spit spot,” Angela and May giggled back to her.  Mary Poppins was their current favorite bedtime read, and the silly phrase, as well as a gallery of chalk drawings on the patio and drive, were a testament to its appeal for the little girls.  

Patrick bounded down the last of the stairs, Teddy aloft in his arms.  “Well, then, ladies, shall we take this little man out for the afternoon?”

More giggles followed.  “Teddy’s not a man, Daddy,” Angela chortled.  “He’s a boy!”

“He’s a boy!”  parrotted May, and she tugged lightly on Teddy’s little shoe.

Shelagh shook her head in mock annoyance.  “Well, this little man-boy is going to run Daddy off his feet if we don’t get him into his pushchair.  Girls, be sure to be Daddy’s helpers this afternoon!”

***

Four hours later, Shelagh was tired of the quiet.  She missed the laughter and noise of three little ones, and even the cacophony blaring on Tim’s record player.  Her solitary childhood had passed so seamlessly into the silence of the religious life that she never expected that her own peace would require the commotion of a happy family.  Without them about, she felt lonely.

Her teacup rattled in its saucer as she crossed to the kitchen sink.  Another glance at the clock brought the little crease between her brows.  “Where on earth could they be? Teddy will be a bear without his nap!” Even the family joke, unconsciously spoken, did not make her smile.

The front door swung open,and the silence was gone.  Angela and May ran in ahead of their father, laughing so that their words were a confused jumble.  Patrick came in behind them, a cheery Teddy eager to be released to run around the house after the little girls.  

Shelagh couldn’t help smiling, her eyes catching it all.  “I missed you! What have you been up to?”

Angela bounced on her toes.  “Mummy, Mummy, we’ve been to the cinema!  We had choc ices and Daddy let us each have a lolly and oh, Mummy!! You’ll never guess what we saw!”

As Angela’s words tumbled out of her, Shelagh felt a sting of tears.  Always so quiet, Angela had become much less shy in the months since May had joined their family, and Shelagh worried, not for the first time, that if May did leave them, after all, it would be Angela that felt the parting the keenest.  She twirled a pigtail in her fingers.

“I can hardly imagine, Angel girl,” she responded, her throat tight.

“Mummy, we went to see–” the little girl paused for effect, and then turned to let May finish.

“Mary Poppins!” May squealed.

Shelagh looked up at her husband, shocked.  “Mary Poppins! But it’s not set to run ‘til Christmas!”

Patrick scooped Teddy up just before the tot pulled the model ship down from the corner cabinet.  “We were walking past the Hippodrome, on our way to the park, and the manager was outside offering tickets for  a special showing. It’s set to release in America next week, and Disney wanted to get promotional stills of English children enjoying the film.  You don’t mind, do you?” he asked, concern furrowing his brow.

Shelagh thought of the nights reading the story aloud to the girls, and for a moment felt a pang of jealousy.  She had been looking forward to seeing the movie with the family at Christmas.

“Mamma,” Teddy stretched out, and Shelagh took him in her arms and buried her face in his curls, using the moment to master her feelings.

“Teddy slept through nearly the whole picture,”  Patrick told her. “It couldn’t have worked out better.”

Shelagh swallowed the lump in her throat.  It was good for Patrick to build special memories for the children on his own.  There’s be plenty of films and family days ahead. She was completely certain, however, that she wasn’t likely to send them off again for quite some time.

“Mary Poppins was just like you, Mummy!”  Angela announced.

“How so?”  Shelagh was already beginning to feel better.

“She was pretty…”. May interjected.

“And clever, and she sang all the time!”

“I love Mary Poppins!” May crowed.

“Oh dear, I’m afraid I might have some competition!  Well, then, what was everyone’s favourite song?” she asked.

Patrick’s eyes lit up with mischief.  “We were hoping you’d ask that! The music was wonderful, Shelagh, you’ll want the record, but there was one song we all loved the most.”  He winked at the girls. “We practiced it all the way home. Ready?”

Two pigtailed heads bobbed in the air in response.  “We changed some of the words, but I don’t think you’ll mind,” Patrick teased.

“Oh!! It’s a (come on, then girls!)…”

The girls joined his chorus, skipping words to laugh, but Patrick forged on.

“Oh, it’s a Jolly Holiday with Mummy!

Mummy makes your heart so light!

When the la la lala lala la la (I can’t remember all of it, he whispered)

Lala la la la la la

Oh, when Mummy takes your hand, you feel so grand,”. Patrick lifted her fingers to his lips, the rested them against his heart.

“Your heart starts beating like a big brass band!

Oh it’s a jolly holiday with Mummy,

No wonder that it’s Mummy that we love!!”

Tim walked in a moment later to peaks of laughter.  “What did I miss?”

***

In the evening, as they stood watching the littles settle to sleep after hours of singing their new favorite song, Patrick slid an arm about Shelagh’s waist and pulled her close.  She tucked her head under his chin and warned, “There’s an excellent chance they’ll be wanting a tea party on the ceiling tomorrow, dearest.”

He pressed a kiss to her shining hair, then tugged her around into his arms.  “We’ll all go again at Christmas, Shelagh, as a family.” He frowned as a shadow passed over her face.  “No matter where she is, Shelagh, May will always be part of our family.”

Shelagh sighed and pressed her palm to his cheek.  She stroked the roughened skin there and smiled tenderly.  Ever a quick study, she sang softly, “No wonder that it’s Patrick that I love!”


Happy Birthday to FourteenTeaups, a good friend who is mildly obsessed with Mary Poppins, but wildly obsessed with Call the Midwife.

Cricket in the Morning

I wrote this bit of fluff for Tumblr last June (2018) and forgot to post it here.  In an effort to assist those who require a full catalog of my obsession, I am now correcting that error.

That being said, here’s some kettle-y Turnadette fluff. Not quite 4 kettles “as written by me,” but as many as you want “as read by you.”

And yeah. It’s got cricket in it. So, sue me.  I don’t choose the fic, the fic chooses me.

Do not blame me that there is no image to go with this fic.  If TPTB had any compassion for my pain, they would remedy that and have Patrick decked out in cricket whites.


She tilts her face to the sun, warmth filtering through her body.  There are birds somewhere, just close enough to tease her with their song, and she opens her eyes.  All around her is green, lush and fertile, and she wonders where she is.

Footsteps softened by the turf draw her attention and she turns to see him walking towards her across the cricket pitch.

He is tall and lean, and looks relaxed in his cricket whites. He stops before her and settles on the faded quilt.  She knows somehow that they are alone, or she must know, because she doesn’t hesitate.

She stretches up on her knees and places a languid kiss against his lips, slow and teasing, her arms wrapped tightly about his shoulders.  She presses her lips to the length of throat bared by his open collar, flicking her tongue to taste his skin. He moans deep in his chest and she smiles as she nips at the sinew of his neck.

Her hands trace the fine woolen cables of his jumper, then slip to the hem and with a swift motion she pulls it over his head.  His shirt comes away from the smart white trousers and she must feel his skin there.  Beneath her palms, the skin of his midriff is smooth and she wants more.

Their lips meet again, soft and wet and she lightly strokes her tongue into his mouth.  She loves the velvety feel of it against his. Desire fires up between her legs, and she moves to straddle him, reveling in the hardness pressed against her.  She needs him now.

That’s my favorite alarm clock,” he whispers.

Startled, she opens her eyes.  She’s pressed to his side, her leg across his, the sheets a tangle about them.

“What were you dreaming of this morning?”  His hand is on her hip, tugging the thin fabric to reveal the silky skin of her legs.

She’s embarrassed, and pulls away to lie on her back.  “Don’t tease, Patrick.”

He laughs.  “You’re one to talk, my love!”  He presses the hard evidence of his morning desire against her hip.  Back and forth, he trails his fingertips across the tops of her thighs, each stroke edging closer to the warm triangle between them.  “What were you dreaming of this morning,” he repeats. His voice is husky.

She shakes her head, trying to resist, trying to shake off the dream.  He reaches his goal and applies light pressure as his fingers curve against her. “Tell me,” he whispers.

Her back arches as her eyelids flutter closed.  She sighs. “The same one.” The whisper escapes on a breath.

He smiles smugly, and rewards her with the attentions of his long finger.  “Cricket?” A second finger joins the first and he strokes the soft skin there.  “You do love me in my cricket whites.”

