Unpinning Nurse Turner

This fic is a co-production with Rockbird86.com, a favorite Call the Midwife fan fiction writer. Inspired by a Tumblr discussion and a comment by  @missouiser:

“I don’t mind the updo when she is in a suit and managing the surgery, but a scene where she’s walking in the door of the Flat of Requirement, pulls the pins out and shakes her hair down and fluffs it with her fingers would be worth more to me than the time-has-passed proper kiss.”

 

LSS, before you is the first ever collaborative fic by Two Old Bird Productions. I have to warn you, it was so much fun, it won’t be the last!


Summer was in full swing in Poplar. The air was hot and heavy, so much so that the simple act of breathing took effort. Families spilled out of stifling flats, the children caught up in the unaccustomed joy of night games in the street as their parents found their own respite in gossip and cigarettes. A door opened, and light silhouetted the shape of an exhausted Shelagh Turner. With a deep breath, she reached down deep into herself and found the momentum to propel her home.

 

Just three minutes, Patrick told himself as he flopped onto the sofa. Three little minutes and then he’d move. He felt guilty. His last call hadn’t taken as long as he’d thought and really he should have gone back to Shelagh at the maternity home. But she was closing up the surgery and would be here any moment and he’d be better occupied putting the kettle on, taking care of lamps and curtains so that his exhausted wife had a cheery home to greet her. But against the stifling heat of the summer evening, the flat was cool and he felt himself able to breathe properly for the first time that day. And so the kettle stayed empty and the flat cloaked in darkness as his eyes began to close.

 

Seventeen steps, she promised herself. Seventeen steps up the old stone staircase, then twenty-three paces and she’d be on the other side of  the enormous door to their home. Her old counting trick had worked to motivate Timothy as he learned to manage his braces so long ago, and tonight it would get her home to a hot cup of tea and her favorite spot on the sofa. After the extra long day, she was glad they had such a treasure as Mrs. B., and took comfort in the fact that tonight, at least, there would be no night-time parenting duties to demand the last of her energies.

 

It was all so confusing. A moment ago he had been waiting for her to come home to him, now this. Patrick pleaded with her to explain. “Shelagh? Shelagh, I don’t understand, why are you…?”

 

He faltered, the look she gave him was cool. “I’m sorry, but I don’t answer to that name anymore,” she said.

 

He opened his mouth to speak but no words came. Instead he could only watch as his wife, her trim figure now hidden by the heavy blue woollen habit, began twisting her hair up before covering it with the close fitting white cap and finally, the starched white of the wimple. His head throbbed with fear and confusion and he closed his eyes against the pain. She was going. He heard her footsteps peter out as she reached the end of the long Nonnatus corridor and the heavy slam of the door behind her.

 

After a moment he opened his eyes again, then relief flooded his veins as he felt the soft cushions of the sofa underneath him. The slam had been his own front door.

 

The flat was dark, the only light a dim beam peeping out from beneath the bedroom hallway door. They’d all gone to sleep then, Shelagh realized. She buried a wave of disappointment and stepped to the kitchen.

 

Not only was the kettle cold, it was empty. A tired woman’s worst fear. Could she last ten more minutes waiting for a cup of tea, she wondered. Perhaps she could just leave everything and go to bed.

 

“And pigs will fly,” she muttered. Giving in to the inevitable, Shelagh filled the heavy pot and placed it on the hob. Her eyes drifted close, and her hands crept up to ease the tension in the base of her neck.

 

Patrick watched as Shelagh entered the kitchen, felt the kettle and sighed wearily. His head throbbed, whether from the oppressive heat or the horrible dream he’d had as he dozed he couldn’t tell, but he couldn’t bring himself to move or speak. He was exhausted and wrung out by what he’d just imagined and he couldn’t shake it off. Instead he shifted his position slightly so he could see her through the hatch, watching closely to reassure himself that Shelagh was really there and not about to run off clad in blue wool.

He continued to watch as she stood waiting for the kettle to boil, tension and tiredness in her stance. She drummed her fingers on the worktop a few times and snaked her neck, wriggling her shoulders as she did so. Then she lifted her hands to her head and rubbed her neck. He smiled. She needed one of his massages and it would surely cure his own tension too. He’d see to that.

And then she reached up and pulled out the first hairpin holding that updo in place.

As she slipped each pin from her dark honey locks, Shelagh could feel her body begin to relax. A memory of her mother stirred, her warm hands gently brushing young Shelagh’s hair smooth each morning and night. In the years since her mother’s death, it was the memory of those quiet minutes that Shelagh depended upon to ease her anxieties. She would escape to the privacy of her own room, she would release her hair from its confinements and pull her hairbrush through her hair.

Hairpins clattered softly on the countertop. Shelagh slowly stretched her neck, then shook out her hair. She loved the feel of her hair as it teased her shoulders. Raising her arms from her body, she slid her fingers up from the base of her skull and fluffed through her locks. A slow smile hovered in the corners of her pretty mouth, and a familiar sense of calm flooded her mind.

And there was his cue. He never had been able to resist her hair. In his tortured dreams in the days before she was his, her hair always featured. He’d daydreamed hours away wondering about the colour, the length, how soft it would be against his bare skin. In his bolder moments he pondered how the sisters would feel if they knew that the garment designed to hide the hair was, in its own way, so alluring, drawing more attention to that which it aimed to hide and fuelling his fantasies.

With that last thought he gingerly rose from the sofa, swallowing back a groaning as his back protested against the unnatural angle he’d been lying at, but he didn’t take his eyes off his wife. Shelagh was still fluffing out her hair the way she always did when it had been pinned up all day, especially in the heat, running her fingers through it and shaking out the kinks caused by hours held by pins. He made it in time to see the expanse of her neck exposed to him. He put his hands on her shoulders and bent to kiss the pale skin.

“Oh!” she cried out. “Patrick, don’t do that!”

He nuzzled his face against her soft hair and inhaled deeply. “I’m sorry, my love.” he whispered.

“You’re not, not really,” she scolded, but there was forgiveness in her voice. Her hands slid down to rest on her husband’s forearms, and she hugged him to her. With a slight tilt of her head, her hair fell away from the line of her throat he never could resist.

A low sound rumbled in his chest. “Shall I do this instead?” he wondered aloud, his voice soft and ardent. Shelagh felt the gentle grasp of his long fingers on her arms as he turned her to face him. His face glowed with desire and she forgot the aches and fatigue and pressures of the long day.

“I love your hair.” His hands traced the outline of her shoulders, her neck, her jaw, then slid to cradle her head. Silken strands slipped through his fingers as he gently massaged her scalp, and Shelagh’s body became taut with the anticipation his attentions always provoked.

Patrick smiled against her skin. Oh yes, he could feel the tension subsiding with every passing moment. He moved one hand away from her hair and carefully removed her glasses, placing them on the work surface behind her.

“Now that’s my Shelagh,” he murmured, continuing his journey from her neck up to her jawline. “Just mine, no one else’s.”

He felt her pull away slightly, and raised his head to see her eyebrows raised questioningly.

“Aren’t I always yours?”

“Oh no my love,” he resumed his quest, lips moving now from jawline to earlobe. “The hairpins, the glasses…they’re for the outside world. They’re Nurse Turner, they’re Sr Bernadette. Your hair and your eyes, they’re just for me.”

He ran his fingers once again through the soft honey tresses. “This neck is for me, this bit here behind your ear is for me. And these lips…”


If this was 1/10th as much fun to read as it was to write, we’re happy.

A Mission of Hope, Chapter Nine

 

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At precisely ten minutes before eight that morning, a young boy scampered up the stone steps to the Mission. He peeked in the entrance, then called out a few words in his native tongue. Without waiting for a response, he turned back to his assigned task and unwound a length of rope from a cleat on the stuccoed wall. He stayed there motionless until he heard a voice call out, then with a swift yank of the rope, he used his four-stone weight to ring the morning bell.

Almost instantly, children came running into the open yard from every direction, their voices filling the air with cheerful chatter. By the time the last bell had sounded, the children were lined up in orderly rows, smallest to tallest, and stood silently as they awaited the start of the day.

The newest student watched from the side, nerves beginning to show.  He glanced at his mother. “I’m older than all of them,” Timothy muttered.

“It does seem that way,” Patrick answered. “But you’ll be working on your own assignments, it won’t matter much anyway.”

“Yes, but Dad, we’re here for so long. I thought maybe I’d meet some people my own age. I can’t spend all my time with Angela and Nurse Crane.”  He shifted his bookbag on his thin shoulder.

An elderly man shuffled out from the dim school building. His white hair and beard stood in stark contrast to the darkness of his skin and despite his slow gait, he held himself erect.

“Good morning, children,” he called out in a deep and melodious voice.

“Good morning, Utitshala!” Twenty young voices called in return.

The teacher stood to one side of the doorway. “You may come in now.”

Obediently, the children proceeded into the little school house. As the last child entered,the old man turned to Timothy. “You must be my new charge,” the man said. “I am Philip Nkosi, but you may call me “Utitshala,” which means ‘teacher.’” He leaned in conspiratorially. “I must say I am very excited to have you here, young friend. We shall learn much from each other, I am certain.”

His easy manner seemed to relax Timothy, and the boy smiled. “I’m sure I have much more to learn from you, sir.”

