God Loves a Trier: Nonnatun Hiatus Challenge: Countdown to Six Months

As we count down to the six-month mark until the CtM Christmas Special, we’ve come up with a new challenge: create something featuring a character you don’t like, or simply don’t know very well.

I’ve chosen to focus on Peter Noakes for this one, and I’m glad I did. Peter is an interesting character. He’s not perfect (perhaps a little officious when on duty), but he loves his wife. They make an excellent team. I think I may write another one, actually.

I have to give a little shout-out to EleanorKate over at fanfiction.net for giving me a little push to think outside my box.


Peter left the police station, tired and dissatisfied. Yet again, his day had thrown him in the path of the very person he hoped to avoid. It was just like the contrary Sister Monica Joan to create a diversion that would require his presence at Nonnatus House.

He struggled to keep his mind from straying into dangerous topics, and set his mind to a sure cure. Winding through the narrow streets of Wapping, he decided it would be best to . A quick knock on the door to his parents house, and he let himself in.

Arthur and Millicent Noakes, each cozy in their favorite chair, looked up in surprise. Before Peter had started seeing his lady friend, it was not unusual for their son to spend an evening or two a week with his parents. In the last weeks, however, those visits had all but ended.

“Fancy a pint then, Dad?”


The noise of the pub prevented all but the most superficial of chat. Peter was grateful for the crowd of dart players in the corner. Deciding to tell his father his news was easier than actually doing so.

They watched as the throwers cheered on one of their own as he threw dart after dart. Every one missed the mark widely, but the determined man took on more bets as he continued the attempt. Fifteen darts and two rounds of drinks in, and the man was still hadn’t hit the board once.

“God loves a trier,” chuckled the elder Noakes.

Peter didn’t respond. Finally, the elder Noakes began. “You haven’t mentioned Camilla, son. Your mother thought perhaps you could bring her over again for tea.” He winked. “We’ll leave the dog outside this time.”

Peter raised his glass and drained it. “How ‘bout another one?” he asked.

“If you’re buying…” the older man held up his own glass and gestured to the barman.

Peter turned away, his eyes on the drunken dart players. “She’s chucked me over,” he said baldly.

“Ah, no.” Arthur shook his head. “I’m sorry, Peter. I thought…we thought that maybe this one was special.”

Peter’s face tightened, his jaw working tensely. Finally, he said, “She was–she is special. I know she cares for me, but she can only see herself… Her mother’s in town.”

“All the way from India?” Comprehension passed over the old man’s face.

“Majorca, actually. They’ve left India for a few years now.”

“Very posh, is she then?”

Peter nodded. “A right Empress of the Empire, Dad. She swans in once a year, stalks through Norman Hartnell’s and turns Camilla’s life upside down.”

“Who’s Norman Hartnell?” The barman placed two more pints before them.

Shaking his head, Peter answered, “Don’t ask. Apparently, Lady Fortescue-Cholmeley-Browne does not approve on Camilla’s life choices, and when the command comes from on high, Chummy falls right in line.” His voice was hard. He never called her by that family nickname, but just now it seemed entirely appropriate.

“As I understand it, Lady Browne has never approved of anything her daughter’s done, and of course she gives in every time. I thought this time it’d be different. Ca–she loves being a midwife, I’m certain of it. And she’s grown to feel so comfortable in the East End. I can’t understand how she’s so willing to just throw it all over just to please that domineering old-” he stopped himself.

He drained his second glass and turned away. “So, long story short, I will not be bringing any girls home for tea in the foreseeable future. I’d appreciate it if you told Mum.”

Arthur nodded. “None will speak of it, son.”

“Thanks, Dad.” Peter swirled the dregs of his lager in the bottom of his glass. “I thought she was the one, you know? We’re right together. I love her, I’d go to the ends of the earth for that woman, Dad. But if she can’t see her own way through, how could I expect us to work out?”


Two nights later, Peter worked a quiet night at the station desk, the bitter words repeating in his mind. There were so many differences in their pasts, he wondered how it had been even possible for anything to start between them. Yet somehow, love had bloomed.

Not love, Peter scoffed. It couldn’t have been love if she could walked away from him so easily. Lady Browne had provided her with a convenient excuse to reject him. Self-loathing and fear had withered her pride. The woman he had loved didn’t exist anymore, if she truly ever had.

The station door banged open, bring his eyes up. Before him stood the focus of his thoughts, flustered and frazzled, but glowing. He had fallen for that glowing face before.

He braced himself against the wave of pain that came every time he saw her, and was glad of the counter between them.