Breathless, she cannot answer.

 

Buttoned Up

@ILoveMushyStuff hinted pretty strongly on Tumblr that she’s like to see a fic inspired by this blouse Shelagh wore in s8e3, and considering how much I owe Mushy for all her kindnesses and posts, I jumped at the chance.

It’s a pretty blouse, as you can see, but it’s the buttons down the back that provoked this little bit of fluff. (I can’t get a decent screen shot of that angle, but here’s a pic you’ll like of pretty Shelagh!)Screen Shot 2019-02-03 at 6.34.05 PM


Shelagh huffed and blew a stray lock of hair out of her eyes.  “Ridiculous blouse,” she muttered. She dropped her arms and glared over her shoulder at the reflection in the dressing mirror.

“That’s a face that’ll scare the children,” Patrick warned as he came to stand behind her, his hands deftly knotting his tie.

“You’re not helping!”  She raised her arms over her head, nearly knocking his chin as she tried to reach her back.  “Oh, bother!”

“Why don’t you simply put on another blouse?”

She dropped her arms again in defeat.  “They all need ironing, and there’s no time.”
“You could ask me, you know,” Patrick tried to hide his grin.  

Shelagh rolled her eyes.  “I’d be better off asking Angela.”  

He clutched at his heart dramatically.  “I’m wounded.”

“Wounded, my granny.  I need to put this blouse on me, not on the floor beside the bed.”

He laughed.  “Alright, turn around.  I’ll try to restrain myself.”

He moved close and smoothed her hair over the nape of her neck, his breath caressing the smooth skin there.  “Not so many buttons,” he murmured, trailing his fingers along the opening and coming to a stop at the bottom button.  “One.”

He stroked his thumb against the silky slip she wore underneath and moved to the second.  “Two.”

Shelagh sighed.

The third button hovered over the clasp of her bra.  Somehow, a finger slipped beneath the strap and stroked the skin there.  “Three.”

This time, it was Patrick that exhaled deeply.

His hands were not quite as sure as he reached the fourth button. He lingered there for a long moment and stared at the small triangle of pale skin above it.  Swallowing thickly, he fumbled but threaded the enameled green disk. “That’s five.”

Shelagh stood stock still, wondering which she wanted more:  for him to finish, or for him not to finish.  When his hands came to rest on her shoulders, she leant back ever so slightly against him.  Long fingers slid under the neckline and caressed her collarbone as his thumbs stroked the back of her neck.  Any thought of resisting him flew from her head and she relaxed against him.

“And that’s me finished”  In an instant, he had the sixth and final button fastened.  With a avuncular squeeze of her shoulders, he turned to leave the bedroom.  At the door he stopped and looked back, a mischievous grin on his face. “No blouse on the floor, then?”

Shelagh turned to face him squarely.  “Well, not now, anyway. But I rather think you’ll be home early tonight.”

 

Reader, he was.

 

How the Brownies Saved Christmas

IMG-0245Go ahead.  Take a peek.

No, it’s not rude, the family have all gone out for the day, they won’t even know you were here.

The Brownies, on the other hand, might have something to say…..


 

“Fergus! You’re not to be doin’ tha’!  She dinnae ask!” a tiny voice hissed through the air.  

“Ach, ne’er ye mind, ‘tis a wee pot, naught to get yerself up in a lather!”  The gruff voice that answered.

High above the kitchen, the air above a cupboard shimmered, revealing a tiny figure—human-like, but not quite.  Not quite three inches tall, the creature more closely resembled the drawing of an imaginative child than a real person.  Thin and wiry, with a large head covered by a thatch of coarse brown hair and long narrow feet and hands, the creature glared down at the kitchen sink.

Another shimmer of light, and another figure became visible. Stout and sturdier of build than the first, this creature bent over scrubbing a pot.  

“Scorched porridge is nae to be ignored, ye know tha’, Aggie. And I’m nearly done.”

The stout elf straightened and clambered up the edge of the basin.  Behind him, the scorched porridge continued to disappear from the enameled pot.  

“She left it to soak!  She’ll clean it when she gets home!”  Aggie’s voice grew more agitated. “You know the rules, Fergus.  She has to ask for help.”

Fergus sighed. “I know, lass, but the stubborn wifey ne’er does.  A list as long as that boy’s arm, and she ne’er once calls on the Brownies to make quick work of it all.”

Aggie appeared at his side, and put a long fingered hand on his rough-hewn tunic.  “I know, dearie. But if the Grand Council found out we’d been using our magic withou’ invitation, they’d be sending us off to some noisy place where there humans never leave more’n a moment.  I thought ye liked the quiet here during the day.”

“I do, but a few tasks here or there would help keep my skills sharp.”

“You’ll just have to get used to it, Fergus.  I don’t know how she gets it all done, being human an’ all.  Her man is more help than most humans, but that’s a low bar. There’s still so much to do I don’t know how she ever sleeps, especially since the two of ‘em m…” Aggie shuddered.  “I’ll not agin make the mistake of going up to the bedrooms of an evenin’, that’s for certain.”

Fergus flicked his fingers and the pot rose in the air above the sink to settle in the empty drying rack.  “One time breaking the rules shouldn’t alert the Council, but fingers crossed we’ll spark an idea in her shiny head.”

***

Hours later, the front door opened and the still silence of the home was shattered as five Turners burst in.

“But all of them, Shelagh?” Patrick Turner trailed behind his wife, weighed down by a wriggly tot, a heavy medical bag and an unwieldy tangle of Christmas boughs.

“Patrick, we can hardly invite one or two.  Hang your coat up neatly, Angela, dear, and careful not to bend your angel wings.  Besides, it’ll be lovely having a party. This house was made for social gatherings, I said that the first time we saw it!”

Patrick sighed and released his youngest child.  “We just had a party for Angela’s birthday.  Besides, things are busy enough already.  We couldn’t possibly pull together a Christmas luncheon for over a dozen people!”

“Pish!” Shelagh scoffed.  “All a busy week needs is a good list.”  She patted her beleaguered husband’s arm.  “You’ll see, dear. Everything will run like clockwork.”

***

It seemed the clock was running a bit off at the Turner house over the next few days.  Shelagh’s To Do List, written with such care and attention to detail, seemed to grow longer each day, and each day Aggie and Fergus sat by watching helplessly.

“That bairn’ll have all the ornaments crushed under his feet if they don’t move ‘em higher,” grumbled Fergus from a high bow on the Christmas tree.

“It was torture watching ‘er doin’ the ironin’ late last night!  Any self-respectin’ brownie coulda had those linens finished in the work of a moment, and I had to watch her for two hours last night!!”  Aggie wrung her hands. “Fergus, this has got to stop!”

Shaking his head, Fergus replied, “I kno’, Aggie, I kno’.  The Council was firm upon it when I asked. No doing nothin’ on that list until she asks.”

The miserable silence went on between them for long moments, when Aggie jumped up. “The list!” She skipped down the feathery branches, her weight setting off a tiny tinkle of ornaments.  “The Council said we cannae do anything on the list, not that we couldn’t do anything to the list…”

“Ach, clever lass!”  In a bound, Fergus was beside his wife helping to push a pen across the sheet of notepaper.  “A few new items to tick off here and there…She’ll be begging for us to help in no time!”

 

***

“How on earth!” Shelagh muttered.  “Patrick, have you been adding to my To Do List?”

Patrick looked up from underneath a tangle of gift wrap and ribbons. “It’s more than my life’s worth to mess with my wife’s system, Shelagh.”  He grimaced as the roll of bright red paper tore away from the microscope he was wrapping.

“Never mind,” Shelagh said, handing him another piece of tape.  “Tim won’t mind if it’s not perfect.”

A pair of dark eyebrows shot up.  “That’s a change,” he teased. “Does this new laissez-faire attitude to wrapping mean I don’t have to put a bow on it?”

“It most certainly does not.  We have to have some standards!”  She giggled, then returned to her list.  “It’s my handwriting, of course, but I can’t recall adding these items to the list.  ‘Find Timothy’s red jumper…choir practice…laundry…’ Now why on earth would I put laundry on my to do list?”

Patrick was befuddled.  “Because there’s laundry to be done?”