Utitshala smiled, revealing strong white teeth. “You will do, Timothy Turner. And soon, you shall meet my young friend Stephen. He will come soon, and you shall have a friend.” He turned to Patrick and Shelagh and held out his hand. “Thank you for the gift of your son, Dr. and Mrs. Turner. I shall do my best to stay out of the way of his progress.”

Patrick shook his hand gratefully. “Thank you sir. We appreciate you accommodating our son during our stay.”

“We have much to learn from one another, Doctor, far beyond the academic. But there is a daughter, I was told.” He looked to Shelagh.

“Yes, Utitshala, but she is quite young. Angela will stay with Kholeka whilst I am at the hospital.”

The teacher nodded sagely. “Kholeka is a wise choice. She has raised four of her brothers and sisters already. She was quite a good student herself when she was in my school, but her family’s need was great. Well, then, Timothy Turner, shall we begin?”

“Yes, sir.”

“Then I shall follow you, as all good teachers must. Good day, Dr. Turner, Mrs. Turner.”

They watched as their son entered the building. Patrick glanced at his watch impatiently. “We’ll be late, Shelagh.”

Her clear blue eyes turned their focus to him. He was nervous, she knew. She reached her hand out to his and gripped it tightly. “Then I shall follow you.”

 

Despite Patrick’s fears, the team had yet to gather in the empty east wing of the hospital. Only Fred and Nurse Crane had arrived, and both had taken the time to settle in according to character. Whilst Nurse Crane stood by the crates of medical supplies taking inventory, Fred had settled himself in a cool corner, his worn pack of cards already spread out before him.

“Mornin’, Doc, Mrs. T,” he called. “Looks like we’ve got our work set out for us, don’t it?”

The room, though clean, had all the hallmarks of a long-abandoned hall. The plaster walls were yellowed with age, the institutional brown paint on the lower half chipping away like an old fresco. Natural light glowed from the large windows and doors, the brown mullions creating a patchwork of glass. Ceiling fans circulated the air.

“It certainly does, Fred. Hopefully, we can get this place sorted and then you can get started on the water supply situation. The Mission Society promised to send a hot water heater, but apparently it’s not yet arrived.” Shelagh walked along the rows of rough-hewn furniture stacked against the back wall, creating a plan as she went.

Patrick lifted the lid of an ancient Red Cross bin and peered inside in distaste. “I’m not sure even you can make something of this place, Shelagh.” He dropped the lid and brushed the rust from his hands.

Shelagh glanced back over her shoulder. “Have no fear, Doctor Turner. This place has good bones, I’m sure we’ll make it work.” She teased, “Remember what I did with you.”

Fred chortled. “I’m afraid she has ya there, Doc.”

Phyllis looked up from the clipboard in her hands. “Between what was here already and the supplies we brought along with us, it seems we have nearly enough to set up as soon as possible, Mrs. Turner.” She handed the papers to Shelagh.

Shelagh nodded and her shoulders lifted with excitement. “We’ll have this place sorted in no time.”

“Sorry, Mrs. Turner,” Trixie’s voice interrupted as she and Barbara Gilbert came through the door. “I simply had to get my “Keep Fit” exercises done this morning, and I convinced Barbara to join me. Just because we’re on a different continent is no excuse to let ourselves go.” A quick giggle took the edge off her words.

“I’m hardly letting myself go, Trixie,” Barbara muttered.

“You always thank me in the end,” came Trixie’s response. She turned about, taking in the room.

“I’m always thankful that it’s over, anyway.” Barbara dropped a bag filled with pamphlets on the nearest table.

Trixie turned about in place, taking in the room. “What a perfectly inspiring place. I can imagine Clark Gable wooing Grace Kelly in a place exactly like this.”

“I’m not certain a double feature of Mogambo and The African Queen was a good idea the week before we left, Nurse Franklin,” Phyllis Crane admonished. “We’re not likely to run into any Hollywood types here, I’m sure.”

Trixie sighed in resignation. “Yes, I suppose my dating life will be even more disappointing here than it was in Poplar. Oh, well. More energy for this!”

“I can’t imagine you not having energy for anything, Nurse Franklin,” Sister Winifred teased.

“Thank you, Sister. I must say, the two of you look so much cooler in these new linen habits. Can you imagine how frightfully uncomfortable your heavy blue habits would be right now? And it’s still morning!” Trixie continued to chatter, filling the silence.

Sister Julienne smiled enigmatically and changed the subject. “Sister Winifred and I spent some time in hospital this morning. It’s rather bereft of patients at the moment, I’m afraid.”

“That’s precisely our problem, Sister.” Dr. Fitzsimmon’s voice answered. Immediately, the focus of the room shifted. “The community is reluctant to come to us, therefore,  we must go out to them, and our resources are stretched beyond their limit. We seem to be putting out fires rather than preventing them in the first place. It’s my hope that by creating this clinic we shall bring the community to the Mission.”  

Her face remained impassive as she glanced about the room, measuring each newcomer in a look. Her eyes came to rest upon Shelagh. “Mrs. Turner, I did not realize you would be working with us as well. Though, of course, we are happy to accept any assistance.”

Shelagh felt the air leave her lungs. Conscious of several pairs of eyes upon her, her voice was composed. “Yes, Dr. Fitzsimmons, I’m looking forward to it.”

“I think you’ll find, Dr. Fitzsimmons, that Mrs. Turner is precisely the person you want setting up your clinic. We couldn’t do without her in Poplar.” Sister Julienne’s eyes met Shelagh’s for a quick moment, and for the moment, the tension that had existed between the two women for the last months disappeared.

Further discussion was interrupted by the insistent sound of a horn blaring in the front yard.

“Damn,” Myra Fitzsimmons muttered. “I’d hoped he wouldn’t descend upon us so soon.”

She turned to the team before her. “I’m afraid you are all about to see the dark side of South Africa.”

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A Mission of Hope, Chapter Eight

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A bright dawn filtered through the louvered shutters of the room, coaxing Shelagh from sleep. New morning sounds, so different from the street hubbub of the East End, rose in a slow crescendo. Strange birds called into the quiet, and an insect droned outside the window as it hovered in the honeysuckle. The familiar sound of Patrick’s breath sussed in her ear and she smiled. He was pressed up against her, his arm over her side and his nose in her hair. This moment was only for her, no demands, no concerns, just the warmth of her husband’s arms. 

Her eyes flickered open. The room seemed misty, and between the netting and her own poor vision, the blur intensified the sense of seclusion. After days of near constant company, she wanted to enjoy the self-indulgence of this moment. Soon enough, Angela would stir in her camp bed a few feet away and usher in the demands of the world.

Shelagh felt a return of the anxiety she had felt throughout the previous day. Weeks of planning and preparation had in some ways distracted her from the actual mission, and now she felt uncertainty begin to creep in. Why did she feel the need to prove herself yet again?

Down the hall, the nuns would be preparing to leave for morning Lauds in the small chapel on site. Shelagh considered joining them, the decided against it. Perhaps later. Her own morning routine of meditation and prayer filled that void, whilst allowing her to remain with her family. The privacy of her own prayer had become quite special to her since leaving the sisterhood, a moment of serenity and thankfulness for the gift of her second life.

Slow breaths filled her lungs, flooding her body with oxygen. She let the air reach deep into her body as her mind cleared. Worries about the children, about Patrick, even her own worries for this mission faded as the well-remembered Breviary repeated in her head and she found her serenity.

Her prayers came to a close and she returned to an awareness of her place. Patrick was awake now, waiting for her to finish. “Morning,” he whispered in her ear. His voice had a husky tone in the morning that stirred her in ways she knew would not be fulfilled now, but for a moment, she let herself enjoy the warm glow of anticipation. They would have to find a solution to the dilemma of Angela’s sleeping arrangements.

She turned her head to see him and was kissed for her efforts. His long fingers glanced along the vulnerable line of her throat, stroking the length of her neck as it stretched towards him. The kiss was slow and tender, and for a moment, they were lost to the world.

“Mama, up!” Angela’s voiced piped across the fog of desire, breaking them apart.

Startled, Shelagh turned her head. Under a shock of pale blonde hair, a pair of brown eyes peered over the top of the mattress, two chubby arms outstretched.

“Angela! You startled me!”

“Mama, up!” The little girl demanded. Patrick’s answering groan expressed his displeasure, and Shelagh squeezed his hand in support.

“Mama. Up.” Angela was growing impatient.

“Too little to climb up, are we, my wee girlie,” her mother teased.

“That’s one way to keep her out of our bed,” grumbled Patrick. “She goes back to her room tonight, Shelagh.”

Shelagh tossed a wry grin back at her husband and pulled Angela up from under the mesh netting. The child scrambled under the thin covers and pressed against her mother. Giving in, Patrick raised his arm and pulled them both in close.

“Good morning kisses, Angela?” Shelagh coaxed.

Angela’s lips smacked the air loudly, her real attention on the teddy bear in her hands. “Monkey,” she cooed.

“You don’t have to beg me for kisses, my love,” Patrick teased. Shelagh glanced up, her eyes showing her opinion of his taunt.

“Yes, darling. You’re a monkey.” Shelagh turned back and tapped a gentle finger to the girl’s button nose.

“No, Mama. Monkey.” Angela pointed her finger at the window.

Lazily, their eyes followed her direction. Just outside the window was a monkey nearly the size of Angela herself.  It paused in its casual breakfast of palm fronds to turn and look back at them. Shelagh gasped, and moved to block her daughter from the monkey’s sight. Patrick leapt up and released a low growl, and the monkey scampered away.