She began to speak, but he could not, or would not, hear. He knew what she was about to say. Her posture, her low voice, even her words of exaggerated flaws and self-blame, told him she  would be leaving Poplar.

Unwillingly, his eyes met hers and in that moment he knew. Camilla Browne stood tall and sure, ready to take on the world.

She would see her way through.

Camilla was a trier, God love her.

The Christmas Shoe Fairy

 

The last clinic before Christmas was finally over, the chaos of anxious mothers and over-excited children replaced with the quiet of a tired staff refreshing themselves with one last cup of tea before they ventured back out into the cold.

“I do love a bit of snow for Christmas,” Trixie Franklin announced as she stared out the window. Then she giggled and added, “Though I must admit I’m quite ready for winter to be over by New Year’s!”

Turning away from the window she asked, “I do hope you’ve bought a snowsuit for Angela, Shelagh. I saw one in the window at Reed’s the other day, and she’d look quite adorable in it, all puffy and pink, with that white rabbit’s fur framing her face!”

Barbara Gilbert gushed. “Oh, yes, I saw that just yesterday. She would look lovely in it, Mrs. Turner.”

“Angela Turner does not exist merely for the two of you to dress her up like one of those horrid “Bar-bee” dolls,” groused Sister Evangelina. “Mrs. Turner has the good sense to dress her daughter without all that ridiculous frippery, I’m pleased to say.”

“Hmm-mm…” came the distracted reply. Shelagh Turner stood near the hatch, watching as her husband and daughter returned toys to the toy corner. Angela scooted about, her hands slapping the floor as she crawled from toy to toy, neither the little giraffe in her mouth nor the yellow smocked dress impeding her progress.

Instead of bringing a smile to her mother’s face, however, the sight brought out two lines of worry on Shelagh’s forehead. Trixie moved closer and asked,

“Shelagh, is everything alright?”

Shelagh quickly shook herself from her reverie. Pressing her lips together, she took a deep breath and responded. “All is well, Trixie, thank you.”

Trixie remained unconvinced. “I suppose I’ll have to pretend I believe you, even though I don’t. Is it the concert? I’m sure you’ll sing beautifully, we’re all looking forward to it.”

“Thank you,” Shelagh smiled. “I suppose the concert does have me a bit nervous. I really much prefer performing as part of the choir. I haven’t had a solo since I was back in Aberdeen, and the director wants me to stand right out in front.”

Patrick entered the kitchen, Angela squirming in his arms. “Her hands are filthy, I’m afraid.” He moved to the sink and ran the water.

Reaching for a cloth, Shelagh began to soap up her uncooperative daughter’s hands. “Sorry, Angel Girl, but if you’re going to crawl about on this messy lino we’re going to have to scrub your hands.”

“Shelagh, don’t fret so. Angela will walk when she’s ready,” Patrick soothed. He picked up the toy giraffe and handed it back to his daughter.

“I know, Patrick. I can’t help worrying.”

“Of course you can’t,” Trixie teased. “It’s a mother’s prerogative to worry, Dr. Turner. You’ll walk when you’re good and ready, won’t you, Angela?” Turning back to Shelagh, she noted, “I’d be careful of encouraging her, Shelagh. Something tells me this one will go straight from crawling to running!”

 

Two nights later, the Turners paced the vestibule of the church as they waited for the others to arrive.

“This is why I’m never early,” Patrick complained as he glanced at his watch again.

“Hah! You’re never early because you’re always late,” Timothy returned. Placing his sister down, he coached, “Come on, Ange, let’s get some walking practice in. If we don’t tire you out you’ll spend the whole of the concert trying to wiggle away and find Mum.”

Her arms raised over her head, hands gripping her brother’s tightly, Angela waddled about the dark panelled space. Her dress, a close match to her mother’s own blue velvet,  swayed around her knees, its broad white bow bouncing jauntily.

“See, Mum, she’s getting it. We just have to be patient.” Standing quite still, he waited for his sister to get her balance and slowly released her hands. Angela stayed straight for long moments, then dropped to her knees. With a squeal, she quickly crawled across the space to her mother.

“Oh, well. At least she always goes to you.” He scooped his sister up and returned to their starting point.

Patrick grinned and took his wife’s hands. His eyes swept over her. “I can see why. You look extraordinary tonight, my love. I’ve always loved this dress. For some reason, I’ve always loved you in blue.”

“Patrick,” Shelagh blushed.

“Shelagh,” Patrick teased. His eyes caressed her face and he continued in a whisper, “I can see you, walking towards me down that aisle, the most beautiful creature I’d ever seen. All I could think was how lucky I was that you chose me.”