“There’s always laundry to be done—no need to put it on the list!”  She struggled to hold in a yawn. “I’m starting to think maybe you were right, dear.  There’s so much to do, and as soon as I’ve finished one task, a new one appears. Oh!!  More firewood!”

Hidden by Angela’s costume hanging by the door, Fergus and Aggie nodded in excitement.

***

In the morning, the list had grown even longer.  Angela announced she’d need a photograph of the family for crafts in school, and Tim’s revising group was looking for a place to work together as the library was closing for the weekend. Patrick needed help finding his keys, and Teddy had decided that he was not happy strapped in his chair.  Getting her family out the door was proving to be more of a challenge than usual, and Shelagh was starting to show signs of weariness.  

“Why does the porridge always stick when there’s the most to do?” She grumbled.  “Oh, Patrick, can you stop at the Butcher’s on the way home? I forgot we’ll need a roast for Granny Parker’s visit on Christmas Eve.  I hope Teddy’s in a cooperative mood today, as soon as I’ve ticked off one thing, two more appear!”

***

Christmas was three days away.  Well, two days and twenty-three hours, to be precise.  On call for the past week in order to be home with the family at Christmas, Patrick had not been able to get to the butcher’s after all, nor had he been much help in making the pastry for the mince pies he so loved for the holiday feast, yet had somehow he had found the nerve to add “mistletoe” to her list.  Timothy offered some support, but his A-levels weighed heavily in him, and Shelagh did not want to add additional stress to the young man’s load.

So here she sat, exhausted and cranky, wrapping gifts in the cooling kitchen.  She stretched and let out a very in-Shelagh-like groan. “I’ll never be ready!”

She reached for the cellophane tape, but the edge had disappeared on the roll.  Running her finger nails along the surface over and over, she struggled to find the starting point without luck.  In a burst of temper, she tossed the roll at the pile of laundry that sat unfolded in the basket beside the stairs.  Immediately embarrassed, she stood and made for the teapot.

“Empty. Of course.”

She leant back against the kitchen counter and tried to regain her composure.  Out of the corner of her eye, she caught a glimmer just above the Christmas tree.  Instinctively, she tiptoed across the room to stand beside the brightly lit pine and peered up into the space.  There was the glimmer again!!

“Shelagh Turner, you have got to get some sleep!”  she whispered. “What’s gotten into you?” Bending down, she unplugged the fairy lights.  “There, now it was just your imagination!”

Unwilling to look back up at the place on the tree that had brought her across the room, Shelagh turned to the stairs.  “The old Scottish stories are starting to trick your eyes, Shelagh Turner. Best get to bed and start fresh in the morning.”

She looked about the chaos of the house and decided Patrick would understand.  She’d set her alarm for an hour early and straighten the mess before the children woke.  She allowed herself one last glance at the tree, then giggled.

“Well, Brownies, if you are there, have at it!”

***

The morning light of the last Sunday of Advent was weak as it snuck in between the bedroom curtains, slowly waking Shelagh.  She breathed in deeply, then woke with a start. Sitting up quickly, she tossed the covers aside and jumped from the bed. It was nearly seven! The children would wake any moment and she’d left Christmas gifts out for all to see!!  Oh, how had she forgotten to set the alarm?!!

Patrick murmured in protest as the cool air hit, and struggled to pull the covers back over himself.  “It’s too early, Shelagh, come back to bed.”

“Patrick! I’ve left everything!! You stay up here and mind the children don’t come down until I’ve handled the mess.”  She tore from the room tugging her fuzzy blue robe over her shoulders and left her slippers behind.

“Shelagh, Shelagh!” She muttered in irritation.  “You’ve taken on too much and now everyone will be disappointed—“

She came to a halt at the bottom of the stairs, stunned by the sight before her.  All signs of Christmas wrapping were gone, the laundry was neatly folded in its basket (was that Tim’s red jumper on top, she wondered?), and Angela’s costume hung from a hanger neatly pressed and ready for the afternoon Nativity Play.

“Shelagh?”  Patrick came up behind her.  “Everything alright?”

Aware that her mouth was frozen in an Oh! of surprise, Shelagh struggled to regain her composure.  She turned to ask him a question, but he spoke first.

“You were busy last night!  All the gifts wrapped and hidden in the upstairs cupboard, the mince pies are done—I had one or two, I hope you don’t mind—and there must be miles of paper chains ready to be hung!”

Shelagh nodded and struggled to find words.  

“There can’t possibly be anything else to do this early.  Come back to bed, the children will be asleep for a bit longer” Patrick coaxed, his hand on her elbow, a wolfish grin on his face.  “There’s one thing we need to add to your To Do List.”

Shelagh turned back to the tree one last time as she headed up the stairs.  Yes, the glimmer was still there. “Thank you,” she whispered.

***

“Ach, no good deed goes unpunished,” Fergus groused.  “They’ll be off knockin’ boots before ye know it!”

Aggie slipped her hand in her husband’s.  “Now, Fergus, we’ll just be sure to keep down here, then, there’s still plenty to be done.  Have ye seen where they keep the good China dishes?”


Wishing you joy and peace in 2019.

 

Getting Out the Vote

I wrote this fic/civics lesson as a thank you to Nonnatuns that made voting (whenever, wherever) a priority.  Initially, it was posted with a password for them, but I have opened it up to all.   Thank you!

 

Teddy Turner was not amused.  A man liked his routine, after all, and enough was enough.  The high chair meant food, or at the very least, a wooden spoon to band on his tray.  The wall of newsprint before him was a poor substitute for a warm slice of toast to gum and his mother’s pretty smile.  Gathering all his strength, he arched his body in protest against his high chair and kicked his feet.

The newspaper rustled as a voice hushed him from behind its barrier.  “Keep your shirt on, Teddy dear. Mummy’s nearly finished, you’ll soon have your breakfast.”

Not appeased, Teddy made to fuss again when he was alerted to the sound of reinforcements on their way down the staircase.

“What’s this?”  Patrick teased. He pulled his chair up to feed the disgruntled moppet.  “Has Mummy abandoned you for the Times yet again, son?” He stifled another protest with a spoonful of pablum.  “If Sir Alec doesn’t call for an election soon, you’re going to have to learn to make your own breakfast!”

With a huff, Shelagh refolded the newspaper.  “It’s a subversion of democracy,” she snapped.  “There’s absolutely no reason why that man doesn’t call for the vote.  There’s been no confidence in this government for months now.”

“I’ve never seen you so fired up about politics, Mum,” Timothy remarked as he and Angela took their places at the table.  

Bright blue eyes flashed behind Shelagh’s glasses.  “I’m sure I don’t know what you’re talking about, Timothy.  I’ve always been interested in the state of the world.” She placed the paper beside her husband’s plate and stood to pour out tea.  “Cornflakes again, Angela?”

Timothy shrugged and swallowed a gulp of tea.  “It’s just that I’ve never seen you read the paper except to clip advertisements or coupons.”

Silence cloaked the room.  Teddy leant back in his chair, his expression matching the wary look on his father’s face.  Even Angela paused, spoon halfway to her mouth.

The teapot returned to the table with a muffled thunk.  Shelagh’s voice was controlled. “Simply because I don’t discuss a topic in your presence doesn’t mean I don’t have an opinion on it, Timothy.  I do exist outside this family.”

Even Tim seemed to understand he’d stepped in it.  “I know that, it’s…well…” His voice trailed off in confusion.

“I’ll have you know that I have voted in every single election since I came of age.  I’ve even canvassed for candidates.”

“Even when you were at Nonnatus?”  Timothy was incredulous.

“It’s like watching someone in quicksand,” Patrick whispered to Teddy.  The tot chewed his fingers in response.

“Certainly at Nonnatus!”  

Timothy flailed, his debate training abandoning him in the face of a superior adversary, and he resorted to vocabulary tricks.  “But—but I would have thought the nuns would be too busy with…with less temporal tasks than politics.”  

Shelagh was in no mood to encourage the teen.  “There are few things more “temporal” than tending to the sick or ailing, young man.  In order for us to take care of the community, we need support from the government. The best way to ensure that is to work is to help put those in office sympathetic to our cause.”

Shelagh stirred her tea.  “The Order of Saint Raymond Nonnatus is not a cloistered community–they strive to improve this life as well as the next.  Sister Monica Joan was a suffragette, you know. She was on the frontlines fighting for women’s right to vote.”