He turned back to his wife and daughter. “Are you alright?” He asked. He was breathing heavily.

Shelagh began to giggle, and the sound stirred Angela from her silence. “Monkey!” She cheered.

Patrick dropped on the bed. “I’m not sure I’m ready for this!”

A scream rose out from somewhere down the hall.

“Monkey!” Angela crowed again.

Struggling into his dressing gown, Patrick ran out into the hall. Doors along the corridor opened, and tousled heads poked out.

“It came from down there, Dad,” Timothy pointed. He followed his father past nurses and nuns to the last door. About to knock, they were startled when Fred appeared, his face ashen.

“A gorilla! There was a gorilla outside my window!” In his haste to escape some great beast, he had left his dressing gown behind and stood in his unmentionables. He clenched a rolled up copy of the Sporting Life in his hand as if he had discovered its more useful purpose: Safari security.

Patrick blinked and struggled to keep the grin from his face. “A gorilla, Fred? Are you alright?”

The large man sighed heavily and leant against the doorjamb. “My heart is pounding like a train! I had no idea we’d be face to face with King Kong!”

Patrick nodded, his face a study in physician’s calm. “Yes, well, I’m glad you’re not harmed, Fred. I’ll leave you to get dressed, shall I?”

Fred huffed and closed his door.

As Patrick and Timothy returned to their rooms, Timothy muttered, “There aren’t any gorillas for two thousand miles!”

Trixie laughed. “It’s a good thing, too. I have no desire to act the part of Faye Wray, even to save Fred.”

 

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I think we’re gonna see a bit more of this fellow.

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A Mission of Hope, Chapter Seven

 

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To eyes used to the sights and sounds of Britain, there was nothing in Dr. Myra Fitzsimmons’ appearance to make her stand out from a crowd. Of medium height and build, she wore a simple green shirtwaister and sturdy shoes, her chin-length hair severely brushed back from her face. She could have been any woman shopping in the high street in Poplar.

Despite this, she was a handsome woman, her features sharp and strong. There was a squareness to her jaw that was offset by a pointed chin and thin nose, and bright blue eyes peered from beneath her dark brows. Deep lines carved her cheeks and forehead, arcing around her eyes and hinting at a passionate nature kept firmly in check.  The effect gave one the sense that she knew more than she let on.  

The small crowd parted to make a path and Dr. Fitzsimmons strode across the yard to greet the newcomers. She smiled, and her face warmed immediately. “I can’t thank you enough, Patrick.” She reached out her hands, grasping his while she examined his face. “My, it’s been a long time. You’re not the boy you were back in medical school.”

Patrick’s eyes widened. “I should hope not! It’s good to see you, Myra. The years have been kind to you.”

She grimaced sardonically and turned to the rest of the group. The moment of lightness disappeared from her face as she became formal once again. When she spoke, her voice was low and throaty. It pulled the listener in and commanded attention in its quietness. “I must thank you all as well. You’ve undergone a difficult journey and set aside your own lives to help us. I hope we can show you how very grateful we are.”

“Your gratitude is unnecessary, Dr. Fitzsimmons,” Sister Julienne answered. “We, all of us, are glad of the opportunity to offer assistance. Let us begin as friends and work together to strengthen your Mission.”

Patrick shifted towards the group, “Dr. Fitzsimmons, I’d like to present Sister Julienne, who runs Nonnatus House and ministers to our community in ways I never can.” He moved through the group, making introductions until he came back to his family. “And this is Timothy, our son, who will be quite happy to learn all he can from you. Feel free to make him toe the line as you did me.”

“It’s very nice to meet you, Dr. Fitzsimmons,” Timothy said.

“And you, Timothy. You look quite rather like your father, are you as bright as he is as well?”

“I hope to be, ma’am,” Timothy answered. He reached out his hand and was met with a firm handshake.

Patrick lifted his daughter up in his arms and turned to reveal the little face hiding in his shoulder. “This is Angela, whom I’m afraid keeps me very tightly wrapped around her finger. She’s a bit shy at first, but I warn you, if you’re not careful, she’ll be running your entire Mission.”

Dr. Fitzsimmons smiled politely at the child’s head. “I’m sure,” she answered. “ We have a girl ready to care for the child as soon as you like.”

“Yes, we’ll need that, thank you. And finally, I’d like to present my wife, Shelagh.”

The voice that welcomed Shelagh was cool. “Of course. I’m very grateful you could join your husband, Mrs. Turner. I hope that you will enjoy your stay here.”

Two pale pink spots appeared in Shelagh’s cheeks, and when she replied, her voice was strangely formal. “Thank you, Doctor. We’re most eager to offer assistance.”

Before Shelagh could say more, Dr. Fitzsimmons turned to the group. “That’s enough for introductions. I’m certain I shall forget most of your names–you’ll have to forgive me–but we are truly grateful you’ve come. I’ll let you get settled, and tonight at dinner we can all become better acquainted. Our staff here will join us, and you’ll be prepared to begin work tomorrow, as well.

She gestured to the young woman lingering near the bus. “Kholeka will lead you to the dormitory, and you can refresh yourselves after your trip. Jacob, please–”

Jacob appeared from nowhere at her side. “Yes, Doctor. The luggage is on its way to the rooms. But the boxes, I do not know where they should go.”

Shelagh tugged lightly on Patrick’s sleeve. “I’ll manage the children and the rooms, Patrick. You go with Dr. Fitzsimmons and see to the medical equipment. It will give you a chance to catch up.”

A small frown appeared between his brows. “Are you certain, Shelagh? There’ll be plenty of time later, perhaps you and I could take care of the supplies toget–”

“No, Patrick,” Shelagh insisted. “I’ll be fine on my own. I have Timothy, don’t forget.”

He nodded, the frown not completely leaving his face. “I’ll be back to clean up before dinner.” He touched her hand. “Thank you, Shelagh.”

She reached up and took the clinging child, then followed the rest to the long low building. The crowd had dispersed, and the two old friends stood together watching as she disappeared into their temporary home.

“She’s a pretty little thing, your wife.” Myra Fitzsimmons’ voice broke the quiet.

“Shelagh? I wouldn’t let her hear you say that if I were you.” He glanced over, a smile tugging at one side of his mouth. “I’ve seen her move a pack of dockworkers with a single command, and she’s the most skilled midwife I’ve ever worked with.”

Dr. Fitzsimmons nodded, her face showing a certain skepticism. “She’s much younger than I expected. Your son is–what–fifteen? She must have been very young when you married her.” An implication hung in the air between them.

He slipped his hands into his pockets and regarded her calmly. “Shelagh’s not my first wife, Myra. Timothy’s mother died five years ago–cancer. We were adrift, Tim and I, and then … then Shelagh and I found each other. It was her idea that we come here. She’s the force behind all this, Myra. She convinced me, the Mission Society–it was really quite tremendous. Every person on our team is here because of her efforts.”

“I am sorry, Patrick. I should never have said–I’m too used to speaking my mind before I’ve let it do the thinking. I suppose I’ve grown too used to being lord of my own little fiefdom.” Turning, she began to walk towards the main building.

“You’ll see. Humility was never a cloak I wore well. If we weren’t in such straits, you’d still be back in London.”

 

An hour later, Patrick entered the dormitory. He peered down the long corridor, dim even in its whiteness. The only light came from the door behind him and a single window at the end. The limed walls were covered in planks of wood, the floor finished with the same whitewash, yet the dimness made the space feel cooler. A half dozen transomed doors marched down each side.

He considered calling out, but the quiet hinted that his new housemates were resting and would not welcome his interruption. Nor did he wish to knock on each door as he made his way down the hall. He smiled crookedly as his eyes caught a bright blue scarf tied to a doorknob near the entrance. Leave it to Shelagh to choose the room that gave him best access out for emergencies.

He quietly turned the knob, half hoping to find his wife napping. He loved watching her sleep, almost as much as he loved waking her. The thought of a quiet hour resting against her appealed. Instead of lying in repose, a calm beacon to his anxious soul, Shelagh stood near the single wardrobe, unpacking.

“Always busy,” he teased. He slid his jacket from his shoulders and hung it on a hook behind the door.

Shelagh grinned. “Always much to do.”

“The children?”

“They’re in the room next door. We’ve set up a little camp cot for Angela, but I’m afraid she’ll have to move in with us, Patrick. There’s a bit too much freedom for her over there.”

“Shelagh, we’ve only just gotten our room to ourselves.”

“I know, dearest, but Kholeka tells me they have no cots her size. Apparently children here sleep on the floor.”

His eyebrow flew up.

“No, Patrick,” Shelagh scolded. “We are not making our child sleep on the wooden floor where who knows what manner of creepy crawlies wander about. Besides, what if she got the door open and wandered off somewhere?” She handed him his medical bag. “Here, put this on the desk.”

Outmaneuvered, he gave in and looked about the room. In addition to the broad wardrobe, there were few pieces of furniture in the room. A narrow chair partnered a wooden camp desk, and in the corner, a washstand served as a reminder that the plumbing facilities they could expect would be less than optimal. A large white iron bed stood out from the opposite wall, the space beneath it open and airy. A large mosquito net hung from above, offering the only softness in the room.

“Kholeka told me we would have to share this bed. They don’t have enough single beds for us all, apparently.” Shelagh finished hanging her uniform and gave it a tweak.  She closed the wardrobe and turned back to her husband.