For a moment, they were both lost in a world of their own, oblivious to the sounds growing around them.

“Dr. Turner!” Sister Evangelina’s voice broke through. “It’s all fine and lovely, strolling down memory lane, but the concert’s about to begin. You should probably release your wife and let her get about her business.”

“Wait!” Trixie came through the doors. “Poor Angela can’t attend her first concert in those shoes.” Holding out a pair of shiny black patent leather shoes, she asserted, “When a lady gets dressed, every detail matters.”

“Oh, Trixie, they’re lovely!” Shelagh smiled. “You needn’t have done this.”

“Every girl needs her shoe fairy, and if not me, then who? Besides,” Trixie giggled, “it was ever so adorable shopping for them! Now, you go join the choir and we’ll get the little princess sorted.”

As expected, Trixie was completely right. Angela’s shoes made her outfit. Even Timothy agreed.

“I have to say I’m quite satisfied with my own boring black uppers, Dad, but Angela’s shoes are adorable.”

“Yes,” Patrick grimaced. “I’d agree if she’d stop kicking me!”

As the concert began, Angela settled on her father’s lap, tapping her shiny new shoes together and playing with the bright gold buckle. Soon, however, the late hour and soothing music put the little girl to sleep.

From her place in the choir, Shelagh watched her family. Tonight, all worries disappeared in the joy of the holiday. Timothy had quickly found his feet at the grammar school, the medical practice was settling into an easier pattern, and Angela was a bright and happy child. There was plenty of time for her to walk yet. Shelagh smiled as she remembered things happened as they were meant to.

She stood for her solo, and caught Patrick’s eye as he winked his support, a broad smile on his face. Her voice was clear and sweet as she began to sing, her favorite Christmas hymn filling the church.

Awake with the suddenness only a child knows, Angela’s head popped up in search of her mother. She wriggled in her father’s arms, and eager to keep his daughter quiet for the rest of the song, Patrick placed her at the end of the pew next to him.

Angela sat for a moment, then caught sight of her new shoes. Inspired, she laughed just as her mother hit the high note. In an instant, Angela Turner slid off the pew, and holding on to the dark wooden side, stepped into the aisle.

Too late, Patrick realized what was happening. He reached for his daughter without luck. Angela Turner would go to her mother.

As the choir sang the chorus, Shelagh’s eyes caught the bit of commotion in the aisle and her voice wavered. Realizing exactly what was happening, she crouched down and held her arms out.

One wobbly step, then two, then four, and then Angela ran the rest of the way to her mother.

Some claimed it was the spirit of the music, some declared it was simply time for the developmental step, and some said it was a testimony to the love between a mother and child.

But later, as the crowds gathered to celebrate, two ladies in shiny black shoes found their way back to each other and shared a moment of understanding. It was all of those things, of course.

But every girl needs her shoe fairy.

 

This was part of Rockbird’s “Hiatus Production Pic Production”  fic extravaganza.  While Rocky was away enjoying the wilds of Cornwall, I filled in for a few haitus pics.

This picture appeared on the CtM Facebook page on Tuesday, May 26th, and features the church used in several episodes (you may remember a certain wedding? or be trying to forget a certain funeral?). Then SuperflousBananas and Atearsarahjane ratcheted up the prompt.

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Gorgeous

I’m cheating a bit with this “Hiatus Production Pic Challenge, May 25th.” I’ve left yesterday’s Emerald Fennell/Patsy mannequin pic for Rocky, as she might be brewing something with that (or not–no pressure, Rock). So this prompt isn’t exactly a pic, but the pic of the tweet made me so happy, I don’t care.

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Shelagh Turner bustled into the sitting room, nervous despite her smile. “Now when she comes in, don’t start with her about the length of the skirt. It’s not too short, not even a bit.”

“Hmm…” Patrick responded, doubtful.

“Patrick, please. She’s nervous enough as it is. If she thinks you don’t approve, she’ll not have any fun tonight.”

He frowned and crossed his arms. “I don’t approve. She’s too young to start dating, I’ve said that before.”

“She’s seventeen, dearest,” his wife reminded him. “I’d say it’s been put off for about as long as possible.”

You didn’t date when you were seventeen,” Patrick muttered. He really wanted a cigarette right now. Funny, fifteen years since his last, and he still felt the craving.

“I wasn’t your typical teeneager, so that hardly applies.” Shelagh stepped closer and pressed her cheek to his arm, her arms wrapped around his waist. “Besides, I was waiting for the right man to ask me.”