“I can remember the Nonnatuns coming in to the polling place back in ‘45, soon after I’d arrived in Poplar.  Like a wave of blue, determined to make a change.” Patrick smoothed margarine on a slice of toast as the natural order returned to the room.  “The Nonnatuns have the best voting attendance record of any group in Poplar, I imagine.”

Tim grabbed the lifeline, grateful for the distraction.  “Which groups don’t vote?”he asked.

Patrick lowered his brow in concentration.  “Young people. And women. The numbers are improving, I’ve heard, but—“ he shrugged in resignation.

“But young people should be voting!  We’ve got the most at stake, when you think of it!  Were the ones that will have to live with the consequences the longest.”  He slumped over his cereal.

“Yes, but many young voters aren’t engaged in the process.  They think it’s for stuffy old men.”

“That’s because it is stuffy old men.”  Shelagh sighed. “When nearly every politician looks and sounds like someone’s grandad, it’s hard to think there’s a place for others at the table.  Why, many women that do go to the polls simply vote the way their husbands tell them. It’s hardly inspiring.  Women need to see that they have their own voice, and they need to use it.”

Teddy was finished with both his breakfast and the conversation, and began to fuss.  Shelagh pushed back her chair.

“I’ve got him,” Patrick told her.  “Finish your tea.”

Shelagh watched as her husband released the boy from his confinement and sighed. “Too many women have so little support at home that there’s no time for them to think of the world beyond their door.  Im afraid the simple act of voting can be quite complicated when you’ve little ones at home.”

Teddy’s feet thundered over the kitchen floor as he ran in restless circles.  “See?” Shelagh asked. “Imagine toting a pack of children along to the polling place and then trying to concentrate on your ballot.  I’m lucky enough to have your father to help, and you, too,” her voice was warm. Her anger was gone.

“Voting is a good deal more than simply showing up, Tim,” Patrick returned to his own cooling tea.  

“I’m starting to understand that.”

“Timmy could babysit.”  Angela’s bright voice offered.

“Babysit?” Three voices answered in unison.

Without looking up from her breakfast, Angela offered a most reasonable solution.  “Timmy babysits for Teddy and me. If voting is so important, he could help the other mummies.”

“Babysit?”  Tim moaned.

Patrick chuckled,  “Civic responsibility has a price, Tim.”

Pounding feet came to a sudden stop, and with a wobble and a whoop of laughter, Teddy Turner settled next to his mother to finish his breakfast.   

***

 

Clinic was over, and as the last of the patients wandered out, the nurses began to gather in the small kitchen for a cup of tea before setting the place to rights and moving on to the next task of the day.  

“We’re lucky Sir Alec didn’t call for the vote on a clinic day,” Patrick said, leaning back against the countertop.  “This cold season is starting a bit earlier than I’d like, and closing the clinic, even for a day, could put us so far behind it’d be spring before we caught up.”

Shelagh unplugged the electric kettle and filled the teapot.  “Yes, that’s the problem with relying so entirely on one space for all our community needs.  Having the polling here makes it a tad bit easier for Timothy’s cause, however. We’ll have Fred move out all of the examination beds from the alcove and he can keep the children occupied there whilst the mothers come in to vote.”

As if summoned, the boy appeared in the doorway, haggard and rumpled from a long day of canvassing the neighborhood.  With a dramatic flourish, he dropped into a chair.

“It’s impossible!”  He bemoaned. “I’ve had dozens of mums sign up for the babysitting service, and I’ve no one to help!”

Trixie’s mouth puckered as she struggled to control a giggle.  “I’m sure it’s not as bad as all that. Surely some of your friends will help.”

Tim leaned forward to rest his chin in his hand in defeat.  “That’s what I thought. I was certain the girls I asked would help.”

“No willing conscripts?” Trixie asked.

“I wonder if you’re aware of the irony that’s on display here, Master Turner.”  Phyllis Crane looked up from her clipboard. “Exclusively asking girls to help care for children is hardly supporting your cause for women’s voting rights.”

Tim rolled his eyes.  “I know that now.  Caroline Gillespie made her opinion perfectly clear when I approached them at the bus stop this morning.  But how am I to get boys to help take care of children?”

“You seem to be rather proving my original point, Tim.”  Shelagh crossed the room to pour him some tea. “These mums you’re trying to help, they have husbands—grown men perfectly capable of caring for their own children for an hour or so while their wives go vote…or do some shopping…or even get their hair done!” She stirred her tea vigorously as she continued.  “It’s not babysitting when they’re your babies!” She harumphed.

Patrick reared back in his seat, arms wide.  “Don’t look at me!” He defended. “I’ve given the littles a bath every night this week!”

“Yes, dear.  You’re quite liberated.”  Shelagh patted his hand. “Not all mothers are as fortunate as I am.”  Mischief gleamed behind her glasses.

Trixie giggled, then grew serious.  “You’re right, Shelagh. Somehow, there’s always another chore to be done, or person to be taken care of before a woman can stop being someone’s something or other and exercise her rights as an individual.”

Timothy squirmed in his seat.

“It’s all rather casual, this male chauvinism,” Phyllis removed her glasses to study the young man more closely. “It’s not like in America, what with those officials trying to block people from voting with poll taxes or literacy tests simply because of their skin color.  There, the enemy is out in the open, the lines are drawn quite sharply. In Britain, women have had the right to vote for decades, and because of the way society discourages our participation, we’ve yet to be a force within the polls.”

Patrick spoke up.  “I wouldn’t say women are discouraged, precisely, at least not officially…”

Three sets of eyes glared at him.  

“Then how would you say it, Patrick?”  Shelaghs voice was clipped. “Our paid workers—mostly men, mind you—are given time off from their places of employment in order to participate in elections.  There are no such opportunities for women that stay home to care for others. And how many political meetings have you attended that were held at men’s-only establishments?”

“I’ve offered to take you–“

“That’s hardly the point, and you know it.  It’s the way it’s always been done, and men have come to expect it to be the way things will always be done.”  Shelagh reached out and covered his hand with her own.  “I shouldn’t be so hard on you, dear. You’ve done tremendous work to help everyone have a voice.”

A glance passed between Trixie and Phyllis, and the older nurse stiffened her spine.  “Of course, we’re all grateful for the support we receive from men like you, Doctor Turner, but we’ve moved beyond that.  It’s time for the male population to recognize theirs is not the only perspective on the world.”

Patrick swallowed thickly and nodded his understanding.  

“This is all very interesting,”  Tim’s voice broke the tension. “But none of you have told me how I’m to find help taking care of all those kids.”

Chuckles broke the tension, and the group began to break up.  “You’ll think of something, Tim,” his father assured him.

“What if I told the other—“

Patrick placed a hand in his son’s shoulder, silencing him.  “You heard the ladies, Tim.” He exhaled a quiet laugh. “Do not tell the other lads it’s a good way to meet girls.”

 

***

Shelagh stood vigil at the community center doors, a worried crease between her brows.  There was no need to check her watch, the dwindling number of voters in the open space told her there wasn’t much time.  She pressed her lips together and held in a sigh. If he was late, there was an excellent reason.

“Good evening, Mrs. Turner,” Fred Buckle ambled in, tool kit in hand.  “Heard there’s been a good turnout today. Bodes well fer change, don’t it?”

“Fingers crossed, Fred.  There’s a fresh pot of tea in the break room if you’d like.  We can’t start taking down the polling booths until after the final votes cast.”  She craned her neck to peer around the large man.

Wisely, Fred kept his own counsel.  He tugged at his ear and said, “Right, then.  You’ll know where to find me.”

A rush of cold air filled the hall, and Shelagh turned expectantly to the entrance.  A woman burst in, a toddler on her hip and two young children dragging behind her in their pajamas.

“I’ve made it, ‘aven’t I?” She puffed.  “Himself only just left for the pub. I thought he’d never get out in time for me to come!”

Shelagh nodded, her arm outstretched to usher the woman in.  “Let me take the children. We have an eager group of teenagers ready to keep an eye on the wee ones as you cast your vote.”  She took the youngest in her arms. “Now come along, children. I think we’ve still plenty of coloring books that need an artist’s attention.”