“I think we’ll manage,” Patrick answered. He crossed the room and gathered his wife into his arms. He buried his face in her neck, and the two stood still for a long moment.

Shelagh pressed a kiss to his temple. “How is it?” she asked. “Is it what you expected?”

He pulled away and rubbed his hands over his face. “I’m not sure what I expected. The facilities are primitive, certainly. There’s electricity in the main building, but the generator is unreliable, and there’s no hot water. They have a room solely for boiling gallons of it throughout the day. The operating room would make Lister cringe. It’s surprisingly clean, though, and the ward is as efficient as any at the London.”

“Comes from Dr. Fitzsimmons’ years as a nurse, I daresay,” Shelagh teased.

A laugh escaped him. “Undoubtedly.” he grew serious again. “Myra’s the only doctor, though she has a staff of locals that handle much of the care. I’m not certain, but I think one or two of them are working as de facto doctors, simple procedures and the like. The Mission covers ten square miles, most of it without proper roads, so they’ve learned to manage as best they can.”

He exhaled sharply. “We may have bitten off more than we can chew, my love. I hope to God we don’t choke.”

 

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Thank you again for sticking with me. I am very grateful for all the lovely comments.

This pic helped to inspire the character of Dr. Myra Fitzsimmons for me.

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A Mission of Hope, Chapter Five

BBN9PKA/N:  I’ve tried to be as accurate as possible with this chapter in order to explain some of the questions I have about how a team of nuns and medics from the poorest part of London could get to South Africa. (Hint: it involves a great deal of suspension of disbelief, a generous benefactor, two planes, a train and a bus, and two nights in hotels–What? you don’t think that’s realistic?? It’s AU, baby!!).

Also, I’ve introduced apartheid and Homelands in this chapter and have tried to do so in a correct historical context of early 1962. Any errors are innocently meant. There are links below that will offer clarity.

One last thing. Did you know that a group of giraffes has two different collective nouns? A group of standing giraffes is called a “tower,” while a group of running giraffes is called a “jenny.”

Sometimes I really love English.

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A battered train chugged through the pale yellow bushveld, lacking any of the urgency and determination of its European brethren. Miles distant, the blue shadows of the Great Escarpment jutted out from the veld, sequestering the Eastern Cape from the world. The sky glowed with a bright blue never seen in London, an enormous dome that refused admittance to any clouds.

It was as if God had used an entirely different palette of colors when He created this part of the world. Yellow and blue shimmered here in a way never seen on the sunniest day in England, challenging the eye to see more than it could. Green was deeper, darker and more mysterious than the pale greens of the English oak.  Even the greys were different from London greys.  

Within the first class carriage, Shelagh watched the scenery pass unchanged for miles. The pale gold of the mid-summer grasses was dotted with clumps of bushes and the occasional sinewy tree. The heat of the midday sun forced animals into shady spots, unseen from the train. In all, the effect was hypnotizing.

Shelagh shook herself from her quiet and stretched lightly. In the bench across from her, Angela lay curled up on Patrick’s lap, the two lulled to sleep by the gentle motion of the train. Shelagh smiled as she watched them breathe in tandem, Angela gently sucking her thumb as her father snored.

Not all of the passengers slept in the compartment. Sisters Julienne and Winifred both read from their Bibles. A catch-as-catch-can sort of schedule had been adopted for their daily offices, but both nuns were used to irregular schedules. Fred sat at an end of the car, a game of Solitaire spread out on the seat next to him. Trixie and Barbara sat across from Tom Hereward, a curious sort of trio. Timothy and Phyllis Crane sat in the first row of seats, eyes out the window as they catalogued everything they could see.

Shelagh rose and began to pace along the length of the car.  No other passengers had joined them in this car since they had left the port city of East London, despite the activity at each stop. She paused for a moment to observe Fred’s game, then tapped a card. He glanced up, then sheepishly shifted a stack. A moment with the sisters, another quiet conversation with the nurses, and she took a seat with her son.

“It’s hard to believe we were having tea in Nonnatus house only three days ago,” remarked Nurse Crane over the sound of the engine.

“It would have been much longer if we didn’t have the Missionary Society escorting us everywhere,” Timothy replied. Indeed, John Taylor had pulled enough strings to make the team from Poplar feel more like dignitaries than a travelling medical team. Missionary agents met the party each step of the way, paving over the arduous task of international travel.  Acclimating new missionaries was a top priority of the Christian Missionary Society. There were struggles enough ahead that could cause attrition, getting the help to Africa was the very least that could be done.

Connecting flights had been arranged between Heathrow, Nairobi and East London, South Africa, effectively  minimizing delays.  At each stop along the way, a different Society representative greeted them and handled arrangements for nightly accommodations, as evening travel was unreliable. After an early flight to East London, they were escorted to a small hotel near the sea for the night. Worn out from the travel, they were grateful for a day of rest before boarding a train to Alice, situated twelve miles south of the Hope Mission.

Shelagh stretched her back and looked at the stack of books between her son and the no-nonsense nurse. Over the past weeks, Timothy and Phyllis Crane had formed an unexpected bond. While the others spent the last month of preparation in accumulating and packing supplies for the mission, they gathered every book, travel brochure and periodical they could, resulting in a collection of knowledge fit for the British High Commission in Pretoria.  Timothy focussed on the flora and fauna of the region. Phyllis Crane was an expert in the unusual laws of the South African people.

“Though I suppose we’ll be spending most of our time in Ciskei, what they call a ‘homeland,’ and not ‘South Africa,’ to be precise,” Phyllis had informed the group at one of the gatherings before the departure. There was so much to organize in such a short time that semi-weekly meetings had been deemed necessary. Nonnatus House became a sort of home base for these meetings and  a temporary center for the donations and medical supplies they would bring to Africa.

Patrick had looked up from the large box of medical syringes on the dining room table. “What do you mean, not ‘South Africa’?”

“Just, that, doctor. Officially, we are not going to be working in South Africa. Last year, the government of South Africa created specific areas within the nation with the express purpose of settling blacks within those borders. They’re technically independent.” She walked over to the map she had requisitioned from the Mission Society. “Hope Mission is located here,” using her pen she pointed to a small area of the canvas. A rough outline had been marked in ink on the outdated map. “Just within the eastern border of Ciskei.”

“The government forced people to leave their homes and settle somewhere else?” Trixie’s voice showed her outrage.

“Yes.” Phyllis capped her pen and faced the group.

“But why would they move people in the first place?” Patrick abandoned the syringes. “Why would they go to the effort of moving such a large number of people from their homes? It doesn’t make sense.”

Phyllis sighed, and folded her glasses back up, slipping them into her uniform pocket. “It seems the official stance on the subject is to grant a sort of autonomy for the Blacks. The argument is that by keeping language groups together, with similar traditions, they will be able to govern themselves.  However, from what I can determine, there’s a much darker reason, I’m afraid.”

“How do you mean?” Patrick questioned. By now, the attention of everyone in the room had shifted to Phyllis.

“South Africa has a rather difficult history, as you know. The apartheid system,” she glanced around the room and saw the nods of understanding–everyone had done their homework it seemed— “has been in effect in fact if not official doctrine for a very long time. From what I can gather, the resettlement has more to do with sequestering the Blacks away from the Whites than granting independence. Technically, these four regions are independent, and not the responsibility of the South African government. By pretending these regions are no longer part of the official nation, the government can justify eliminating the few remaining political rights Blacks have within South Africa. Not to mention, if they can claim the homelands are not South African territory, the government has no reason to financially support the regions whatsoever.”

“That would explain why Dr. Fitzsimmons sent out the call for help,” mused Patrick. “A growing population and diminishing resources. We’re all too familiar with that set of problems.”

Phyllis looked about the room once more. “Doctor Turner is correct, I’m afraid. The problems of the Hope Mission are likely to be similar to problems we have encountered in Poplar, but I’m afraid that the scale will be on a level none of us have ever seen.”

Less than a day after their arrival in South Africa, the rightness of Nurse Crane’s words was becoming apparent. Signs hung above doors to businesses, hotels and even train carriages directing people along racial lines. Their train compartment was empty but for their party, as few whites were travelling, but the three cars in the rear were near overflowing. And while the medical team from Poplar enjoyed comfortable cushions and a clean car, the cars set aside for the Non-Whites were crowded and uncomfortable. Segregated by the invisible fence of custom and law, the tension here was certainly greater than back home.

Timothy glanced back at his sleeping father and sister. “Dad’s snoring.” he mocked. “He always snores when he sleeps sitting up. I don’t know how Angela can always nap on his lap with that noise.”

Shelagh grimaced. “Timothy, be nice. Your father works very hard. And I think your sister is delighted to spend time with him any way she can.” She poked his shoulder and teased, “Just for that, Mr. Always, you’re on Angela duty when she wakes.”

“I’d mind your mother, Timothy,” Phyllis nudged. “I recall you were none to happy to be following your sister up and down the aisle on that aeroplane to Nairobi. My, that girl does have energy!”

Shelagh stood. “I’d better get back in case she does wake. Timothy, I have the last few biscuits if you’re hungry.”

“I’m always hungry,” he quipped.

The scenery outside her window had not varied since her walk, so Shelagh turned her attention to the sleeping pair before her. Angela’s skin was already pink from her afternoon at the ocean yesterday. Hopefully, she would be more willing to keep her dress on when there were no ocean waves to tempt her. One day in the surf and sand had convinced the little girl she should be a mermaid, and they were still finding contraband seashells in her pockets.