A small laugh escaped his lips as a crooked smile replaced the frown. “I suppose it’s too much to ask for her to go into the Order until I’m ready for her to start dating?” Shelagh looked up and he met her lips in a gentle kiss.

“Mum, when you said you’d soften him up, I didn’t think you meant this!” Angela Turner stood at the entrance to the sitting room, her outraged expression a direct contrast to her lovely appearance.

“Well, that was foolish, dear. I should think by now you’d be fully aware of my strategies,” her mother teased.

Patrick stood in stunned silence, voices drifting past his ears. Before him stood a vision in pale blue, the light layers of chiffon swirling around her knees. Tall and slim, Angela Turner had blossomed into a beautiful young woman.

Images flashed before Patrick’s eyes:  a newborn, pink and curled into a bundle barely bigger than his hands, a toddler with flaxen hair and brown eyes so big she could charm the world. Angela had been a precocious child, a born leader with a sharp mind and a kind heart. Patrick watched as she gracefully turned before him.

His wife’s small hand squeezed his, bringing him back to the present. “Patrick?” she asked. “What do you think? Isn’t she beautiful?” Shelagh whispered. He could hear the tears of happiness and sadness in her voice.

He took a moment to gather himself, and then smiled.

“Gorgeous.”

Angela Cracks Up

After yesterday’s trial run, Rockbird86 gave me permission to continue as her locum until she returns from the wilds of a family holiday.

So here’s a response to today’s “Hiatus Production Pic Challenge.” May 22. 2015

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A little backstory: Maundy Thursday, or Holy Thursday, celebrates the last Supper of Christ. In the UK, the Queen celebrates by selecting a group of senior citizens to reward them for their Christian service to the community. (Thank you Google!) There’s more to it than that, but that’s the bones of it.


“Do you think she understands what’s to happen tomorrow?” Patrick Turner asked as he leant against the kitchen door jam. The table was strewn with newspaper, an assortment of bowls filled with bright dye and several dozen colored eggs.

Shelagh removed a bright purple egg from its bath and placed it on a makeshift egg-drying rack. “It’s hard to tell with Sister Monica Joan. You know how she is, Patrick. It’s quite possible she’s being willful again. It’s not exactly the sort of thing she approves of, you know.”

“I don’t see why,” Timothy replied. “Sister Monica Joan may be irascible, but everyone knows how she’s contributed to Poplar.”

Patrick laughed. “Irascible? Someone’s been at the vocabulary books!”

Tim deliberately ignored his father. “Why wouldn’t she be thrilled? The Queen only gets to honor nine men and nine women this year for Maundy Thursday, I know I’d be!”

Shelagh stood and began to clear the bowls of vinegar and dye from the table. “Part of becoming part of an Order is to surrender one’s self-pride; it’s part of the vow of obedience. Sister Monica Joan may feel that to accept the award she is setting herself apart, or indeed, above the rest of the Sisters. Of course, she could be contrary because she doesn’t like Prince Philip.” She glanced up at her husband. “Don’t ask.”

Patrick chuckled. “I wouldn’t dream of it. The vagaries,” he glanced smugly at his son, “of the venerated Sister are well beyond my ken!”

Shelagh hid a smile. “Really, Patrick. Sister Julienne has had such a time convincing her to accept. Finances at Nonnatus could always use a bit of help, and the added attention to the work we do in Poplar will hopefully encourage donations.”

“Nonnatus steps into the public relations game, then?” Patrick was quickly serious.

“Yes, in a way, I suppose. People have come to expect more and more from the practice, we need to adapt to the changing times.”

Timothy picked up a pale yellow egg and looked to his mother. “May I? Angela needs to practice if she’s to do it properly on Sunday at Nonnatus. Someone has to beat Sister Julienne.”

Shelagh considered for a moment. “Alright, I suppose. She’ll need a bath anyway after this mess is cleared. I’m not sure what made me think dyeing eggs with a toddler was a good idea. At least I had the foresight to remove her dress first!”

Timothy held out the yellow egg to his sister and picked up a blue one for himself. “See, Angela, hold your egg like this, no, you mustn’t put it in your mouth like that, right, like this, and we’ll tap the ends together.” Angela pulled the egg from her mouth and waved it in the air.

“Hold it still, Angel girl. Hold the egg still and Timothy will show you how to crack it,” Shelagh advised.

Unconvinced, Angela looked to her brother, then held up her egg. Gently, Tim rapped his against hers, once, then twice. Neither egg would crack.

Angela squealed, and with the precision of an expert egg tapper, struck her egg against her brother’s.

“She did it!” Timothy laughed. “Mine’s cracked!”