An impromptu play area occupied the alcove they used for examination beds during clinic.  “Timothy, dear,” Shelagh called over. “We’ve got some little friends for you to play with.”

Tim unbent from the task of collecting wooden blocks from the low table.  Despite his fatigue, a broad smile crossed his face, and he held out a blue one to the littlest child.  “Brilliant. You can help me build London Bridge. Teddy keeps knocking it down.” He pulled out two chairs.

“Teddy always knocks down the towers,” Angela announced.  In an effort to prove his sister wrong, the little scamp snatched a crayon from the table and scribbled on its surface.

Caroline Gillespie scooped him up.  “Come on, little man. Let’s make the tower one more time.”

Shelagh smiled.  “Thank you, dear.  You’ve been a tremendous help this afternoon.”

“My pleasure, Mrs. Turner.  Timothy May have told you, but I wasn’t…supportive of his efforts when he first told us about it.” She rolled her eyes in a way that made her feel for the girl’s parents.  “It seemed like he was only asking us girls to be babysitters! But as I passed by after school today, I watched Mr. Stacey try to climb the steps outside. He needed two men to help him manage, poor thing.  I never really considered how the world excludes so many, just with simple things like stairs.”

Teddy was impatient to get at the new block tower, and Caroline set him down again.  “Each day is a lesson, as my nan says.”

“Indeed,” Shelagh grinned at the girl’s serious tone.  “I’ll pass this little one off to you as well, if you don’t mind.  I’ll go start on clearing out the voting stalls. Angela, Mummy will be right back.”

A dozen wooden stalls lined the wall of the main room, offering privacy to voters as they filled out their ballots.  Most of the poll workers, all tired volunteers, were gathered in the break room. Shelagh paused at the ballot box table.

“You go get a cup of tea, Mr. Lewis.  It’s only two minutes to seven, I can manage any last stragglers.”  She held in another sigh. Patrick wouldn’t be voting this time around.

Her heels clipped sharply on the Lino as passed from stall to stall.  Really, she wondered to herself, how could people be so messy? She collected stray paper and gum wrappers into a bag and dropped the marking pens in a can.

At the far end, she noticed someone had written a campaign slogan on the wooden surface, a clear violation of campaign rules, but decided not to pursue the matter.  It was unlikely Mickey Mouse had much support in the House of Commons.

“Busy today?” Patrick’s husky voice startled her, and she spun around.

“Patrick! You made it!  I was so worried you’d get here past time.  Let’s get you a ballot then-“

He stopped her with an outstretched hand.  “It is past time,” he told her. “It’s just gone seven.”

She struggled to hide her disappointment.  “Oh. I’m sure it couldn’t be helped. You had a long list for rounds.”

“Yes, I did.  That’s why I stopped in right after surgery and voted then.”

Her smile was wide.  “You did! Oh, Patrick. I’m so glad!”

“I’ve only ever missed one vote, and that was during my training.  A rather large baby was reluctant to hurry his arrival. I learned then to vote as early as I could.  Besides,” his eyes were warm, “I know how important it is to you.”

Shelagh felt her cheeks flush.  Had they somehow moved farther back into the booth?  He bent, his nose close to hers, and said softly, “We should head home.”

She could not hide her dimple.  “I suppose we should. Fred might ask us to help with the take-down.”

“Mm-hmm…” Patrick murmured, tracing her downy cheek with the tip of his nose.  “Let’s get the children home and into bed. Poor Tim’s so tired, he’ll be asleep before Teddy.”  He tugged her earlobe between his teeth. “It’ll be hours before they announce any results.”

She sighed.  “Hours? I do hope they take their time.”

 

 

 

A Moment’s Peace

This fic is set soon after the Carter birth and the shared cigarette.  Thanks to my betas for making this more than I thought it could be.


Sister Bernadette cycled sluggishly through the streets, the late morning sun already hot against her back.  She was grateful the rattle of the wheels against the cobbles drowned out the rumble of her empty tummy. A late night delivery had called her from her bed out to one of the poorest of the neighborhoods Nonnatus covered, and the tea and sandwich she’d packed for sustenance through the long hours had been more needed by the young woman’s family.  It was too bad today was Tuesday. She’d have to settle for cold cereal or toast until the unsatisfying cold lunch they’d set out for themselves several hours from now.

Ahead, she saw a Lyon’s Tea House, and impulsively pulled up to the window.  The room was empty, its early morning rush over, and she felt drawn by the luxury of a quiet cup of tea made by someone else.  The emergency shilling buried at the bottom of her pocket felt heavy against her thigh, and without letting herself think, she pushed open the door.

The bell tinkled as she entered, and the proprietress called out from behind the kitchen hatch, “Mornin’, Sista’! What kin I get ya?”

“Just some tea and dry toast, if you please,” she replied, and she tried to ignore the lingering scent of bacon in the air.  There was no need to compound her transgression with gluttony.

“Just a cuppa?  Comin’ right up, Sister.  You take a seat and I’ll be wif ya in two ticks.”

True to her word, the spry old woman soon placed a steaming cup and toast before her.  “You look done in, Sister. You just put yer feet up and take a nice long break. Me morning rush is finished, but I’ve me taters to peel for me pies.  Anyfink else you need, just give a holler.”

She bustled away and Sister Bernadette released a sigh.  Sister Evangelina wouldn’t approve, but she let the thought go.  This was such a little thing. It wasn’t as if she was treating herself to dinner at the Ritz.  One cup of tea and a few pieces of bread wouldn’t hurt anyone.

The bell jangled her from her reverie, and she glanced up.

“Good morning, Sister Bernadette.”  Doctor Turner stood looking down at her.

His voice was husky, as if he’d already smoked too many cigarettes that morning, and she recognized the lines of weariness on his face.  Like her, he’d not seen his bed that night. She felt a flush rise at the thought. Since that odd delivery at the Carter’s, she’d found him too present in her thoughts, and fought for composure.

“Good morning, Doctor Turner,”  she answered, her voice cool. “Another long night with Mr. Tweedy?”  

“Yes.  There’s nothing more I can do, I’m afraid.  I’ll refer him to hospice, but my receptionist won’t be in until Thursday.  I’m not sure I’ll be near a telephone for the next day or two.”

“I shall tell Sister Julienne, Doctor.  Nonnatus House can manage that for you.”  Equanimity began to return as she focused on the administrative task.  

The café owner appeared at his side.  “Good morning, Doctor Turner, what’ll I get fer ya?”

“Oh, I wasn’t going to order anything, I just wanted to—”  he stopped, uncertain, and then a sense of resolve lifted his shoulders.  “Strong coffee, Mrs. Potter. And maybe a plate of your eggs?”

She winked.  “For you, Doc?  The world. Just sit yerself down and have a nice chat with the Sister.  It’ll be right up.”

He smiled awkwardly.  “Do you mind?” His long fingers gestured to the chair across from her.

“Of course not, please, sit.”  She didn’t mind, precisely. The poor man looked run off his feet.  Yet still she felt unnerved. His chair scraped against the floor, the sound louder than she expected.  Perhaps it was the fatigue that made her senses seem sharper?

“It must be Tuesday,” he joked as he spread his paper serviette across his lap.  He tilted his head to meet her questioning glance. “Mrs. B’s day off? I feel the same way when my housekeeper’s away. Tim and I usually end up at Capriano’s.  A good “English” any time of day—Mr. Swanson never serves anything else.  I cut back on work those days, but somehow it’s still  hard to find a moment’s peace.”

Peace.  Is that what she’d been seeking when she came into the café?  An image of the chapel flashed in her mind and she felt a stab of guilt.  She should be kneeling in prayer, not sitting across from this man.

“I suppose you have the chapel for that,” he mused.

Her eyes darted away from his, surprised he could read her thoughts.  She sipped her tea, unwilling to answer.

Mrs. Potter appeared, the plates and mug in her hands a miracle of balance.  “I had to brew fresh, and here’s a plate of eggs fer ya’, too, Sister. Yer looking peaky.  You need takin’ care of, I’m sure. No, no arguments. Eat.” Just as suddenly, she disappeared into the kitchen.

Doctor Turner handed her a fork.  “Best listen to the lady.” His grin was boyish, and for a moment she wondered what he looked like as a child.  She bit her lip to keep the curiosity at bay and did as she was told.