Patrick’s face had some color too, and in his sleep, the stress of the last months eased. The new  lightweight linen clothes suited him, his lean figure cool and elegant in the pale tan material. Of all the tasks she had completed in preparation for the journey, shopping for a warm weather wardrobe for her family had been her favorite. Shelagh sighed lightly, and her eyes traveled back up to her husband’s face.

His eyes were open, bright with a gleam meant for her alone. The slow smirk that crossed his face showed her he knew exactly what she was thinking, and he winked. In an instant, Shelagh’s dimple appeared and she shook her head at him coyly. She glanced about the carriage nervously, then seemed to make a decision. Her eyes on his, she slowly stretched across the space dividing them and skimmed his shin with her foot.

His eyes widened in surprise as he considered a response, but a snuffle from Angela broke the mood. “I’ll remember that later, my love” Patrick whispered.

“Angela,” Tim cried from his bench at the front of the car.

“Timothy,” Shelagh shushed him. She turned to see the members of their group standing to look out the train windows on one side of the carriage. “What on earth?”

“Giraffes! Wake Angela! She’ll want to see them!” Tim called over his shoulder.

Patrick carried his slowly rousing daughter to the wide window across the train. In the distance, marula trees bowed over the bush, their wide crowns of leaves creating pools of shade on the sun-baked land.

“Look, Angela! What do you see?” Like the others, Patrick’s voice was child-like with excitement.

“Raffe!” the little girl shouted. “Raffe!” She began to look about her frantically.

“Here you go, darling,” Shelagh cooed, holding out a small wooden giraffe in her palm.

Angela clutched the figurine in her chubby hand and gave it a noisy kiss. “Raffe, Dada. See?” She pointed her hand at the tower of giraffes lazily nibbling on the bulbous fruit hanging from the branches. Patrick lowered her to stand on the seat next to her brother. “Raffes eating!” Her happy squeal was infectious.

“Yes, Angel girl, the giraffes are eating. And do you know who knows more about giraffes than anyone on this train, sweetheart?” Patrick’s eyes widened in encouragement.

“Timofee!” Angela cheered. None but Timothy would do, now, and the boy pretended a groan.

Fred hunkered down on the next bench and adjusted the window to keep the excited two-year old within the train. “Well, little miss, I gotta tell ya. This sure ain’t Poplar.”

 


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Here are some links to sites that may make this all make a bit more sense:

Photo: The Great Escarpment and the Bushveld

Map: South Africa

East London beach

South African Homelands

 

A Mission of Hope, Chapter Two

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The high street teemed with shoppers, mostly women trying to get Christmas shopping done in the few hours left before school let out that day. They moved with the efficiency of a person with too much to do and too little time to do it. Shelagh nodded her head in greeting as she passed friendly faces, grateful no one seemed set on little visits. She had two hours to complete her task and get Angela back to Mrs. Penney before clinic began.

They crossed the street when the scent of baked goods made Shelagh stop. “Oh, Angela!” she cried, “I’ve forgotten the biscuits I meant to bring today.” It was no wonder. Things were already busy at it was. She was mad to even try this.

Angela’s ears perked up at her favorite word. “Bizkit!” She cheered. Shelagh’s brow wrinkled in frustration and she scanned the area. “Oh, alright, we’ll stop and bring some apple fritters with us to Freddy’s house, shall we?” Angela clapped her hands in excitement.

“Got some luvley fritters here, Missus, fresh from me oven,” a voice called. Shelagh turned to see an apron-clad man beside a heavy cart laden with baked goods. He snapped a brown paper bag open. From the look of him, he clearly appreciated the quality of his baked goods. “How many’ll do ya?”

“Half a dozen, please.” Peter Noakes might like one or two as well.

“How ‘bout one fer the li’l princess? This itty bitty one’s not so hot.” The vendor took one from the tray and handed it to Angela. “Sweet fer the sweet, I always say.” He grinned at Shelagh, an appreciative glint in his eye. “One fer her mother, too, eh?”

Shelagh shot a look at the hefty man. “Cheek!” She paid for the pastries and turned the push chair in the direction of the Noakes family’s home.

“Yer husband’s a lucky man, Missus!”

Ordinarily, the baker’s innocent flirting would have cheered her, but for days the letter from South Africa weighed on her mind. Patrick was oddly disinterested, and their discussion that night left Shelagh feeling that there was a larger problem at hand.

“I haven’t heard from Myra in years,” he had said after she finished reading the long letter. “I wonder why she thought to reach out to me? It’s not as if I have the power or connections she needs–or even the skills, for that matter! She’d be better off contacting Jim Pearson, he’s chief of staff at the Liverpool now, or Herbert Crenshaw even. He’s still teaching at St. Thomas’s.” He got up from the sofa and paced the room, his hands threading through his hair. “They’re more likely to be able to send aid.”

Shelagh watched as he opened the case of files he had taken to bringing home each evening. He was nearly finished with a second review, each night searching for connections between patients that had been prescribed Distaval. The late nights were beginning to show on his face.

“Perhaps she thought a general practitioner in the poorest district in London might have some understanding of how to manage in less than ideal surroundings.” Shelagh tried to keep the worry from her voice. While Patrick’s self-confidence had suffered, she was most concerned that he found less fulfillment in his work of late, and less a sense of his own worth.  “Really, Patrick, I should think you’re much more qualified than most. Your ambitions run to helping those most in need of help, not your own advancement.”

He hadn’t turned back to her then, as she had expected. They had a way of accepting compliments from each other, usually with a smile and a wink, but Patrick had ignored her. “I’ll have to answer her of course,” he said, “but I can’t see how we can help. We’ve got enough on our plate here as it is.”

The conversation ended with that, but for the last two days, Shelagh had not been able to forget it. Patrick was right. Things here in Poplar were busy enough as it is, they couldn’t possibly find a way to help, and the thought of Patrick going away for a so long was too much to bear.

Yet the idea kept niggling at the back of her mind. What if, by some miracle, they could do something? What if all the bureaucratic potholes and ordinary realities were all taken care of? There was something in his eyes when he read the letter to her, a gleam of hope she hadn’t seen for weeks.

The effects of the thalidomide scandal weighed heavily upon Patrick’s shoulders, she knew, and he felt the blame sorely. Patrick was more than a doctor. He was a healer and felt a deep connection and responsibility for his patients. It was one of the things she loved the most about him.

It was also the thing that worried her most. Baby Susan Mullucks was always there in his mind, a permanent reminder of his unintentional mistake. While he was able to push through the anguish that caused and continue with his practice, Patrick’s conviction was shaken. Perhaps a trip to Dr. Fitzsimmons’ mission what just what he needed to get it back.

They stopped at the Noakes’ door and Shelagh took a deep breath. “Well, Angela, nothing ever started by staying.” She knocked on the door.

 

The reception room of the Christian Missionary Society was as dark and imposing as any building Shelagh had ever been in. Walnut paneling covered the walls, rich with the patina of years, it had the imposing effect of making her feel quite insignificant. If it weren’t for the tall woman beside her, she wasn’t completely certain she wouldn’t turn tail and head back to Poplar.

“No need to be nervous, Shelagh. Johnny’s quite a grand chap, really.” Chummy assured her.

“Yes, but Chummy, when you said you had a friend here at the Society that could help, I had no idea you meant the Africa Secretary! He must be dreadfully busy. I hate to waste his time.” Shelagh fretted with the handle of her handbag. 

“Oh, Johnny’s never too busy, you’ll see. My brother used to say he’s never known a fellow to be more energetic about more things!”

The large door opened, and a tall, thin man came out. His eyes immediately fell on the two women.
“Chummy! It’s been too long! You told me you’d bring that boy of yours by again. It’s been so long since I’ve seen him he must be ready for Trinity by now!” The stern words were countered by a twinkle in his eye.

“Not quite, though I will say for a three-year-old boy, he’s quite advanced. We have hopes he’ll be Prime Minister one day!”

Mr. Taylor leaned in conspiratorially. “As long as he sends funds to the Mission Society, he’ll get my vote. Least I could do for the nephew of the man that dived into a rugger scrum to save me from the Oxford Huns.”

Shelagh watched the two with guarded eyes. The two obviously had a long history together and spoke a sort of upper-class parlance that set them apart. This man, as much of the ruling class as Lady Browne, seemed to be more comfortable in it, and less concerned with the dignity of station. Perhaps Chummy was right to bring her here.

“Oh,” Chummy cried. “Where on earth are my manners? Mr. John Taylor, may I present Mrs. Patrick Turner.”

With two sets of eyes turned on her, Shelagh felt her confidence falter. What had started out as a simple inquiry was quickly getting out of hand. She reached deep and put on her best Sister Bernadette face.

“How do you do, Mr. Taylor. I’m very grateful you’ve agreed to meet with us. I hope we’re not interrupting your busy schedule.”

“No, no. I’m delighted to make your acquaintance, Mrs. Turner. Indeed, I am thrilled! Chummy’s told me about your request, and I must say, it’s gotten my mind in a whirl!”He gestured towards his office. “Come, let’s sit and have a bit of a chat, shall we? Mrs. Mugworth, if you could call down for a tea tray, please?”

Seeing them settled on the leather sofa, he took a seat in a wing chair.

“Your request couldn’t come at a better time, Mrs. Turner. Things have changed a great deal in South Africa in the last year, and the Christian Mission Society no longer has a presence in the area. This could be precisely the opportunity we’ve been looking for.”