“She’s a prodigy,” joined Patrick.

But Shelagh knew better. “Just wait,” she warned them.

“Why?” they asked.

“Let’s just say I’ve learned the hard way to never give Angela an egg that isn’t extremely hard-boiled.”

There was another cracking sound, and three pairs of eyes turned to the grinning  tot. Clutched in her chubby hand were the remnants of her lovely yellow Easter egg, fragments of shell and egg strewn in her hair.

“So much for anyone beating Sister Julienne this year,” muttered Timothy.

The Last Days of Brylcreem

I’ll be serving as Rockbird’s locum today in her “Hiatus Production Pic Challenge.” Hopefully, she’ll get some much-needed rest after we’ve run her ragged creating multiple fics this last day or so…

This itty bitty thing is set earlier the morning of the fan-favorite scene, “Hello, Nurse!”


 

Mornings were always their special time together, from the first day of their marriage. A time away from the rest of the world, they both woke early enough to steal moments that strengthened their intimacy. Fortunately, as Shelagh couldn’t bear to put Angela in the small box room they’d set aside for a nursery, the baby slept quite deeply, and their early conversations left her undisturbed. Unfortunately, Angela didn’t sleep as deeply as Patrick would have liked.

“I can’t believe how quickly the time’s gone, it’s like summer’s just rolled right past me! And now there’s so much to do before school begins, I’m not sure how I’ll get it all done.”  Shelagh sighed as she gently caressed the forearm wrapped around her.

“What needs to be done still? You’ve bought Tim’s uniform, he has a new bookbag, I should think he’s all set.”

Shelagh rolled her eyes in frustration. “Really, Patrick. I sometimes think you married me just to take care of all the little things you never think of!” Sitting up, she threw the covers back.

Smart enough to know when he’d talked himself into a corner with his wife, Patrick pulled her back towards him. “Now that’s silly. If I never thought of the little things before, why would I marry you to take care of them?” His nose nudged at her ear and he whispered, “I married you for entirely different reasons, sweetheart, that have very little to do with errands and school uniforms. I can prove it to you if you like.”

Shelagh giggled. “I’m sure I don’t know what you’re talking about, Patrick.”

Patrick growled lightly and proceeded to show his wife exactly what he did mean. But with a precocious baby in a cot not three feet away, mornings were not what they once were, and Shelagh soon put a reluctant stop to his lesson.

“She’ll be awake any minute, I’m afraid.” She sighed quietly as her fingers toyed with his hair, tousled and messy from a night’s sleep.

Patrick smiled, his eyes locked with hers. “If we’re very quiet?” he cajoled.

A deep, throaty laugh rose up between them and Shelagh responded, “You always say that, but we never are.” She pulled his face to hers for one last kiss, then sat up.

Patrick was unwilling to let the subject drop completely. “How about my lunch break? We could meet back here?”

Looking down at her husband, Shelagh shook her head. “That’s not what I intended when I insisted on you taking a break each day. You’re meant to be resting and having a decent meal.”

“I can’t think of anything better to help me relax midday, Shelagh,” he teased, a crooked smile on his face.

“You really are incorrigible, you know that? There’s no need to smirk at me like that, Patrick. Even if I wanted to,” she ignored his huff of disbelief, “we can’t today. Timothy needs a haircut desperately, and as it is, I’m not sure I can manage that. The surgery is booked for the morning, and there will be piles of paperwork to file before I head over to the clinic. I can’t see how I’ll get Timothy to the barber, plus feed Angela and do all that.”

Patrick knew when he’d been beaten. Shelagh’s schedule was an intimidating thing, and he knew any major disruption to it would lead to even more time apart.

“I’ll take Timothy to his haircut, then. He can meet me at the maternity hospital and we’ll run get that managed. We can stop for lunch, too, so there’ll be no need for you to pack one for me.”

“Patrick, I thought we’d decided you’d cut back on greasy food?”

“Shelagh,” he warned. “One thing at a time?”

Conceding his point, she rose from the bed to check on the baby. Like a jack-in-the-box, Angela popped awake, reaching to be freed from her cot, and Shelagh lifted her up for a snuggle. “Good morning, Angel girl. Take care of Daddy whilst Mummy gets ready for the day?”

Patrick joined his wife and reached out for their daughter. “You know, I think I’ll get a haircut today as well. Two birds and all that,” Patrick informed Shelagh as he let Angela pat at his cheeks.

Shelagh stood suddenly from the drawer she was rifling through. “A haircut?”

“It’s not so unusual, Shelagh. It’s been over a month since my last.” By now, Angela was pulling at his ears.