The eggs were warm and soft, and she closed her eyes in delight as she chewed.   “I had no idea I was so hungry,” she said. “It snuck up on me. These eggs are delicious!”

“Good,” he leant in conspiratorily and spoke softly.  “I’ve never been that impressed by Potter’s Cafe, and I have quite a low bar.  But this morning, it’s very good!”

Unable to resist, she smiled back.   The nervousness she’d felt when he arrived had dissipated, replaced by a burgeoning sense of ease.  For several minutes they ate in companionable silence, the low sounds of a popular song on the radio.  

“Marianne hated when I stopped at a café,” he said suddenly.  “She said the greasy food would make me run to fat.” He patted his midsection.  “She may have been right about that.”

Uncertain how to respond, and unwilling to glance at his knobbly jumper, she sat in silence.  Marianne Turner had not spent much time with her husband’s medical practice, busy with her own pursuits, and later, the needs of a young boy.  Sister Bernadette wondered if that had caused friction between husband and wife. Marriage was a mystery to her, she freely admitted. It was just as likely the Turners had found their own set of rules for their marriage.

“I know little of married life, of course, but I’ve seen enough with our patients to know that a wife often teases her husband out of worry.”  She tore her toast into small pieces, discarding them on her plate.

He picked up the last triangle of toast and pointed it at her, his grin returning.  “You’d be surprised how often a nun shone light on the state of my marriage, Sister.  Something about being on the outside, looking in, I suppose.”

He smiled, but she could see traces of sorrow in the lines around his eyes.  

“We were very different, Marianne and I, but we…” he put the uneaten toast down and sighed deeply. “We filled in the lonely places.”

She felt more than saw his hand clench, thumb agitating against forefinger, and she wondered when she had first noticed that symptom of his unease.  It seemed as familiar to her as his dry grin and the forelock of hair that never seemed to stay groomed. Her lungs tightened uncomfortably, silencing any words of comfort she might have uttered to soothe another’s pain.  The breathlessness pitched her into a moment of confusion, and she struggled to muster a sense of detachment.

She could not.  For years, she had been able to meet the rigorous demands of the Order, accepting her vows with joy and devotion, but in these last weeks–months, even–she chafed against them.  The rigorous training could no longer be relied upon to summon universal Christian love. She did not feel that communal connection with all. Rather, she felt a bewildering connection to this man in all his individuality.  

She forced air into her lungs and stood.  “I must go, Doctor Turner. I’ve tarried from my duties long enough, I’m afraid.  I will advise Sister Julienne of Mr. Tweedy’s condition, and we will handle the matter accordingly.”  Without looking she could see his perplexed expression. She placed a coin on the table. “Good day, Doctor.”

Her feet carried her the few steps to the door, her arms pushed the heavy door open, and she found herself in the over-bright sunshine.  The ride to Nonnatus would banish these thoughts, she told herself. Physical exercise would clear her head of these troubling thoughts and prepare her for the hours of prayer she required.  In Chapel, she would search for the sanctuary she once knew and banish her disorderly yearnings.


I was nearly finished with this fic when I was reminded by one of my betsas that I had written a coffee shop fic (of sorts) before.  That time I added the bonus of a bit of an unlikely crossover:  Parks and Recreation.  Not sure what I could possibly mean??  Think I couldn’t possibly be so insane?  Oh, friend, here’s the proof:  Wise Words.

Everything She Asks For

2018-04-12This fic begins during s6e8, as Shelagh tells Patrick her decision about her labor and delivery.  You’ll see I’ve cribbed that scene for continuity’s sake.  Obviously, the italicized first section of this story does not belong to me.  Nor does the entire world of Call the Midwife.  I’m just happy to spend time there.


Shelagh rested back on her arms as she settled into an awkward sitting position on their bed, her shod foot in his hand.  He knew this may not be quite comfortable, but it was certainly better than taking off her own shoes. Besides, he enjoyed these little moments when he could take care of her.  His brain began to catalog facts as he worked the laces free. The baby had most definitely dropped in the last few days and Patrick wondered if his wife was starting to feel any increased pressure on her bladder.  Her torso was short enough that even this change wouldn’t help much with the difficulty breathing she sometimes felt.

“I do feel so much calmer since I gave up work, she assured him.  There was a hitch in her voice that pinged something in his subconscious, and he tensed as she continued.  “I think you might feel the same if you could just be my husband and not my doctor, too. And I think it…It might be best if you don’t attend the birth.”

His stomach lurched.   “But it never occurred to me that you wouldn’t want me there!”

“I want you there as soon as the baby’s born,” she pacified, “but we’ve been in too many delivery rooms together before today.  Solving problems. Preventing disasters.”

“And we do prevent disasters!  We’re a team.”

She seemed unmoved by his argument, and he tried to read her face.  He knew that expression–he’d seen it often enough when she had to give bad news to a patient or tell Timothy to get back to his studies.

“Patrick, I know that you’re looking at my ankles and thinking that they’re swollen.”

His answer was reflexive.  “If you’re not experiencing headaches, and there’s no sign of proteinuria, then it could just be the normal oedema of late pregnancy.”  Too late, he realized he’d proven her logic.

“See, the minute you look at me, you go to work.,” she rejoined.

“No,” he admitted, his heart swelling.  “The minute I look I you, I’ll give you everything you ask for.”  Discussion over, he slipped the second shoe from her foot.

“There,” Shelagh said, sliding her feet into the slippers her husband held out for her. “Thank you, Patrick.”

He glanced up from under his furrowed brow.  Not be there at the delivery? It didn’t seem he had much choice in the matter.  Shelagh’s bossy streak was in full force these last few weeks. First the new house…then the home birth…now this?  He opened his mouth to protest but closed it in resignation.

Shelagh leant forward and caressed his cheek. “Patrick dear, don’t look so glum.  You’ll see I’m right, I promise.” She leant down and pressed a kiss to his lips. With a ladylike grunt, she extended her arm for assistance. “Up, please.  Those potatoes are not going to boil themselves!”

Patrick watched as she left the room.  Her back must definitely be hurting a bit now, he thought.  The baby was certainly settling lower. He’d have to keep an eye out for any early signs of–

“Patrick,” Shelagh called gently from the door.  “See what I mean? You’re doing it right now!” Her smile was kind.  “Come on then, Doctor. Help your pregnant wife down the stairs like all the other husbands.”

 

The evening air was crisp in the back garden, and Patrick was grateful for the cardigan Shelagh had handed him after dinner.  He stood by the trash bins and looked up at the stars. It’d be clear the next day or so, he thought. Good. The children needed to be outside, needed to get some air and sunshine if they were to head off the influenza outbreak he’d heard of in other parts of London. It wouldn’t do for them to get ill, especially with Shelagh being so far along in her pregnancy.

A laugh drew his attention back to the house, and through the large glass doors, he could see Shelagh and Angela sitting together with the pile of books the little girl had chosen that afternoon at the lending library.  Timothy sat in the corner of the room, finally finished with his studies for the night and flipping through a new comic book. The sight of his family should ease his mind, he knew, but Shelagh’s words this afternoon still stung.

Not be in the room when she delivered? He’d never even thought that was a possibility.   He’d taken for granted that Shelagh would want him there.

God, he wanted a cigarette.  His nerves were close to the surface, and a long slow pull of smoke into his lungs would be just the thing to calm them.  He rubbed the back of his neck and turned away from the glow of the windows.

There were still so many questions about this pregnancy that remained unanswered.  They’d accepted the near-miracle of its conception (though if he were honest, simply applying the Laws of Probability had made it a much more likely event than mere medicine could predict).  Considering the scarring left behind by the TB and the resulting procedure that had given them heartbreaking news three years ago, he wasn’t even convinced the baby should be delivered here at home at all, but Shelagh had been determined.  His maternity hospital–his efficient, comfortable, safe maternity hospital was not the place for her delivery.

She’s just showing her old prejudice for her district nursing days, he groused.  There was absolutely no reason why she shouldn’t deliver at the hospital. Maybe she was just a bit shy to be in the regular patient population?  He could promise her a private room. At the hospital, they’d be ready for any possible emergency.