He leaned forward. “I’ve taken the opportunity to look into this Hope Mission, and it does seem to be on the brink of closure. Independent missions are shutting down all over Africa, I’m afraid, and without any assistance from the South African government, I’m afraid your friend’s hospital won’t survive beyond the summer.

“Here’s where we can come in. Thanks to a rather large donation year, we have the funds to keep Hope Mission running. The trouble is, we’re strapped for manpower. There’s no way we can get our people out there in time to make a difference. What we need is an advance team that can go out there and do the dirty work, as it were. A group of about a dozen or so people that can bring in supplies, start an education program, perhaps even do something about the water problem. You have no idea how difficult the water problem can be in these places.”

“I can assure you, Johnny, we’re quite aware of the dilemma caused by poor water and sewage in Poplar,” Chummy interrupted. “Even with the new council flats, we still have people living without running water in some quarters!”

The excitement dimmed from his eyes for a moment. “Yes, you’re quite right, Chummy. Our own government has been moving a bit too slowly to care for British poor. There are problems enough no matter where you go, I suppose.”

“Mr. Taylor, might I ask how likely any of this is to happen?” Shelagh could feel a spark of an idea start to form in her mind.

“Oh, I’d say if we could get a team formed quickly, we could have the team out there before February.”

“February!”

He nodded. “Yes, if this is to work, it needs to happen immediately. Hope Mission is barely hanging on as it is. Much more strain and it will go under completely. And let me say, Mrs. Turner, it’s much simpler to improve something we already have than to start from scratch.”


Author Notes

John Vernon Taylor, Bishop of Winchester, served as the Africa Secretary for the Christian Mission Society in the 1960’s. He was a Cambridge Man, and could very possibly have gone to school with Chummy’s older brother. His obituary is here. I’ve tried to fit my John Taylor into this mold.

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A Mission of Hope, Chapter One

I’ve decided to jump into the world of AU, and write about something that’s not canon. This fic has nothing to do with what’s likely to happen in Series 6 of Call the Midwife, and is more an exercise in combining my love of the characters, history and movies.

I will play with timelines, use some dramatic license with locations, and test the laws of physics. Well, I’ll avoid physics, but I might test your sense of disbelief. My main goal is to explore and understand some well-loved characters. As always, these characters do not belong to me, but I am grateful for all they have taught me.

Forgive me my self -indulgence.

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Chapter One

In the weeks since the thalidomide scandal broke out, a strange melancholy had come over the Kenilworth Row Maternity Home and its staff. While no new babies had been born afflicted by the ravages of the cruel drug, every day brought with it the worry that today, another would appear. Even the start of the holiday season did little to dissipate the grim mood.

The drug had been officially banned in the United Kingdom, and calls came up through the medical profession demanding new standards in pharmaceutical testing. If there was any good that could come from this terrible chapter, it would be stronger regulations to prevent such a tragedy from ever occurring again. But that was little comfort to mothers like Rhoda Mullocks.

Patrick Turner stepped from his car, turning the key to lock the door and headed up the stone steps from street level to the flat’s entrance. To keep the spirit of Christmas up for the children, Shelagh had insisted they decorate for the holiday. Today, she had hung a wreath on the door. He did appreciate all Shelagh was doing to maintain some sense of normal, even if he found it hard to assist. He would have to make a greater effort. He swallowed heavily and entered the flat.

The sounds of carols on the radio greeted him as he hung his coat in the hall, the scent of mince pies filling the air. He suspected the early baking was more to keep his wife’s mind occupied that a desire to stock up on holiday pastry. More than anyone else, Shelagh understood his sense of guilt and even felt a sense of her own culpability. Both knew they had acted in the best interests of their patients, that there had been no malpractice, but the knowledge that is was their misplaced trust in modern medicine made it all the harder to continue caring for the poor of Poplar. He pushed forward and went to meet his family.

Timothy sat in an armchair, his Biology text balanced on his knees as he copied a diagram. He didn’t look completely happy about his position, having been ejected from his preferred spot at the table. The boy had a desk in his room but preferred to sit with his mother and sister as he worked on his studies. Patrick wondered how the boy could get anything done now that Angela refused to stay within the confines of her play yard. She seemed to take great delight from piling her toys on her brother as he worked.

Shelagh looked up from the washing she was folding. “Hello, dear,” she greeted him, raising her cheek for his light kiss.

“Dad, there’s a letter for you postmarked from South Africa!” Tim announced.

“South Africa?” he wondered, his brow furrowing.

Before he could give the letter any more attention, he felt a tug on his trouser leg and looked down to see two-year-old Angela’s  bright eyes and saucy smile. Pushing aside the sting of guilt he felt each time he pushed away his burdens, he crouched down to her level. “Hello, Miss Angela. It’s a pleasure to see you.” He picked up her soft hand, lifted it to his lips and was rewarded with the same shy smile of delight he so often saw play across his wife’s face.

Wrapping his daughter in his arms, he stood. “What’s that about a letter, Tim?’ he asked. His eyes squinted as Angela patted his cheeks.

“It’s got a stamp from South Africa. Who do you know from there?” Tim asked. He handed the letter up, avoiding his sister’s inquisitive fingers.

Patrick turned the letter over in his hands. “Hope Mission,” he read aloud. “M. Fitzsimmons.” He thought for a moment, remembering. “We went to medical school together. She went down there sometime after the war, I think. I wonder what she has to say to me?”

“There was a woman in your medical school class, Dad?” Tim was amazed.

“Women can become doctors, Timothy,” Shelagh admonished from beyond the kitchen hatch.

“They can now, Mum. But Dad went to school so long ago, I didn’t think it was possible.”

“Mind your cheek, Tim, “ Patrick warned, his grin hidden by Angela’s hands. “There were three in my class when we started, I’ll have you know.” He caught his son’s eyes, halting any further response. “And no, it wasn’t so long ago that one of them was named ‘Eve.’”

“Can the letter wait a bit longer, dearest? Dinner’s just ready.” Shelagh carried in a bowl of roasted sprouts.

Patrick placed the letter on the mantle. “I suppose it won’t hurt to wait until later. I’m famished.”

 

Evenings were the easiest time to forget about the troubles within the practice, when self-reproach gave way to love. There was a tacit agreement to put the focus on family for the few hours they had before the children went to bed. The lively chatter of a bright young man and the happy little girl kept the mood light and made preparations for the holiday possible.

Patrick stood in doorway of the bath and watched as Shelagh gave Angela’s hair a final rinse. The little girl sputtered and squealed with laughter.

“She’ll turn into a mermaid one day,” he laughed. He opened the towel and put out his arms, scooping up the slippery child. “I’ll dress her tonight.”

He passed by Tim’s room on the way to the nursery. “Ready for the Biology exam tomorrow, Tim?”

“I think so. I’m fairly certain I know my all the enzymes.”

Patrick shifted the wiggly girl on his hip. “Enzymes aren’t all that hard, Tim. Just remember to break it down.”

Timothy rolled his eyes at the terrible pun. “Can I have the stamp when you’ve finished your letter?”

“Right. I nearly forgot.”

Shelagh joined them in the hallway. “You go read your letter, Patrick. I’ll get Angela to sleep tonight,” she suggested.

With a kiss on Angela’s little nose and a quick one on his wife’s cheek, Patrick left his family to settle in for the night.

 

He sat staring into space, absently tapping the letter against his chin when Shelagh returned.

“Good news, I hope,” she said as she settled on the couch next to him. Her hand slid around his arm, finding his hand. They’d have one last cup of tea and set to wrapping gifts.

He sat up a bit and put the letter on her lap. “Interesting news, anyway. Myra Fitzsimmons was always…she’s an unusual person. She wasn’t the only woman in our class, but she was the most ambitious, maybe more ambitious than any of us. She was older and had years of medical training before she came to school–she lied about her age to be accepted as a nurse in the First World War, then went on to serve in Liverpool Hospital for another ten years or so.” He laughed softly. “I don’t suppose she relished the idea of listening to anyone, much less a man, so she left nursing and joined our class. Some of the old instructors were pretty rough on her, but she held firm. I think she was the only one to never faint in anatomy class!”

Shelagh lifted the letter to exaine it more closely. “It must have been difficult for her. In my experience, most doctors can be …condescending… when treating women as patients. In the classroom, they must’ve been insufferable!”

Patrick turned to her in mock outrage.

“Present company excepted, dearest.” She pressed her cheek against his shoulder. “Were you friends?”

“Not friends, exactly. Myra Fitzsimmons didn’t make friends easily, but she was an excellent lab partner. No nonsense, and the quickest diagnostician I ever knew. She signed up with the RAMC during the World War II and got stationed in Cape Town, and decided to stay.”

“So why did she write you? Is she coming back to England? We could use someone like her here in Poplar.” Shelagh stifled a yawn.

“Actually, no. She runs a mission on the East Cape, and it looks like they’re in trouble.” He turned to face Shelagh. “She wants us to go down there.”


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A Perfect Fit

Definitely time for some steam. Probably about three kettles, I’d say.


 

Shelagh Turner woke slowly, the sound of her new husband’s breathing in her ear. She smiled. His arm lay heavy across her waist, pinning her to him. Barely a week married, she was growing used to his warm body close as she slept.

The early light was already streaming through the net curtains. They had forgotten to draw the drapes closed last night. Shelagh blushed, remembering why, and was grateful they had at least remembered the lock on the door.