Shelagh sat down on the bed beside them. “I know, but I’ve grown to like your hair a bit longer, dearest.”

Something in her voice made Patrick’s eyes fly to hers. “You do?” he asked huskily.

Shelagh blushed and looked away.

“Shelagh…” Patrick’s voice coaxed a response. His hair was a source of frustration to him, for once it grew beyond a certain length, it had a way of flopping into his eyes. But if longer hair had the effect he was beginning to suspect it had on his wife, it was a small price to pay. Especially if he heard her tell him so.

Shelagh took a breath and pushed on bravely. “And no Brylcreem, if you please, Patrick,” she stood up and turned to the door. “I’d prefer not to get my hands sticky with it tonight.”


Walking Together

Timothy Turner’s face was set, all his will concentrated on the new crutches under his arms. The weight of the calipers on his legs both stabilized him and shifted his balance. A few days of physical therapy wearing the metal and leather contraptions, and Tim was ready to take to his feet. Step by step, he paced the length of the polio ward, determined to master this important move toward recovery.

“That’s it, Tim, well done,” his father’s voice cheered him on. “Just wait until Shelagh sees you!”

Timothy grinned widely as he clumsily did an about-face. “Well, I’m certainly not going to win any dance competitions, that’s for certain. I must look an absolute oaf thumping around on these things.” His happy face took the edge from the self-deprecating words, however.

Patrick grinned back and reached around to re-adjust the left crutch. “She’ll think you look like Gene Kelly, more likely. Now, don’t let the crutch slip too far forward. It’ll put too much pressure to the front and could put you off balance. Try again.” He stood back and watched proudly. “That’s it,” he repeated. “Just like that.”

A memory flashed by, his son just past his first birthday, wearing that same look of determination on his face. Margaret’s hands held his chubby little fists as the tot wobbled on his short little legs. Without baby Timothy  knowing it, his mother slowly released her son’s hands and clasped her own together, holding her breath.

The toddler took one slow step, and a second, then found his momentum and charged towards his father. He crossed the six feet separating them, then threw himself at his father’s legs.

“Well done, son!” Patrick cheered and swung his boy up into his arms.

Margaret crossed to join them, reaching one arm around her husband as the other hand squeezed her son’s foot. “We’ve been practicing with me holding on all day, but he wasn’t interested in going on his own at all until he saw you come in!”

Patrick turned his head and kissed her. “He wanted to have us all together, that’s all.” He hugged the boy a bit tighter but was met with resistance.

“Oh, no,” Patrick joked. “Just look at that stubborn face.” Timothy began to push away, eager to try his legs again. “I’m afraid young Master Turner is off to the races!”

The thumping of the crutches on the hospital linoleum floor brought Patrick back to the present. Timothy had already improved in the few passes across the room, and Patrick laughed quietly. “I was just remembering your first steps. We were so proud of you, toddling across the flat. You didn’t walk for long, though. Almost immediately, you were running circles around the flat. Your mother swore you were going to wear a path in the floor, make your own track oval between the kitchen and the sitting room!” His finger traced circles in the air.

Timothy chuckled. “I remember she used to call me “Thumper,” because of the noise my feet made as I ran through the flat.”

“It was Mrs. Wilkins from next door that started that, I’m afraid,” Patrick reminded him with a grimace.

“Right. Mrs. Wilkins didn’t like children, did she?” Already comfortable with the crutches, Timothy rested his weight on them and let his body hang.

“That’ll hurt if you do it much,” his father pointed out. “But no, I think she preferred her neighbors to be a bit quieter than you. I’m sure she was thrilled when her husband moved them nearer his new job out by the rock quarry.”

Timothy shifted his body up again. “You don’t have to keep going, Tim. You don’t want to tire yourself out.”

“I’m not tired, I’ll be fine.”

“You always say that and then you never are…” Patrick teased.

“Just one more time. I want to be able to really surprise Shelagh when she comes this afternoon.”

As he finished the last pass, Timothy collapsed on his bed. “Well, that’s got me knackered. I’d better rest a bit before Shelagh comes or I won’t be able to show off.”

Patrick helped his son lift his legs up on the bed, then sat on his regular chair next to the bed. “She’ll be thrilled, Tim. Really.”

Timothy reached for the model plane on his bedside table, fiddling with the wing. “Dad, how long will I be on the crutches?”

Patrick considered. “Dr. Carson thinks your arms and back are extremely strong, so maybe a month or two, perhaps.”

“But if I work very hard?” Tim still would not meet his father’s eye.

“Tim, what’s wrong? I thought you were happy to be up and about.”