His legs grew a bit unsteady and he dropped onto the nearby bench.  What if there was an emergency?  If he couldn’t be in the room, how could he be certain any and all warning signs would be noted?  Sister Julienne was a talented midwife, but–

The sound of the glass sliders opening sliced through his worried thoughts.  Tim approached and took the place next to him. “Mum’s really getting close now, isn’t she?” The boy’s deepening voice brought a crooked smile to his father’s face.

“Yes, very close.  We should expect things to start changing around here anytime.”

“I suppose.”  Tim’s voice was low.  “Some things aren’t likely to change, I reckon.  Mum’s putting everything in order, planning everything.  She’s just told us that we’re to go to Granny Parker’s when the time comes, and you’ll work at the surgery until it’s all over.  Just like it’s a regular day for you.”

“Yes,” Patrick answered cautiously.  “Your mother prefers it that way.”

“But what about you, what do you prefer?  I should think you’d want to be at the birth of your own child.  You’ve been there for half the births in Poplar for the last twenty-five years.”  He straightened his spine. “I don’t need to be shuttled off to Granny’s as if I were a child, Dad.”

Patrick hesitated.  He’d need to show support for Shelagh, but Tim was no fool.  “Tim, when a woman gives birth, things change a bit for her. It’s rather scary, and your mother copes with that by creating a sense of order.  It’s important that we help her feel safe, and if that means I can’t be with her at her time, I’ll just have to accept that. You know Sister Evangeline wouldn’t let me in the room when you were born, either.”  He hoped he sounded more confident than he felt.

A look of empathy passed over the young man’s face.  “You’re not too happy about it, are you?”

No, his son was certainly no fool.  “Not at all.”

Two sets of shoulders lifted in parallel sighs of resignation.  “Women can be a mystery, Tim, especially regarding childbirth. You know, when Mummy was getting close, she decided that she needed to bake.  I have no idea why, but she insisted that if she made enough cakes, she’d be ready for you. In that last month, she must have gone through twenty pounds of flour.  We couldn’t eat it all, so she’d give most to Nonnatus.” He leant in conspiratorily. “To be honest, I think Sister Monica Joan was more relieved than I was when you were born.  Your mother was a terrible baker!”

Tim chuckled softly. “I remember her cakes.  I was always glad when Mrs. B sent one over to us on special occasions.”

After a long moment, Tim broke the silence.  “You like that Mum gets so fussy about the details, don’t you?  All her lists and plans?”

“What do you mean?”

Tim screwed his face in concentration, the right words eluding him.  He licked his lips nervously and said, “You like being taken care of.”

Patrick blinked.  “I hope I take care of her, too.”  His voice was guarded.

“Well, yes, but you like being managed by her.  The surgery is never organized when she’s away, and you’re always happy to have her run the house.”

“I’m not sure what you mean, Tim.”

Timothy shifted on the bench.  “The words aren’t coming out right.  I mean, I know you married Mum because you love her, but isn’t part of you glad she takes care of all those things?”

Patrick arched his neck and looked up at the night sky.  “I’m not certain I ever really thought of it that way, Tim.  I didn’t fall in love with Mum because I needed someone to help with the washing up.”

“No, I suppose not,” Tim admitted.  “But it got me wondering, that’s all.”

“We’re all on edge, Tim, that’s all this is.  Mum has good reasons to keep the house quiet when the time comes.  We have to respect them.” He leant in again. “Besides, you’re not really interested in being here, are you?  You cringe when we even talk about it. You wouldn’t be able to escape it if you were here!”

Timothy grimaced.  “No, I don’t really want to be here, but do I really have to stay at Granny Parker’s the whole time?”

Patrick’s mouth twisted in a half-smile.  Teasingly, he reached out to rub his son’s head.  “No, I suppose you could spend some of your time out trying to impress the ladies.  I’ll talk to Granny and let her know you’ll be out a bit. How’s that?”

“Dad!” Tim shrugged away, laughing.

Shelagh’s voice broke into their camaraderie. Neither had noticed that she’d come up behind them.  “You two look like you’re having a good time,” she said.

“Now, I hate to be a spoilsport, but it’s getting late, Timothy.  You said you needed to call your friend Alan about a question on your trigonometry.  You don’t want to wait too long. I’m sure his parents would not appreciate a phone call in the middle of the night.”

Patrick studiously avoided his son’s eye as he headed back in the house.  Instead, he extended his arm and Shelagh came up close against him.

“I have a feeling there was something going on out here I don’t quite understand,” Shelagh said.  

Patrick pressed a kiss against her smooth hair.  “I’m sure I don’t know what you’re talking about, my love,” he teased.  “Just man-talk–nothing to worry about.”

She slid her hand over his waist and toyed with the buttons of his cardigan.  “I think Tim wasn’t very happy about our decision to send the children to Granny Parker’s when the baby comes,” she admitted.

Our decision?  Patrick bit his lip to keep from saying the words.  “I’ve had a talk with him, and he understands better now,” he told her.  

“Truly?  I was so worried you’d both think I was being selfish.”  She looked up into his downturned face. “You’ll see, dearest.  It will be for the best.”

Angela’s voice came through the glass door.  “Mama, I finished my Horlicks!’

“Well, that’s me,” Shelagh pushed off from his side.  “Coming, Angela!”

At the doorway, she turned back.  “Are you coming, Patrick? It’s getting chilly out here.”

Smiling to himself ruefully, Patrick gave a brisk rub to his arms and followed his wife into the house.

 

Love in Focus

A special thank you to the Nonnatuns on Tumblr.  For some reason, the idea of Patrick in reading glasses is quite appealing!


It starts out with little things:  a hastily closed drawer, a hidden medical bag. Taken independently, Shelagh would think nothing of it all.  The children and the house take up any time left over from her return to work, and she barely has time to see more than the next task before her.  But after he snaps at her for going through his pockets on laundry day, Shelagh begins to wonder.

“Patrick, are you smoking again,” she confronts him one evening.  She knows it’s not likely.  She hasn’t  picked up on the lingering smell of smoke in his clothes, and his kisses don’t taste of tobacco, but she knows he’s hiding something from her.

He pulls a face.  “Smoking? Of course not.  Why on earth would you ask?”

She immediately regrets her words.  “I’m sorry, dear, it’s just…oh, never mind.  Forget I said anything.”

Another week goes by, and Shelagh makes an effort to pay closer attention.  She’s convinced he’s hiding something from her, and what’s worse, he feels guilty about whatever it is.  She can see it in his face.  When he comes home late from surgery yet again, she decides it’s time to confront him.

Usually, their arguments are quick, irritations more than anything else, but tonight she surprizes him with her suspicious tone.  

“There’s no need to keep secrets, Patrick.  If you need to seek out amusement elsewhere, I’m sure I would sympathize.”  

Understanding lights his face, and he laughs self-consciously.  

“I’m sure I don’t see how you could think this is the slightest bit funny, Patrick.”  Her voice is sharp with betrayal.  “I know I’m–”

He grasps her by the shoulders and turns her towards him, contrition written on his face.  “Shelagh, sweetheart.  It’s not funny at all.  I simply didn’t want you to know–” his voice cuts off and he raises one finger between them.  “Wait here.”

He returns, and it takes Shelagh a few moments to notice the small black case in his hands.

The crease between her eyebrows deepens in confusion.  She glances up, asking for some explanation.

Patrick exhales and begins.  “They’re reading glasses.  I’ve been having trouble reading the fine print in my medical journals lately, and I had to see the eye doctor.  I didn’t want you to see me wearing them, so I’ve been staying at the surgery late to catch up on my paperwork.”

Shelagh reaches out and examines the case in her hand.  “Reading glasses?  Why on earth would you hide reading glasses from me?  I’ve been wearing glasses since I was a girl.”

“I didn’t think you’d make fun,” he explains, “but you’re nearsighted.  You were born that way.  Reading glasses are another thing entirely.  Reading glasses are for…older people.”

She blinks rapidly, trying to understand.   

“I’m fifty-four, Shelagh.  You’re not even near forty!  I’ll be A pensioner before Teddy takes his A-levels.”  He runs the back of his hand along her smooth cheek.  “I didn’t want you to think of me as an old man.”  

Shelagh takes the glasses from their case and slips them onto the bridge of his thin nose.  She bites her lip as a gleam rises in her eyes.  “I think you look very distinguished, dear.”