“Good morning,” Patrick whispered in her ear.

Shelagh turned her head to see his face close to hers. Before she had a chance to respond, he kissed her, his mouth sleepy and tender. She could feel her body start to awaken.

Pushing away, she sat up, struggling to keep the bedclothes against her body.

“What are you doing?” Her husband asked, leaning back against his pillows.

Shelagh twisted to the edge of the bed, looking over its side. “I’m trying to find my dressing gown.” Her voice was flustered.

Patrick grinned, tugging at the sheet she held so tightly. “You don’t need a dressing gown now. Tim won’t be up for at least an hour.”

“Yes, well now I’m up, I’m up. Best start the day.”

“That’s not the best way to start the day,” Patrick reached around and brought her back next to him, peeling layers of her cocoon from her.

Shelagh felt his hand move over her skin. Surely he didn’t expect anything to happen between them now. It was morning, for goodness sake. “Patrick, don’t be ridiculous. We can’t do that.”

His face pressed against her throat, and Patrick smiled. Without looking up, he could tell she was blushing. He loved that he was learning the signals her body gave, signals she herself was still learning.

“Why not,” he murmured, his lips tasting her throat.

Patrick,” she scolded, her voice barely a whisper.

Shelagh,” his voice teased. He had found his way under the final layer of cotton.

Shelagh’s breath caught. “Patrick, it’s morning.” Clearly he must understand what she meant.

“So?”

Apparently he did not.

Embarrassment brought out her bossy side. “Patrick, you’re being ridiculous. You know perfectly well that you’ll have to wait until tonight.”

But Bossy Shelagh was not going to win so easily. Patrick lifted his face to hers and smiled lopsidedly. There was a spark in his eye, and he saw her respond, even as she tried to deny it. He kissed her again, this time not so sleepily, and perhaps not quite so tenderly as before. Shelagh’s body began to yield, but still her mind resisted.

She broke the kiss and said, “If you must,” -Patrick grinned at her shifting the emphasis on acceding to his needs-“you’ll have to close the drapes.”

Patrick’s head came up, his brows came down over his eyes, confused. “Whatever for?”

“Patrick,” again her voice was so quiet he could barely hear her. “The light.”

“What about it?”

“You’ll see.”

Understanding spread over his face. He tucked his finger under her chin, coaxing her to meet his eyes. “Yes,” he answered. “I’ll see my beautiful wife.”

Shelagh turned her face away, her cheeks blooming an even deeper pink. “Patrick…”

“Shelagh, you know I think you’re beautiful. You must. I’ve said it a thousand times.”

“Yes, you’re very kind, dearest.” Still, she would not  look at him.

Patrick lifted his body up on his elbow to better look at his wife. “Shelagh Turner, I am not being kind. Shelagh, look at me.”

Shelagh’s eyelashes fluttered as she tried to control her breathing. Biting her lower lip, she finally turned her face towards his.

“Shelagh, I think you’re so beautiful.” His eyes glittered, as they always did at times of high emotion.

Shelagh smiled, breathing deeply. She slipped her hand out from under the sheets and touched his lined cheek. “You’re very sweet, Patrick. It’s lovely to hear you say such things. But I’m not beautiful.”

He sat back, stunned.

“It’s all the sweeter to hear you say such things because you love me.” Shelagh’s fingers pushed at the fringe falling over his forehead.

“Shelagh, you really must be joking. You have to know how… Shelagh, you’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.”

Her voice changed. “Patrick, thank you, but that’s not so. I’ve been told my face is a bit pretty, but that’s because I have good skin and people think my eyes are unusual. I’m too small to be beautiful.”

Patrick’s eyebrows climbed up his forehead. “What on earth are you talking about? Too small?”

Shelagh took his hand in hers and placed them palm to palm, the tips of her fingers barely higher than his second knuckle. “Here. Look at my hand. Timothy‘s hand is bigger than mine. Everything about me is too small. Beautiful women are…well, they’re…womanly. Like Marilyn Monroe or-or- Jane Russell. I’m not at all like that type of woman.”

Patrick had learned a few things about women in his time and was beginning to see where the problem lay.

“And you think that a woman needs to be of…more generous proportions… to be beautiful?” His hand squeezed around hers.

“Patrick-” she stopped then, unable to voice her thought.

Patrick threaded his fingers with hers and held their hands up for her to see. “See?” he smiled, bringing the back of her hand to his lips. “They fit perfectly.” He slid his hand down past her waist to rest on her hip. “Shelagh, you may never have noticed how lovely you are, but the rest of the world has. God, Shelagh, your legs!” His hand slipped along the length of her thigh.

“Patrick, you’re not–my legs are too short!” She squirmed as his fingers caressed the smooth skin of the back of her knee.

“Don’t you dare tell me they’re too short, Shelagh, they’re lovely. When you wrap your legs around me it makes me wild.” He paused, nuzzling his face against her hair as he tried to calm his passion. The thought of her soft curves pressed against him inflamed him. One day, soon, he would feel her weight above him and watch her as they loved each other. Shelagh wasn’t quite ready to be quite so bold, but he had faith in his wife. He drew in a ragged breath. He needed to have her, and soon, but there was still one more thing.

He cupped her cheek and bent to kiss her, slowly and intimately. His hand trailed down her neck, gliding across the smooth skin. Shelagh opened herself to him, her tongue meeting his, lost to the sensation of closeness. She slid her arms around his neck, turning closer to his body. She was surprised when he parted his lips from hers, and protested. She moved to kiss him again when she felt his hand, warm and strong, on her breast. Patrick met her eyes and said, “See? They fit perfectly.”

The breath rushed into her lungs quickly, pushing her more firmly against his palm. He grinned as he watched her eyes flutter shut. She was engulfed in sensation, all concerns about the brightening dawn forgotten.

He gently caressed her breast, his thumb slowly stroking across her sensitive peak. “Your breasts, Shelagh. Your breasts are perfection. Those long months, when I thought I would never have your love, I fought myself. I wouldn’t let myself imagine–but at night, when I slept, I couldn’t stop. I dreamt all these things, but my dreams never came close. You are so much more than I ever dreamt, more than I deserve. So please don’t tell me you’re not beautiful, my love. Let me show you how very beautiful you are.”

 

Later, when time was closing in and the world outside their sanctuary would have to be faced, they lay together, trying to catch their breath. And if the sun was now streaming in through the curtains, and bedclothes were spilled over the edge of their bed, Shelagh did not notice. Her husband thought she was beautiful.

 

First Words

 

tumblr_nib2uu829A1sjv7x9o1_1280Another response to a prompt suggestion by Like-an-Officer-and-a-Sergeant over on Tumblr. I think the title speaks for itself.


 

Propped up against the pillows of the family’s gold sofa, Angela Turner was the center of attention. She was quite used to such treatment, for she was, after all, the most beautiful baby ever born (her father often told her so), not to mention brilliantly clever (big brother Timothy’s decree) and undeniably charming and captivating (that’s what Mummy said, anyway). Today, however, there was a new reason for her admirers to kneel at her feet.

Angela Turner, at the advanced age of five-and-a-half months, was learning to speak.

“Say ‘Mama,’ Angela darling,” her mother coaxed. Shelagh’s voice was gentle, and Angela turned towards it naturally. “Mama,” Shelagh repeated.

Angela’s eyes were enormous in her sweet face, and her smile revealed two tiny little white tooth buds in her bottom gum. She must have known its effect, for she brandished that smile at all and sundry. She watched her mother’s face, rapt with attention.

“Honestly, Patrick, she said it this very afternoon. It was as clear as a bell.” Shelagh bit her lip in bewilderment.

“She might have done, Shelagh, but you know as well as I that a child of this age isn’t really speaking. They’re simply practicing sounds. ‘Mama’ is an easy one to say. She could just as well be saying ‘dada.’”

Shelagh glanced up from under her lowered brow. “She did not simply repeat a sound, Patrick. Angela’s been babbling for weeks now, I know the difference. Today she looked at me and said “Mama.” Our daughter has said her first word.”Determined, Shelagh reached for the satin-bound baby book by her side and opened it.  

“What are you doing?’ Patrick demanded.

“I’m filling in her first word, of course.”

“Shelagh, you can’t. Angela hasn’t repeated it once this evening.”

With a sigh, Shelagh capped her pen and put the book down. “Very well, then. We’ll just have to show Daddy, won’t we Angel Girl?” She smiled softly at the child and began to repeat the word.

With a quick squeal, Angela began to laugh. Her lips opened and closed, mimicking the face her mother made, and then, it happened. “Mama!” the genius child cried.

Both parents laughed with her. “Patrick, she said it again!”

“Mama. Mama.Mama.” The word filled the sitting room.

After a few moments, Patrick glanced at Shelagh. “I’m still not convinced she’s saying this as a word, Shelagh. Try and see if she can use the word to identify you.”

“Patrick, she’s said my name a thousand times already. Of course, she knows.”

But Patrick would not give up. “Just a small experiment. To prove me wrong.”

That was a wise tactic. He knew no wife could resist the chance to prove her husband wrong.

“Alright, then.” Shelagh rolled her eyes and then knelt down in front of their daughter. “You’ll have to come kneel here as well, Patrick. No complaining. This is your experiment, not mine. Now Angela, darling where is Mama?”

The baby squealed, and cried, “Mama!” Her chubby arm reached for Shelagh’s face.