“I am, of course. If I had to sit any longer I think I was going to go mad! I just… Dr. Carson said back after Christmas that I could go home when I was used to the calipers.” His voice grew quiet.

Nodding. Patrick answered. “Soon, Tim. Probably just a few more weeks, then you’ll be home for good. Is that what you want to know?”

Timothy looked up, his face beaming. “A few weeks! That’s brilliant. I can definitely last a few weeks!” He sat up, eager again, and Patrick smiled widely.

“It will be good to have you home again, son.”

“And…” Tim hinted.

Patrick’s brow wrinkled in confusion. “And?”

Timothy rolled his eyes. “Dad, you said after I came home…Ugh. You have no sense of romance, Dad. Do I have to all the work?”

“Oh, Lord, Tim. That’s right. I was so caught up in your recovery I nearly forgot!”  He started to laugh. “Do you reckon she’ll say ‘Yes’ again this time?”

Timothy smiled his wise little smile. “Don’t worry, Dad. I have a plan.”

 

An hour later, Shelagh entered the ward, her arm filled with a stack of new comic books for Timothy and the others. She was quite proud that in addition to Eagle and Valiant, she had unearthed a copy of an old American superhero magazine. That was sure to keep the children happy for a little while, certainly.

Timothy’s bed stood empty, it’s bedding smooth. “Where on earth?” she wondered aloud. Turning to the boy in the next bed, she asked, “Harry, do you know where Timothy’s got to? I was supposed to meet him and Dr. Turner here tonight.”

Harry tried unsuccessfully to hide a grin. “Not sure, Miss Mannion. Try the hallway outside the nurse’s office, maybe?”

Sighing in her confusion, Shelagh shrugged out of her coat and left her new hat neatly on top. Smoothing her skirt, she set off around the corner.

Patrick stood in the middle of the hallway, a serious smile on his face. “Hello, Shelagh,” he said.

Sensing an undercurrent to his greeting, she answered. “Hello, Patrick.” Why was it becoming hard to breath?

“We have something to show you, my love.” Patrick shifted to one side, revealing Timothy, standing proudly, supported by his calipers and crutches.

Slowly, but with confidence, Timothy and Patrick walked the length of the hall towards her.

“Oh,” she whispered. Emotions crossed her face, confusion and surprise melting into delight, then ripening into tearful joy. As they came to stand before her, her two most beloved of all people, she laughed happily and clasped her hands together.

Words would not come, so Patrick helped her. “We said we’d wait until Timothy was better, Shelagh.”

Timothy chimed in. “I’ll be home in just a few weeks. And if I work very hard, I may even be able to leave the crutches here, too. With my calipers on, I’ll be able to walk in the church all by myself.”

Shelagh’s eyes flew from Patrick’s face to Timothy’s and back again. “Marry me, Shelagh.” Patrick proposed. “In one month’s time. Let’s not wait any longer.”

“Please, Shelagh? Please will you marry my Dad?”

 


Building Up Through the Cracks, Part One

A/N: This is set during Series 3, Episode 5. I always think of the third series as a period of trial and error for Shelagh. She’s not completely certain who she wants to be, or how to become that woman. Her only certainty is the “rightness” of her choice to be a wife and mother to Patrick and Timothy.

Also, I’m definitely in the Timothy-calling-Shelagh-Mum-from-Early-On camp. He calls her “Mum” so naturally in episode 8 and wanted so much for the wedding to go forward, that I think he’s much more likely to admit vulnerability than his father.  Perhaps a trait from his mother?


The flat seemed too quiet without Timothy and Patrick now. Each had somewhere else to be, out in the world, and Shelagh could feel the walls closing in on her. Patrick was right, Timothy needed time to be a boy, to play out, to get into a bit of mischief. Here in the flat, months after his release from the hospital, he must have felt trapped.

Shelagh shook her head to clear the fog of self-doubt. What was done was done. She would have to apologize to the boy, and move on. Yet somehow, knowing the path she must take did not make it easier to follow. Her hands felt so idle, her mind adrift without Timothy’s time to consider.

What now? she wondered. For so much of her life she had followed a plan, had a purpose. Patrick’s solution, that she help at Nonnatus whilst Sister Julienne rested, seemed the best course. The task of keeping the midwifery and nursing practices going would certainly busy her hands and mind. Perhaps that would be enough, for now.

The door of the flat creaked open slowly, and she could hear the halting steps of her stepson as he quietly returned. Shelagh felt her face relax into an amused smile. She knew Timothy well enough to know he was feeling remorseful for abandoning her this afternoon. She sighed and put her unread book down.