Patrick rolls his eyes and shakes his head. “Distinguished?” he sneers.  “That’s a kind way to say decrepit.”

“Oh, I don’t think so, Patrick.  Distinguished is very…”

“Very?” he asks.  

Her hands slide up his shoulders and into his hair and she tugs his head a bit closer.  Their breath mingles as she brushes her nose lightly against his.  A giggle rises up between them and up close, he can see her dimples deepen with mischief.  

“Distinguished is very what?” he whispers.  

She leans up on her tiptoes and whispers back.   “I’ll explain later, dearest.  But first, I’d like you to read to me in bed tonight.”

 

Entirely Appropriate Behaviour

Here’s a fluffy little fic inspired by a gif set MissBergmans posted on Tumblr after S7Ep4.  You can find her blog here.  I’m grateful for both the gifset and her generosity in allowing me to include this here.

This ficlet was so much fun to write I wrote it in (for me)record time!  It’s not all original, I have to admit.  The italicized dialogue is directly from the episode written by Heidi Thomas and Lauren Klee.  The silly nonsense part is all me.


The old wood of the file cabinet drawer closed with a satisfying scrape.  One more task completed, Shelagh thought.  She mentally ticked off another item from her list of tasks to complete and felt a smug smile lift her lips.  She shook the smile off and scolded herself.  “Vanity is a sin, Shelagh Turner.  It’s required of us all to perform to the best of our abilities.”

She heard his footsteps before he came through the door to the maternity home, and she looked up expectantly.  Patrick swung into the room, his arms swinging jauntily.  Oh, he did look quite handsome in his new suit.  This new slim cut did suit him.

And he knew it, she reminded herself.  Apparently, she was not the only one prone to vanity.

He grinned at her and she felt the blush rise in response.  They still enjoyed the connection they felt at work, even after four years of working together at the surgery, but this afternoon she felt a bit more tingly than might be appropriate in the workplace.  

“Here is Sister Monica Joan’s referral letter,” she told him, holding the paper out to him.  “Mr. Greswell doesn’t have a very long waiting list.”

“The sooner, the better, I think.”  He unfolded the letter, checking its contents.  “Before she decides to flee Nonnatus House disguised as a washerwoman.”  He grinned at his own joke.

Shelagh shrugged and tried to disguise a giggle as a sigh.  Confidence was so appealing.  “She needs to be accompanied to hospital by someone she can trust and it sounds as though Sister Julienne is in her bad books.  Let’s see when they can fit her in.  I’ll take her myself is she hasn’t come ‘round to the notion.”

He smiled in approval, and Shelagh relaxed.  She wasn’t sure what he was up to, but she was sure there was some sort of subtext to his demeanour today.  Maybe she was just imagining it.  Patrick’s behaviour was always entirely appropriate.

He reached out to press her forearm, a simple gesture of agreement, but she felt his fingers squeeze her flesh ever so suggestively, and when he step past her on his way to his office she was certain he deliberately brushed up against her breast.  A thrill ran down her spine and she flushed a brighter pink.  

She turned about just in time to watch as he swaggered up the last step.  He turned, catching her staring at him and gave her a Cheshire grin.  

“Well, are you coming, or aren’t you?” he beckoned.

What happened next, behind the locked door of his office, may not have been entirely appropriate after all.

 

Encouraged in Love

This fic is set immediately after “Knit Together.”  It shifts in tone a bit, and may simply be kettles for the sake of kettles (not that there’s anything wrong with that!)  Actually, it’s definitely KWP (Without Purpose).

I’d say 3 1/2 kettles are on the hob for this one.


Shelagh felt a warm glow rise up through her body.  He wanted her, and the rest of the world, all her worries fell away.  She moved closer, so their bodies were almost touching and breathed his scent in deeply.  “You smell clean.”  Her finger traced the pattern on his pyjama top, then pressed against his heart.  

His hands covered hers and he looked her squarely in the eye.  “Shelagh, you don’t have to do this.  It’s only natural if you need more time.  Your body’s been through so much-”

“All is as it should be,” she answered.  “You’ve been wonderfully patient for so long, darling.  I’d started to forget how important this is.  Not simply the…the sex,” her whisper grew softer on the word,  “but being us, together.  A couple.”  She slid her arms around his waist and pressed her head against his chest.  “Even if you don’t want to tonight, I’d like to be near you.”

A rumble deep in his chest made her smile.  “I think you know I want to,” he teased.  His voice grew serious again and he bent his head to meet her eyes.  “Are you certain?’

She raised her face to his.  “I am completely certain.”

Patrick stepped back and grinned appreciatively.  “I was right, you should wear my jumper.  It suits you.”  He twirled her in a tight circle before him, letting his gaze trace her form.  “You’ve got the legs for it.”

A dimple appeared.  “Ridiculous man,” she giggled.  She wove her arms around his neck and tugged his face close to hers.  They lingered for a long moment, their lips a bare inch apart.  Long dormant feelings rose to the surface and she felt a familiar ache grow within her.  Unable to wait any longer, she pushed up on her toes to kiss him.  This was no longer simply about being available to him.

His lips were warm and firm, yet she knew instantly that he was holding back.  She sighed against his mouth, excited by his restraint.  Even now he would let her take the lead, let her offer what she was ready for.  She tugged gently on his lower lip, darting her tongue against its fullness before she pulled it into her own mouth.  Their tongues met and grazed against each other, deepening the kiss.  She stretched even taller, eager for more contact, and she protested when he pulled back.

“Bloody hell, Shelagh, I’ve missed you.”  He let his gaze wander over her again, and she thrilled at the passion she saw there.  His arms pulled her tight to him and he pressed his face against her hair.  “It’s taking all I have not to push you down on our bed and ravish you,” he murmured.  

They stood together for a long moment.  Then with a deep breath, he sat back on the edge of the bed.  Catching her by the hips, he tugged her to stand before him.  

There were no words, no sounds but for the soft suss of their slow breathing.  She grazed the back of her fingers against his cheek, up along the sharp edge of his temple and into his dark hair.  Her lips followed her fingertips, lingering at his temple, her nose in his hair.    

When his hands slid in gentle circles along the backs of her thighs, she exhaled in pleasure.  They kissed, intimate and slow.  She moved again, her head lowered to his and her arms about his shoulders, and she gasped at the scratch of the coarse wool against her sensitive skin.  Her breasts tingled, and she leant lightly into him.  

He moaned softly into her mouth and slid his hands beneath the jumper, cupping her bottom and Shelagh gasped.   “Yes, Patrick, please,” she whispered.  

His hands skimmed over the smooth skin of her arched back, fingertips tracing along her spine, and she felt the heat build deep inside her.  She cupped his face in her hands and kissed him again, humming with pleasure.  Her back arched in an invitation and felt his hands slide around to cup her breasts.  

Suddenly it wasn’t enough. Breaking their kiss, she straddled him.  She pressed herself tightly against him, her arms wrapped around him, and gloried at the feel of him between her legs.  “I love you, Patrick,” she purred.  “Whatever else there is there will always be us at the center.”  She kissed his cheek and sat back.  Lifting herself up, she reached down and pulled the jumper off and tossed it to the side.

“Let me ravish you, Patrick.”

His smile was dazzling.  “That’s my girl.”

 

Later, after their hearts had returned to a steady beat, they lay facing each other in a cocoon of blankets.

“Teddy will be up soon,” Patrick whispered.  “I’m afraid we won’t get much sleep tonight.”

“Mm-hmm.”  She stretched her legs so that her toes found the tops of his feet.  “We’ll simply have to go to bed early tomorrow night, dearest.”

“I’ve got rounds, I’m afraid.”  He rolled onto his back with a sighed of regret.  

She followed him and nestled against his chest, her sigh echoing his.  “Angela has a dress rehearsal, and Timothy asked me to help him with revising for his Trigonometry exam.  Oh, and I simply must get into those patient files—they’re a mess!”

“Sometimes I wish we were workers on the clock like everyone else.”  He gently massaged her back.

“A rain check, then?”  she asked, then pressed a kiss to his chest.

“Absolutely.  Especially if you take to wearing all my jumpers.”  His shoulders shook with laughter.  “Perhaps I should get a blue one…”

“I’m sure I don’t know what you’re talking about, Patrick.”