Trying unsuccessfully to hide the triumph on her face, Shelagh kissed the little hand  and moved to the table with the baby book.

Patrick, a bit crestfallen, decided that while ‘Dada’ may not have been the first word his daughter ever said, he was certain that it would be the second. And immediately.

“Angela sweetheart, say Dada. Dada.” The baby turned her curious eyes to his face and answered, “Mama.”

Now, if  Poor Patrick were in doctor-mode, he would have pointed out to his wife that the certainty of Mama being an actual word had just come under some doubt. But Patrick was not in doctor-mode, he was in full-fledged father-mode. Rather than listen to the sound of reason, he spent the better part of the next half hour repeating himself.

Shelagh watched from the kitchen as she finished the dinner preparations, and was the only one to greet Timothy when he returned from school.

“What’s that all about?” The boy asked, gesturing to his father and sister.

“Your father is upset Angela said her first word today, and he’s trying to make her say ‘Dada’ now.”

Timothy rolled his eyes. “I’m not sure either of you should be rushing to get her to talk, you know. All Angela has to do is look at either of you and she already has you both wrapped around her finger. Besides, once she starts talking, we’ll probably never get her to stop.”

Shelagh smiled sheepishly. “I’m sure I don’t know what you’re talking about, Timmy. Now go and get cleaned up, dinner will be ready in just two ticks.”

A cheer came from the sitting room.

“‘Dada!’ She said ‘Dada!’” Patrick exhaled, delighted.*

Timothy’s eyes rolled up to his eyebrows.”You two. When she learns to walk you’re going to be unbearable.”

 

*From a prompt by Like-an-Officer-and-a-Sergeant

 

A Small Price to Pay

“It was the last sunny day of that fateful fall.” A prompt from Like-An-Officer-and-a-Seargent helped get this little fic off the ground.


The air was crisp and clear as Timothy Turner ran through the streets towards home. His violin case banged against his knee in a way that would displease his music instructor, but the boy was undeterred. He wasn’t going to waste one more minute of this day away from home.

Dad would be waiting, Saturday surgery was surely over by now, and Shelagh would be there, too. They had promised him. Nothing would get in the way of their day together, Dad had promised. They would have lunch together, and then take the afternoon to explore the Cutty Sark. An entire day, just the three of them. Timothy picked up his pace.

He tore past Dad’s car, up the stone steps that led to the courtyard outside their flat, and came to a sudden halt outside the oversized door. He dropped the case on the ground and patted his pockets in search of his key. Finally, he was in and made his way through the maze of hallways to the flat, home in record time.

“Hello!” He called out as he hung his jacket up on the lowest hook. Shelagh’s coat was there next to his, her small green hat resting next to the phone.

Dad’s head poked around the corner from the kitchen, his eyes surprised. “Tim! You’re home early!” He disappeared for a moment, then stepped into the hall. “How was your lesson?”

Suspicious, Tim stepped around his father and searching for the source of the strangeness. Entering the kitchen, he saw Shelagh by the stove, her back to him. When she turned to greet him,  her cheeks were a bright pink.

“Shelagh? Are you ill?” He knew Shelagh’s health was still delicate, and while part of him was concerned, another more boyish part was disappointed. What if she had to go home? Their day would be ruined.

“No,” she answered. “Do I look ill?” Her voice was cheery, but she couldn’t quite meet his eyes.

“Not precisely, but you do look rather flushed.” He glanced at his father. “Doesn’t she look flushed, Dad?”

“Shelagh’s fine, Tim. Now go and put your violin away and clean up for lunch. We want to leave soon, don’t we?”

Distracted by the thought of the day trip, Tim grinned and turned back to his violin. As he passed back by the kitchen door, he heard Shelagh’s soft voice.  “Patrick, not now,” she giggled.

Timothy paused in the hallway, his eyes wide. He shook his head as if to clear an unwelcome thought, and entered his room. No, he thought to himself. It couldn’t be.  All week, Jack had teased him about his father getting engaged. Jack had older sisters, one already married with a baby on the way, so he thought himself quite the expert on “the birds and the bees,” as the older boy called it. Worried, Timothy reminded himself that for all his friend’s bravado, he usually knew as little as everyone else in the play yard. Whatever Jack said, his father and Shelagh would not do any “mushy stuff.” The thought was ridiculous.

By the time he returned to the kitchen, lunch was laid out, and Dad and Shelagh sat across from each other at the small table. The alarming shade of pink had faded from her cheeks, too, thank goodness. They would have their day, after all.

 

“It’s such a lovely day, I thought we’d walk to the ferry today,” Patrick announced as he helped Shelagh on with her coat.

Tim agreed readily. If they didn’t have the car, Dad wouldn’t have his medical bag with him.  No medical bag meant Dad was Dad, and not Dr. Turner.

“Oh, I nearly forgot,” Dad said, pulling a slip of fabric from his pocket. He unfolded it and held out a bright blue scarf for Shelagh’s inspection. “It’ll be chilly out there today, you should have this.”

Again, Shelagh’s cheeks bloomed a pale pink, sending off a bell in Timothy’s head. “Patrick, you shouldn’t. I’m quite fine as I am.”

“No,” Dad’s voice was gentle. “I should, Shelagh. I like buying you pretty things, Shelagh. I found it in the stalls near the market square this morning, and you do need a scarf. Please?”

For a fleeting moment, Timothy got the sense that neither knew he was there. It was strange, really, and he was reminded of that day they found Shelagh on the misty road. Was this what Jack meant?

Before he could consider that thought further, his Dad looked over at him. “Ready, Tim?”

Timothy rolled his eyes. “I’ve been ready, Dad. I was waiting for you two to stop staring at each other.” He led the way down the hall. “Really, you two do that a lot. It’s a bit weird.”

 

The ferry crossing was chilly, Tim admitted, but not so cold Dad needed to stand so close to Shelagh the whole ride.

“I’m blocking the wind, Tim,” his dad explained.

Later, as they strolled along the quay, Dad tucked Shelagh’s hand into the crook of his elbow. “The quay could be slippery.”

And when they climbed the ladders to visit the ship, Dad put his hands around her waist and lifted her down. “Always help a lady down the steps, Tim,” his father instructed. “It’s the chivalrous thing to do.”

Timothy wasn’t so sure so much chivalry was in order, especially when he came around a masthead to find them standing side by side, Dad’s arm around Shelagh’s shoulder. They were talking quietly as they looked out over the river, oblivious to the crowds.

He was willing to let such odd behavior slide, however. Dad answered all of his questions and seemed to have a boundless patience for all the exploring Timothy wanted to do. Shelagh laughed at his jokes and knew exactly when to offer him a few biscuits from her handbag  later in the day. Sitting in the Lyons tea house that evening, his belly full but willing to try one more cream cake, he couldn’t remember a better day. Not in a long, long time.

 

The trio strolled through the streets on the way home, happy and tired. Unsurprisingly, Dad and Shelagh walked arm in arm again, and Timothy wished for just a moment that he was small enough to fit between them, his hands in each of theirs. But he wasn’t little anymore.

They came to Shelagh’s corner first. Tim tried to keep the disapppointment from his voice.  “You’re going home now?”

Shelagh looked shyly at him, but before she could speak, Dad interrupted. “Come home with us, Shelagh, just a little longer. I’ll drive you home before the door gets locked.”

“Please, Shelagh?” Timothy added. “I could show you how to make those paper boats I was talking about.”

“If you’re certain,” she faltered.

“I am completely certain,” the boy asserted. Her eyes lit up with a secret thought, then met Dad’s for a moment.

“Well, then,”she tucked her arm in Dad’s elbow and reached out her hand. Timothy took it, and hand in hand, the three continued home.

 

Much past his bedtime, Timothy lay awake in his bed, happy with his thoughts. He glanced at the proud paper boat on his desk, ready for its maiden launch if the weather held. A good part of the evening had been spent trying to perfect the craft, with Shelagh tending to two papercuts on his fingers and Dad helping him learn to perfect the crease. All in all, a fine end to a fine day.

He grimaced. At least, it was mostly a fine evening. Now he had cause to worry that perhaps Jack was right after all. Saturday night was bath night, and though he tried to finish as quickly as possible, it seemed to take ages of time. Finally clean, combed and clothed, he returned to the sitting room, eager to spend a bit more time together before Dad took Shelagh back to the boarding house.

What he saw when he entered the room, however, made him stop in his tracks. He had left them straightening up the clutter of paper and tea cups and expected the room to be back in order when he returned. To the poor boy’s disgust, however, he found half-folded boats and crumpled paper scattered on the floor and worse yet, Dad and Shelagh…

They jumped apart, but there was no denying the fact that

They

Were

Kissing.

And not just a peck on the cheek, like he gave Granny Parker when they went for a visit. Dad– his father–was caught in a clinch with Shelagh that would make Jack’s sister blush. A full-on, arms hugging, head tilting, really-lasting-far-too-long kiss.

And Timothy was glad.

There, he had to admit it. He was glad his Dad was kissing Shelagh. Oh, he didn’t want to see it–that was revolting–but he knew that when Dad kissed Shelagh, they were happy. The kind of happy that Timothy had felt all day today.

Dad and Shelagh were going to get married, and everything would be different. Sure, there might be some of the beastly “mushy stuff” to deal with, but it seemed a small price to pay for having a happy family. And to be completely honest, Timothy admitted, it wasn’t so terrible.  Just as long as he didn’t have to see any of it. There were limits, after all.