“Hello, Timothy,” she called cheerfully. Best to let him know he wasn’t in trouble from the start.

Cautiously, he appeared at the sitting room door. He swallowed tightly.

“Your father told me you were playing cricket this afternoon. I suppose I’ll finally have to learn the rules, then! I hope you had a pleasant time.” Even to her own ears, her voice sounded stiff. She smiled brightly to cover her unease.

“Yes,” Timothy replied. He bit his lip, hesitant. “Dad said I could.”

Shelagh nodded. “Of course. Did you get anything else to eat, you must be hungry. I can reheat dinner unless you’d prefer to wait until your father gets home?” She nervously moved into the kitchen, conscious of the strain between them.

“No, thank you. Dad gave me pocket money for an ice cream. I can wait ‘til he gets back. He said it should be a light list tonight.” He glanced quickly at her, then away. “I think I’ll go to my room now if you don’t mind. I’d like to read for a bit.”

It was as if they were strangers, on their best behavior. Memories of her distant father flooded her mind. Stoic as to character, made even more so by the death of his wife, Douglas Mannion had preferred silence. The physical distance of the convent school Shelagh attended soon after her mother’s death was nothing to the emotional estrangement she felt from her father.

This was not why she left the Order, Shelagh thought. The emotional connection she felt with Patrick and Timothy filled in places in her heart she hadn’t known existed. She would not let misunderstandings and doubt take that joy away from her.

Taking a deep breath, Shelagh tapped on Timothy’s door. A muffled, “Just a moment, please,” came through the wooden door, followed by rustling and a thump.

“Alright, you can come in.”

Timothy sat on the edge of his bed, his calipers in a heap on the floor. His face was tense, and Shelagh nearly lost courage. They had grown so close in this past year. Had she undone that in her desire to mother him?

“Timothy, dear, I’m afraid I owe you an apology.” She swallowed heavily. “I’ve been so anxious to keep you safe that I’m afraid I’ve … smothered you a bit. It’s only right that you should want to be outside with your playmates, and I’m certain they would welcome you. I won’t stand in your way any longer.”

Timothy didn’t respond, his eyes to the floor.

“Well, then,” Shelagh forged on, her voice cheerful. “I’ll be in the kitchen if you need me.”

The hallway seemed dimmer as she made her way back to the kitchen. She had made the effort, but it seemed the damage was already done.

“Mum?” she heard him call through the flat. Worried, Shelagh returned to his doorway.

Timothy hadn’t moved from his place on the bed, his eyes still on the floor. His voice was hushed. “I’ve been a bit of a beast to you lately. I knew you just wanted to protect me, but it made me angry. I’m sorry if I’ve hurt your feelings. It wasn’t nice of me to be so rude.”

Shelagh stepped into the room, closer to the bed. “I understand, dearest. You’re not a little boy any longer, nor-” she added certainly, “nor are you an invalid. If we want your legs to get stronger, it’s silly for you to stay inside with me. Sister Evangelina always says “A bored boy is a naughty boy.’”

“Is that why she’s always giving me things to do?” Timothy quipped. “Maybe she should give Gary a list!”

Shelagh chuckled and sat on the bed next to him. “I’m not sure even Sister Evangelina could think of enough things to keep Gary out of trouble!” She reached down, reaching for his calipers. “I suppose these aren’t necessary to wear whilst you’re reading. Call me when you’d like to put them back on, and I can help.”

Tim nodded, but his face clouded over.

“Timothy, is there something the matter? Can I help?”

He fiddled with the leather straps. “I had so much fun today, I really did. The others were brilliant, and no one seemed to mind I was so slow.”

“That’s because you’re smart enough to pick good friends.” She pushed his fringe back from his forehead, waiting for him to say more.

“I know it’s your job to worry about me, but I’m going to be fine. The doctors are all pleased with how well I’m doing, and playing out will only help.” He paused, gathering his thoughts. “If I tell you something, you promise not to hold it against me?”

“You sound like a barrister,” she joked.

“Promise?”

Shelagh nodded. They weren’t starting over, but it felt a bit new, somehow.

“I’m glad I went out today. It was great fun, but I’m sorry that I made you feel bad, and I won’t do it again.” He looked up and met her eyes. “I am a bit sore now. That’s why I’ve taken off the calipers. My legs feel rather like when the physical therapy is a bit difficult.”

Of course, Shelagh realized. It would hurt. Pushing out against the old ways always did. But it had to be done.

“Alright, then. Lay back whilst I get the liniment. We’ll get these poor pins rubbed down and ready for tomorrow’s adventures.”